As a child, she yearns to be average height - she asks the doctor for pills to make her tall, she hangs by her arms from doorways trying to stretch her body.
Adults act as if she is invisible and they say things they wouldn't say if other children were around. For Trudi, this is the beginning of something key...
Teachers dismiss her assertiveness for pushiness. She is frequently bullied, and yet it is she who gets in trouble when she defies the bullies.
For Trudi, "rage carried its own dignity".
And so it does. 🔥
She longs for acceptance & feels her body is a barrier to this. Had she been accepted, her attitude towards her beautiful dwarf body would change - I think.
So she finds her power: in mining people's secrets. Ppl assume they know about her, because she's a dwarf but she knows *all* about them.
Trudi herself fuels the lie knowing they don't know about her stories but she knows the truth about theirs - giving her power over them.
Shops are smashed.
Friends are murdered or taken away.
Trudi and her father help to hide Jewish friends and neighbours from the Gestapo
"They didn't know about [tall ppl] - that's how prejudice starts... and so they were afraid of the difference."
"Being a Zwerg [dwarf] is like carrying your deepest secret on the outside - there for everyone to see."
But she doesn't really depict anything resembling pride, which is sad. I kept waiting for Trudi to love – not accept, love – herself & her body, but this never happened & I was left wanting.