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𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙞𝙣 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙡 🌙 [yoonseok au]
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yoongi is looking for a new roommate after his best friend moves out. hoseok is looking for a place to stay.
after just one week of living together yoongi is convinced that hoseok is part of a cult - when the truth is way easier.

[this will be my next au, i hope you will like it! first of all, some warnings.]

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨:
- mostly social media with written parts.
- ignore time stamps on texts.
- might contain some gore but nothing heavy.
- maybe nsfw later on?
- don’t reply on the thread, quote only.
- contains side ships (taekookmin & namjin)
- enjoy!

1. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
jung hoseok:
- 23 years old
- dance major
- the devil’s son, but his mother was human
- best friends are jimin and taehyung, his half brother is jeongguk

2. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
min yoongi:
- 24 years old
- music major & rapper
- human
- his best friends are seokjin and namjoon

3. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
park jimin:
- 22 years old
- dance major
- angel
- hoseok’s best friend
- his boyfriends are jeongguk and taehyung

4. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
kim taehyung:
- 22 years old
- art major
- angel
- hoseok’s friend
- his boyfriends are jimin and jeongguk

5. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
jeon jeongguk:
- 21 years old
- photography major
- demon
- hoseok’s half brother
- his boyfriends are jimin and taehyung

6. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
kim namjoon:
- 24 years old
- producer
- human
- yoongi’s best friend
- his boyfriend is seokjin

7. [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨]
—
kim seokjin:
- 25 years old
- youtuber (eatjin)
- human
- yoongi’s friend
- his boyfriend is namjoon

8. [namjoon is worried]

9. [yoongi looking for a new roommate]

10. [namjoon helps]

11. [jihope’s texts]

12. [namjoon helps pt. 2]

[hello to everyone reading this; i’m sorry i haven’t updated in ages, i have been pretty busy but i will update more frequently from now on! i hope you will still enjoy the au and keep supporting it! thank you!]

13. [namjoon found the perfect roommate]

14. [first yoonseok interaction]

15. [a week later: new roommate arrives]

16. [how’s it going so far?]

17. [creepy as fuck]

18. [wait until you get to talk]

19. [taekookmin+hobi]

20. [gone]

21. [i give up]

22. [oh]

23. [can’t lose him /again/??]

[time for some backstory ;)]

24. [flashbacks]
hoseok sat on the couch and looked around in yoongi’s living room. it looked almost the same from last time he had been in here, just with less pictures; less pictures of yoongi and himself at least. a lot had happened in the meantime, and the biggest change was

25. that yoongi did not remember hoseok; he didn’t remember loving hoseok, or being hoseok’s boyfriend. and all this just because of his damned father, the devil. the dancer wondered how he could be the devil’s son and yet he was so different from him. it hurt to see that yoongi

26. didn’t remember anything, as if they had never loved each other. how could feelings, memories like that vanish so easily, just because of a spell put on yoongi by the devil himself? when in reality everything had been so much different once.

27. hoseok and yoongi had met four years ago, when the two of them had ran into each other in a coffee shop where the younger of the two had worked. hoseok, as flirty as he was, had written his number on yoongi’s cup, and even though the older didn’t seem particularly

28. interested in him before he had gotten a text from him the next day nonetheless. from there on it had continued; they had talked on the phone so many times, yoongi had come to the coffee shop daily from then on too, and after about three months they had started dating.

29. ever since then they had been the happiest couple; even their friends found them so disgustingly adorable together. there hadn’t been any secrets in between them - yoongi had even known that hoseok was the devil’s son. and overall they were just happy together.

30. until one day the devil himself had decided to turn against them. why? because hoseok didn’t like his father, to say the least - he hated him. and so did jeongguk, his half brother. even after many tries to get his hands on either of his sons, he had never succeeded.

31. and it wasn’t the best idea to mess with the devil himself, to not give him what he wanted.
the end of the whole story? their father had decided to ruin their lives, or at least hoseok’s most of all. why? because hoseok was still partly human, jeongguk wasn’t.

