being "mindful", being aware of my body, my surroundings & myself, avoiding dissociation - those have always been things I struggled with.
you know when they got better?
the second I got meds that reduce my pain.
it's almost like pain is the problem here and not the tools our brains use to deal with it
there was a time where I was always dissociating my pain and telling myself what I was feeling wasn't pain at all, because I 100% believed it was all psychological.
that was bad.
but someone who asks for pain treatment has already made this step. they know where they're at.
which removes them from their physical experience.
which is the exact opposite of what "mindfulness" pretends to be about.
but still, going without distraction for even a few minutes was excruciating, and not just because of the adhd.
without starting to cry and wanting to tear my limbs off (which therapists told me was a PTSD symptom... no it's chronic pain)
and the few and short episodes I get are only because of pain treatment, management of my underlying condition (mast cell trigger avoidance), pacing, and because I get enough in-home support to actually be able to DO pacing.
- people who are more "mindful" have less pain!
because pain destroys your ability to be "mindful".
it's like saying a wheelchair causes walking disabilities.
which doctors say all the time 🙄