Thread by @kat_blaque

hahaha. So I'll make a confession:
The closest I've been been to being obsessed with @VaushV is the few days him and I sexted each other a few years ago. I won't share those messages though because they're personal. Instead, here's our relevant DMs: dropbox.com/s/uxyev11bxw68…

I'll warn his audience who thought my thread was too long: this conversation is very long and my thread about the exchange is much shorter and easier to read. I uploaded a zip file for easier viewing. I GENERALLY write very long threads, Vaush is not unique in this lol

Literally none of my followers should be surprised that at one point, i thought a bearded leftist dude was attractive. Tis my very publicly recorded weakness. I was young and foolish! lol.

Anyways, I lost the incredibly brief positive feelings I had towards him after I kept seeing him engage in bigoted shit. I will STILL maintain that if he is a net positive for the left, that's a good thing.

To address the old tweets people are bringing up namely this one, this is actually a really great example of the main issue I was criticizing.

You'll notice that those messages are part of an ongoing conversation. That's because when i saw this person's original tweet (which was something about how terrible it is to be transgender), I responded saying that being trans was great, actually, misinterpreting them as a troll

And I confidently believed they were a troll and so I made a joke. A very dark one. Turns out that kid was an actual 14 year old trans kid and I felt really fuckin' miserable about misinterpreting very valid self loathing as a person being transphobic.

It was a mistake, a really fucked up one and it taught me about how I don't always need to say certain things or share certain jokes. That if my main priority on my platform is to advocate for a better future for trans folks, that this is unhelpul and damaging

So now I'm pretty careful about what I tweet and who I tweet at. I still haven't forgiven myself for saying that because I know how much it would have hurt for me in that position (which was one I was in myself as a teen)

I will always respect the people who withdraw their support from my work because they are upset/harmed/hurt by the times I've said fucked up stuff. I've said a lot of fucked up things and each of those experiences has been a moment of growth.

I have always felt that you dont have to support the people whose content alienates you or harms you, but that people do indeed change and I pretty genuinely hope he stops doubling down and shifts. I doubt it though.

Ultimately, as you'll see through our messages, I tell him more than once that I am not obsessed with him or fixated on him. Quite literally the only time I tend to reference him is when people pressure me to, which is quite often,

Read through the messages and think of the fact that he started the conversation and insisted even though I tell him several times I do not care, but wish he can be more productive in his work.

I speak fairly often about not being a person who really engages in fandoms and I'm a person who has very few interests that are intense. Vaush isn't one of them. Give me a JCS Crime inspired Youtube channel, however... lol.

I could not go down the list of all of the bad things Vaush has ever said because I just... don't care. If he has been collecting every bad tweet I've ever made... I'm definitely not the one obsessed here and again, it should be noted that he reached out to ME.

Anywho, now I'm really logging off hahaha. Enjoy.

(i have more time since im waiting for my bf to get off work lol)

Of course this is Petty and childish but still quite entertaining to me. Judge me for it, but I don't particularly care.

Lol I am so dead at all of the black women saying that I shouldn't have said this out loud. Yes I know I failed. I know I know lol. We all make mistakes! I was, my 20s!!!!