Thread by @SnowAurus

Ok so let’s talk about #otherkin and awakenings!

When I use the phrase in the morning “renegade eccentrics” I use the term honestly. I’m a renegade eccentric.

From my very first concrete memory, I’ve felt like I’m piloting around in this body.

Strange I know, with this early conviction came the mystery of just who is doing the piloting. I knew I didn’t feel or identify in any way with being human, but here I am, driving this meat suit, having a human experience.

As one could imagine, this had a profound impact on me,

So I grew up wondering, seeking, questioning, and it drove my interest in learning, I spent hours studying, learned about psychology, mythology and religion, it even led me into the only answer my small West Texas town offered, Evangelical Christianity. That was a dark time.

The answer the church gave me was that it was Demonic Opression, that I had to kill that part of myself as it wasn’t from God. Along with the driving a meatsuit, and not anyway human feelings, were also the feelings that I wasn’t meant to be male, and all of that had to be purged

It was the only answer I had,failure meant hell. This was before the internet was a big deal, before I knew I wasn’t the only one, and everyone,society,culture, family, the church told me this was the only way.That I was broken at best, demon oppressed at worst so I had to buy in

So I did the deliverance camp thing, twice, think of those as a low rent pray the gay away camp, I threw myself into evangelical Christianity and went to war with myself but it all felt like dying.

The god that supposedly loved me and wanted to fix me remained silent, and it led me to a very dark choice, and I almost didn’t survive it. Waking up the next day with fresh wounds on my wrists, came with it a strange revelation… I had let go of the artificial construct.

It was the first time I encountered My Lady, and she very much saved me I think from crossing. I still didn’t have answers, but about a year after that, I had my first powerful awakening experience.

In that deeply spiritual moment I went from being some kind of spirit piloting a meat suit, to some kind of lagomorph piloting a meat suit. It took another three years to find my way out of the Christian briar patch, but as I did, a new faith began to grow within me.

As that faith grew, came new moments and revelations as I slowly drilled down into the ultimate identity of my spirit, and with each passing moment of growth I found greater peace, this process took over 7 years.

This is not something most folk will ever understand, but I’ve also learned that I am not the only one out there like me. With those awakenings came community. It’s within those communities that I’ve found love,friendship and understanding.

I know some reading this may scoff, or mock, or even condemn me, but these words are not for them. It’s for those out there wondering if they’ll ever find their answers, if it will ever get better, if they will ever understand.

I’m living proof it does.

These are also for those human allies that wonder what the heck is going on with all the bunnies plastered all over my timeline. Yeah,I’m a strange creature,but I’m myself, and that’s not something I’ve always been allowed or knew to be, and it’s one of the reasons I revel in it.

Thanks for reading. I’m going to tag this to the nines. #otherkin #therian #heathen #eccentric

If you have questions or just want to talk, feel free to ask on the timeline or by DM.

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