Thread by @MissSaraPalmer

⚠️Trigger warning ⚠️

MKULTRA

FOSTER CARE

PSYCHOLOGICAL,
PHYSICAL &
SEXUAL ABUSE

WARNING

A 🧵🪡 about visiting my mom & discovering the truth about my past

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The 1st part of my trip to MN to see my mom was pretty stellar

I showed up at her nursing home where she is staying and she was wearing some 4 leaf clover 🍀 bouncy headband thing

I laughed at first but then she told me that all of Ireland 🇮🇪 is celebrating 🥳 the Queen’s

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death & she’s 50% Irish ☘️

We shared a good chuckle 🙊

My mom is like a kid in an old adult body that was abused by the system & her own family (my grandparents that raised all 8 of us kids)

We chatted for a couple of hours & played very competitive BINGO

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apparently her housemates think my mom is cheating cuz she wins😂

The most tragic part of our meeting was my mom revealing to me that the entire basis for her being unable to have us anymore was based on a lie…

& my mom was forced to go with it by The G & the “authorities”

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As kids, it was revealed to us that she was driving in downtown Minneapolis one day & she was at a red light watching a couple cross the street in front of her

We were told that she was watching them go from Heaven on one side of the street & that they were crossing over to

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Hell on the other side🔥

So to protect them, we were told, she ran her car into them so they wouldn’t go to hell

We weren’t given details about injuries except maybe a broken leg & nobody died

Buttt she was institutionalized that day. We never lived with her again & she was

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diagnosed w schizophrenia & pumped w super toxic drugs for the next 30years

Shortly afterwards my dad had a nervous breakdown that he staged; he couldn’t handle even a few of us, let alone 8

I won’t go into detail now, but it was extremely violent, traumatic & brutal way to

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end that parent/kid relationship

& I blamed myself for it happening for 25yrs; I never had a solid parental relationship again

We were removed from their care by the government. There’s about 2 weeks of time where I have absolutely no recollection until I’m suddenly living

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w my grandparents in a new home w all 8 of us. Why couldn’t I remember what happened after??

Even immediately after it happened I was questioning why I couldn’t recall just days before…

Knowing what I know now, I believe I was a victim of MKULTRA & my mom probably was too

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It should be noted that my grandpa was in the Air Force & was a union trucker, so he had ties to the government & the underworld obv.

They were both abusive & strict Catholic. My grandpa was a pedophile & I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s on a mason list too

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I know now, that I was programmed to be a Beta Sex Kitten for him

& later for others as a dancer / sex worker

I always knew they fucked my mom up, so I could never trust them

Though of course they were martyrs in our church & community for taking all 8 of us kids in

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Validation is important to these types & gives them ammunition

the abuse didn’t stop it just changed

I got in trouble once for correcting my grandpa on what the smallest state is, bc he said it was Hawaii…

Wasn’t allowed to eat w the family & had to go to my room lol 😂

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being yelled at for his ignorance

That was a “lite” punishment

Soap in mouth, face in a corner of the wall, bare ass spanking were typical

Then of course I was molested for years & had no choice but to hide it or I was threatened w splitting the family up in foster care

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And in my mind, I had already broken up our family once

& technically we were wards of the state in foster care already

So I just had to survive

And know the real reason we were taken in by them…

For his pleasure of course

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My mom used to be very beautiful, smart & popular; a beautiful blonde w brown eyes but rebellious against authority

I always wondered what they did to her…

Her eyes are green now & she has brown & gray hair. I was always the only one w green eyes 👀

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Extremely gentle & protective nature; she never wanted us to go live w her parents & she noticed I wasn’t being treated well

She even stood up for me & physically intervened when she saw The G being rough w me in the kitchen once during a visit to our new house

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Instead she was made to look crazy

It fell on deaf ears & she was helpless w no agency

The G made it look like she was having an episode again but she wasn’t; she was protecting me from her

And it was all based on a LIE

The biggest personal lie of my lifetime:

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Bc just last week I finally asked my mom about the car accident in Minneapolis 30+ years ago

She laughed & said NO

& she said she didn’t see any visions, no hallucinations

Ever.

