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I am exhausted. Since Trump became president I cannot sleep. There are days my stomach is so full of anxiety I want to crawl in a hole and end it. My existence, my ability to take care of things very personal to me, all depend on policy and the direction of this country. 1/
My oldest son is 21, but he is a high-functioning autistic child w/ aspergers. In order to properly care for him he needs Medicaid. I cannot afford health insurance and if I could the deductibles would make care impossible for all of us. I am always fearful and ever watchful. 2/
I have twins who are 19. One of them is transgender. He completely passes as male & recently had top surgery. That being said, none of his transgender care is covered by insurance & the direction the administration is taking on trans rights has us all deeply concerned. 3/
That same son also has auto-immune disorders, which affect him greatly. He is in pain constantly. His joints are weaker than most, so he's had one knee surgery already & has the other knee scheduled for January. He is unable to work & be independent, so his credit suffers. 4/
Anxiety & depression run in my family. He is depressed because he had to leave college, his drive to succeed & thrive independently has been squashed & he's taking it hard. His twin sister has PCOS, which also causes depression & anxiety. Thankfully her birth control helps. 5/
But I have to worry constantly with this war on women if she is going to be able to get birth control. When she has it the hormones are regulated & she is happy and thrives. Without it she grows depressed, anxious, and has mood swings. She just isn't herself. 6/
My youngest child is 15. They just got released from a mental health facility yesterday, where they spent a week working on their depression, anxiety & sleep. They are now medicated for all three & doing well. However, I had a pitt in my gut the entire time. 7/
They also have PCOS and it causes the same symptoms as my older daughter. They went to the facility suicidal and capable of self-harm. I am a single mother, who left a man that had us constantly on egg shells about two years ago. Prior to that I had been a stay at home mom. 8/
It hit my youngest the hardest. I've been back to work the past 2 years & they are alone all day while I am there. It makes going to work difficult, but how else do I pay the bills? When their sister moved out it was very hard on them. So lots of changes led us to this point. 9/
I had my own health issues come up in April. I had to go to part time, which makes money super tight. Thank goodness for low income housing units, which allows me to live here rent free if that time comes. It won't pay the electric or the luxury of internet, but... 10/
I am a super sensitive person; an empath. I absorb what others feel like a sponge & end up feeling responsible for it all. My job is difficult because I deal with so much personally that taking on the health concerns of others proves challenging. It raises my anxiety tenfold. 11/
I spent the last week crying, nervous, on edge. Then I decided that I would not allow fear or the unknown to control me. Instead, I am going to do what I can to change my situation & roll with the punches as they come. My daughter & her boyfriend have moved in to help. 12/
I have 2 job interviews tomorrow. One is for a bank teller at a credit union, which would be far less emotional. I plan to ask for a week notice, so I can earn $6-800 that week working on democratic campaigns. I've been doing what I can voluntarily, but this presented itself. 13/
I have FMLA for my twin son, but that wasn't covered for the days I've had to miss for my youngest. Neither is any of that paid time off. So the one week temp job would help make up the loss. We plan to save & find a home we can all split rent & bills in. 14/
It makes smart sense to get a place we can all share, so none of us are struggling alone. In the era of Trump everything seems dark, sinister, and sometimes hopeless. I refuse to let him do that to me or the people I love. We will learn to adapt & roll with change. 15/
We will also be walking together to #VoteBlueToSaveAmerica at our polls on November sixth. We will continue to support, encourage, and inspire each other and those around us. No matter what is happening in your life or the world, we have a choice of the legacy we leave. 16/
The only hope poor people have is pooling together our resources. If you have that ability I suggest the same for you. We don't know what is coming for certain, and the more prepared you are for anything the better off you'll be. Don't allow this chaos to freeze you. 17/
We are all in this together, no matter the personal struggles we face. For every struggle out there I can point to a Trump policy that worsens it. I can also point to the hope of the blue wave in primaries & what that may indicate for the general election. 18/
Just don't take for granted that dems will win. Get out there and VOTE. Your voice matters to me & it matters in this election. Make sure we hear it! Please don't allow your exhaustion to prevent your passion. Have a great day! 19/
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