Thread by @cup_of_comfort

#haikaveh #アルカーヴェ
Alhaitham and Kaveh had been married for two years; it's something everyone had known. After all, it's the marriage of two of Sumeru Akademiya's best—the Grand Sage, and the Light of Kshahrewar.

Nobody questioned if they hadn't had any kids—they're both busy people, so perhaps they needed a little more time.

What everyone didn't know was—that Kaveh had actually wanted one badly. Despite how it looked like, he loved Alhaitham, and would like to bear his child.

But he remembered Alhaitham once said that he wasn't suitable for kids, so he never brought the topic up.

They still had sex—it was always enjoyable, a way to join their bodies and hearts—secured with a piece of condom and Kaveh's birth control pills, just to be safe.

But even safeties could fail, if fate willed for it.

Somehow, by magic or miracle Kaveh didn't understand... He looked at the calender and realised that he hadn't experienced any heat symptoms that month.

And lately he had been throwing up way too much in the morning.

Was it even a surprise, when Kaveh visited a doctor and got told that he's seven weeks pregnant?

He asked about aborting option, to which the doctor answered.

"Go home and think about it well. Come back next week if you have decided that you won't regret it, Sir Kaveh."

Kaveh obeyed.

That night, as Alhaitham embraced and thrusted into him, Kaveh reached a hand to his husband's cheek, brushing a drop of sweat rolling down his skin, and thought about how handsome Alhaitham was.

Would the child be a boy or girl? If it's a boy, Kaveh hoped he'd grow up to be as handsome as Alhaitham.

If it's a girl, Kaveh's sure she'd be very pretty, too, with silver hair and sharp emerald eyes, a brilliant mind and quick wits. Like Alhaitham.

Of course, Alhaitham noticed. With those smoldering gazes he stared at Kaveh and put his hand over Kaveh's.

"What's wrong?"

Kaveh shook his thoughts away.

"Nothing. Just thinking that you haven't fucked me as hard as you used to be. Is my husband getting old?"

There's a pleasant feeling bubbling in Kaveh's chest when Alhaitham growled at the provocation.

"Don't cry or beg to stop. Don't complain if you can't walk later."

"I'd like to see you try."

(He's terribly sore in the morning afterwards, but sated... And also contemplating.)

The days came and went by, and then good news came; that the new, long-term project in the desert that Kaveh had proposed long time ago had finally been approved by the Grand Sage.

Perhaps this was how fate played itself, and Kaveh was more than willing to go along with it.

When it's time to depart, Alhaitham seemed reluctant to let him go. Kaveh was confident that his husband didn't know about the child yet, but perhaps the instinct embeded deep inside couldn't be fooled. However, Alhaitham always prided himself in his rationality and not instinct.

"I'll be fine," Kaveh reassured him. "It's just for eight months. Don't skip meals and let your books scatter around the house, okay?!"

"...you sound like a wife."

"I *am* your wife! ...archons, Alhaitham. If you really want me to go, just say so."

"..."

The lack of biting reply from Alhaitham kind of surprised Kaveh. Even more surprising when Alhaitham bent down to give Kaveh a kiss. In front of the expedition team, and the other Sages, out in the open.

"See you."

Kaveh was so stunned he forgot how to retort back.

Thankfully nobody commented about it when they departed to the desert, Kaveh's face and nape flushed red, his bite mark throbbed.

How he wished to turn back and tell Alhaitham that he didn't want to go, that he's pregnant. He'd beg to Alhaitham to let him keep this child.

But he gritted his teeth and fought against the instinct.

He loved the child, but he loved Alhaitham more. He didn't want Alhaitham to hate him, that's all.

Kaveh knew he couldn't hide his pregnancy forever.

It's easy to lie to the others when he swayed from dizziness as heatstroke, but as his belly gradually grew, he had no choice but to tell a white lie.

"I'm pregnant, but don't tell Alhaitham yet! I want to surprise him."

The team agreed to keep it a secret only if he stayed in Aaru Village and supervised the project from there. Kaveh had no choice but to accept, albeit grumpily, but deep inside he's grateful for their thoughtfullness.

Aaru Village and Uncle Anpu welcomed him warmly and—surprisingly—kept his secret well guarded, but as the time ran out, Kaveh grew extremely nervous.

He's alone, without his Alpha, for first labour. It's terrifying, he often woke up at night drenched in cold sweat and tears.

But he had chosen this, and Kaveh was nothing but determined.

And then, time for labour came at the seventh month of the project—with lots of pain and tears, Kaveh delivered a healthy baby girl, with silver hair like Alhaitham's and red eyes like his.

Kaveh cried the first time he held his baby and nursed her. She was mostly quiet, only fussy when it's time for milk and nappies.

She turned exactly like Kaveh had imagined: a spitting image of Alhaitham.

The villagers all adored her, even Candace and Uncle Anpu.

Fortunately—or unfortunately—the project ended up completed in time, a month after Kaveh gave birth to his baby.

He had to go back to Sumeru City, but he couldn't take his baby back.

The child he gave birth to and had come to love so deeply.

The night before they went back, Kaveh secretly met with Candace and Uncle Anpu and begged them to take care of his baby.

"I... I can't bring Aliyah home. Alhaitham doesn't want kids."

"Kaveh-san..." Candace called his name with pity, and Kaveh hated that.

"Please... I beg you. I'll take care of all the expenses, I'll come visit her whenever I can, but... I can't take her home. I'd rather have her entrusted in your hands rather than put her in the orphanage!" Kaveh said, desperate. "Please help me."

"...okay," Candace finally said. "We'll take care of her."

Kaveh was relieved, but the feeling was short-lived when he moved to transfer Aliyah from his arms to Candace—and she cried, loudly, for the first time since she was born.

No matter whatever they did, Aliyah didn't stop crying until her face was blue and her cheeks damp from tears. When dawn came, she dozed off from exhaustion, and Kaveh reluctantly let go.

He practically ran off to Caravan Ribat as fast as he could, fearing if he stopped—

—and looked back, he wouldn't be able to leave.

The journey back to Sumeru City was uneventful, and before long, Kaveh was home, back to his husband...

...yet for it, he left a piece of his—and Alhaitham's—soul, in the desert.

-part one — END-

uum... i didnt expect it to get this long... moreover to have my notif explode... 😭 thank you so much for enjoying my fics!
part 2 will be posted tomorrow. i might write a proper version of this and post in ao3 later.

this is created from brainrot w/ @Ligust1 !

part 2 over here!