Like she doesn’t have schizophrenia at all & she’s been trying to tell people that for years

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That story was made up presumably by my grandparents

So they could take us in

She said she was just having a nervous breakdown from STRESS & wasn’t even using drugs

She said her mom, The G, has been saying this for years behind her back to everyone

To cement her case

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My grandparents wanted us

to be our saviors in an extremely neglected & abusive environment w/o supervision

Wow 🤩 Beautiful story

Except the abuse didn’t stop,
Only major neglect did

My grandpa started to abuse me immediately & for several years

I was 6yo & have PTSD

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& insomnia since that time until recently

My entire life has been a lie
Not just regarding the government
But within my own family

I’m not surprised

It never felt right walking on eggshells; never being able to even ask my mom this bc I was told she was fragile &

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could start hallucinating

The G - my grandma created the story & retold it enough so that it BECAME truth

I can’t even tell u how many times I repeated this lie

The G enabled her with weekly liters of Pepsi & cases of cigarettes for dozens of years

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& forced a diagnosis of schizophrenia on her

Ensuring she’d be institutionalized

& then given violent treatments & medications that create the problem they are supposed to treat

Which also make people’s weight/size balloon to extreme proportions

& unappealing to be near

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Weird, just over a week ago the G was trying to claim I have schizophrenia…

Munchhausen‘s by proxy is a serious condition & it apparently is in my own family

It’s the most subtle evil & a type of psychopathy

People don’t suffer from Munchhausen‘s

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they make OTHERS SUFFER, so that they can look like saviors/martyrs

Sometimes karma takes awhile, but I think The G knows she will be in purgatory, at best

Which is the group she prays for the most

& it doesn’t matter how much $ she gives or how many times a week she

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goes to church

Or how often she goes to visit my mom

At least my mom is pampered & well liked by staff; her needs are met & she’s happy

She’s too far gone now, to live outside those walls

But The G gets to live well & better on the other side at the expense of my mom

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Mom told me there’s room for me to live w her there at the nursing home, if I decide I want to move in 🥺

I told her
-there’s not enough room (it’s like 12’x12’ w a single dresser lol)
-I don’t have a disability &
-Xander is in Vegas

w a tear in my eye…😭

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Mama Ayahuasca showed me in ‘18 that I always wanted to save my mom

I “purged” a single tear from my eye during the visions

My subconscious knew this whole time; I should have trusted my natural instincts

🌱🌈✨🌲🌊🎋

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Mama Aya told me I don’t need her medicine anymore, but can come back anytime 🌬✨

It’s the great, gentle Grandmother medicine

The Grandma I actually deserve

I won’t be able to call my grandma “The G” anymore :/

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Trust destroyed & I didn’t even make time to visit her …

Though she was probably expecting me to come by

I had more important things to do

& so she doesn’t know that my mom told me the truth yet

😬🤬😤👿

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Mom’s name is Patty, she was born the day after St. Patrick’s Day & she hates the Queen too. So relieved she gets it, why don’t others?

Fuck those pirates🏴‍☠️
🍀🇮🇪

Despite being out of state, I’m her only child of 8 that will visit her 🥺

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My big sis & sparkling role model /s Rachel Mauer has literally never gone to see her once; at least some of them can say they went once or twice

I told mom it’s bc they are assholes

And it’s all based on a lie
Just like their religion, Covid/germ theory & globe earth

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Hell is hot 🥵

Honor your mother
your father &
your children

So that was enlightening obv

While in her neck of the woods of central MN…

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I also went to go see my college nearby

I chose to go to St. Cloud State Univ in Sherbourne county where my mom lives & I was born

So I stopped by for a visit & in good spirits

Land of the gnomes!! 🧙🏻‍♀️✨🌲🏡
fairies 🧚🏼‍♂️ are born I’ve heard

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It’s on the Mississippi River
This was outside my dorm

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Across from the gardens 🧚🏼‍♂️🧙🏻‍♀️

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And I had to stop by my old dorm:

Shoemaker Hall

Where my friends & I would steal the “S” off every chance we got

Making it:
HOEMAKER HALL obv 🙃😎🤩

I got to keep the “S”
Bc as Sara, I put the S on Hoemaker they said 😂😂😂

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Anddd I WAS a resident advisor my 2nd year

— until I was asked not to return bc I started dancing 💰💃 & making that money … and some of my residents saw me on stage 🤦🏼‍♀️ 😬🙃😅—

So they weren’t wrong

Beta Sex Kitten programming is real 🤯

End of part 1 🧵

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