It's just so terrible.
I honestly cannot bear how my life is some days. The restrictions, the relentless pain, the anxiety, the yearning to be well.
I miss wholeness. Even the wholeness I had.
It is so hard knowing this is how it will be for always.
And I want to be brave and model that for others, but dear G*d suffering is NOT ennobling. It just wears you down every blessed day.
I *am* grateful to be alive.I am *not* grateful to be in so much pain. It's one of those days where I feel unmoored by how trapped I am.Irony.
Tell your stories.
Other people need to know your struggles.
I hope we can all access surcease from suffering.
Thanks for listening to my little TED talk. 💜🌿