As of today I ~officially~ have long COVID (as recognized by the CDC), so I wanna take a second to explain what’s happening. To set the stage: I’m 30, I’ve been an athlete my entire life, and I used to be extremely healthy, minus some pesky seasonal allergies. My resting heart 1/
rate used to be ~67, and my blood pressure used to be 120/80. I have no underlying conditions. Right now, I can maybe walk a handful of blocks before passing out. I had a really intense week of COVID with all your classic symptoms. Then they got better, and I thought I was 2/
getting better too. A week later, I tried to go for a walk with my boyfriend, ended up passing out, and he had to carry me home. It took 45 minutes for me to be able to stand without my knees buckling. And now this is my norm. My post-COVID clinic doctor told me that in about 3/
30 percent of cases across the country, they’re seeing patients who have a hyper-functioning central nervous system, which is why long COVID folks are exhausted all the time. It’s also why we feel more pain more intensely—all of those receptors are at 100, always. For whatever 4/
reason, my CNS ramps up my HR whenever I exert myself at all. My new RHR is between 85–95. (My new blood pressure is a whole other issue.) Walking up a flight of stairs can jack my HR up to 140, easily. I’ll hopefully know more about the why when I see a cardiologist—in a 5/
month because that’s how far out they’re booked in the Twin Cities right now. I am, truly, okay, besides being very tired all the time and not being able to do anything active. I’ve got a great support network, decent health insurance, and a sweet little wheelchair I found for 6/
$20 at a thrift store. So while I appreciate well wishes, I’m not sharing for that. I’m sharing because at one point in my life I literally RAN THE MILE UP THE SWITCHBACK WALL OF THE GRAND CANYON, and now I can’t risk standing in the jetway to board a plane. If my heart can be 7/
this affected by COVID, anyone else’s can be. I know it’s been so long, and so many people’s breakthrough COVID cases are mild. But a lot of people’s aren’t. And even if it is mild, a lot of people are seeing issues—cardiac issues being a big one—weeks after they thought they 8/
recovered. Getting vaxxed and boosted is critical—but so is masking. Please make safe choices. Anyway, here’s a cute little pic of my new wheelchair life and the best–wheelchair pusher (and occasional personal carrier) I could ask for.
Wow! Thank you all so much for your love and support. Unfortunately, since I’m supposed to be cutting out stimulus (screen time included), I can’t respond to everyone. But I’m so moved by y’all 🖤 Here’s hoping everyone struggling with long COVID finds healing.
Ah yes! As a few people have pointed out, I didn’t mention my vax status (that’s COVID brain for you). I was vaccinated twice and got the booster in January, so I was a four-month-ish breakthrough case.
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Arguing on Twitter isn’t my vibe, so I don’t, but I want to say this: Take it from someone 13 months into long COVID, mental health is wealth, and protecting it is vital. We can choose to hear the most dramatized, demonizing take on a misunderstanding
—a thread written specifically for querying writers who have yet to break into the profession interpreted in the context of professional writers—and take it for truth, reacting to it. No one is stopping anyone from doing so, and honestly, I don’t judge people for it. We’re all
sad and scared and hurt. We feel so helpless in this world, and anger feels powerful; it feels like it accomplishes something. I’ve been there time and time again, and I’m not going to pretend I won’t stop back for thirds. The downside to this anger, though, is that with every
Y'all, being an agent is a profession, not a series of value judgements. We are salespeople. We need to sell because this is how we pay rent and feed our families. That is a difference between being a writer and an agent, and I know writers hate hearing this, but it's true: 1/
writing a book is a passion, and whether or not that books succeeds is enormously personal, no doubt, but given that no one contracted you to write the book ahead of time, the success of that book does hurt your ability to buy groceries. That is not the case for agents. We 2/
only make money when we sell books, so we need to pick up books we feel capable of selling. That's the judgement: Can I sell it? Y'all are assigning so many cruel, misguided, point-blank wrong intentions behind what is, for us, a business decision—not because we're callous and 3/