32. and the devil knew that it would be no use to mess with jeongguk - and other than that he was his favorite son anyway.
hoseok didn’t even want to think about what had happened. honestly, it was still the best outcome he had wished for, because after all yoongi was still

33. alive. all that had happened was that the devil had taken all of yoongi’s memories and feelings for hoseok, as simple as that. but would that stop the dancer from trying to get him back? no. his memories and feelings hadn’t been lost, and he would fight back.

34. no matter what it took, he would get yoongi back. but he didn’t have forever to achieve that.
what if yoongi fell in love with someone else? what if he didn’t fall in love with hoseok again? it already felt as if he had fucked up wth the whole ‘summoning the devil’ thing.

35. [end of flashback]
when the door opened suddenly and yoongi entered hoseok flinched and turned around quickly to look at him. “oh, you’re done with your latin thing?” yoongi said and sat down next to hoseok on the couch.

36. it made the younger boy chuckle and he nodded - this all would be easier if he pretended for now. “sorry for that. i just unpacked my stuff and learnt a bit for my latin class; might sound weird but i always learn while speaking, i didn’t want to scare you,” he explained.

37. yoongi just shrugged and leaned back against the couch, sighing. “wasn’t even scared. i was just in the mood for some coffee,” he mumbled, making hoseok smile to himself - such a bad liar. “anyway, wanna tell me about yourself now?” yoongi asked while looking up again.

38. the two of them talked all night, about whatever came to their minds really. it started with getting to know each other - or at least yoongi getting to know hoseok as the dancer already knew yoongi, and after that they talked about life.

39. to say the least, it hurt hoseok to know that yoongi didn’t remember him at all; just because of his stupid father. - but talking to him, realizing that he indeed didn’t remember anything, that was what hurt even more.

40. nevertheless, he enjoyed the evening. it felt good to be spending time with yoongi again and talking to him. for now he could live with that, but he would get yoongi’s memories back for him, definitely.
—

41. yoongi, on the other hand, enjoyed the evening just as much. yes, he had been creeped out by the boy earlier, but right now there wasn’t any reason to be afraid anymore. maybe he had just talked himself into stupid things, but right now it felt good to have some company,

42. and to get to know this boy. not only was he pretty attractive, but he was also nice, kind, funny. something in him felt weird, though; his heart was beating so quickly, yet it felt so empty, his mind was full of thoughts he couldn’t quite get a hold on, his stomach

43. felt all warm but also weird. yoongi didn’t understand any of this, and this was what frightened him now.
—

44. the two of them talked a little while longer until hoseok decided to get up - he couldn’t sit here all night, not doing anything about the fact that his heart was aching because yoongi didn’t remember him. no, he had to do something to change that.

45. “where are you going?” yoongi suddenly asked, pulling the dancer out of his thoughts. “oh, well, i found it was getting late and i have to get up early tomorrow, so sleep would be nice,” he explained, sighing. it was obvious that this was just a stupid excuse.

46. and he hoped that yoongi wouldn’t be mad at him. “but... you promised cuddles, can’t i have some now? i-i mean... i mean you could sleep still while doing so, right?” yoongi couldn’t believe he said these words, but he was tired, and he was confused, and he wanted cuddles.

47. for a second it caught hoseok off guard, it had sounded like a joke when yoongi asked for them back on the phone, but now? he really did want to cuddle, right? but then it would distract him from his actual goal: getting revenge on his father, and most importantly,

48. getting yoongi’s memories back. yet, he decided that yoongi was the main priority in all this, and he wanted him to be as happy as possible - so he would stay and cuddle him. just for a few hours. hoseok sat back on the couch next to yoongi and opened his arms.
—

49. the two of them laid on the couch, spooning, hoseok’s arms around the older boy as yoongi brushed his fingers gently over the dancer’s arm. they had been in this position for a few minutes now, none of them speaking a word.

50. hoseok’s heart was beating fast against his chest, happy to hold yoongi once again; but knowing that the other didn’t remember him, their relationship, that still hurt. yet he tried to keep these thoughts away for now, focusing on yoongi next to him, in his arms.

51. not only hoseok’s heart was racing, but also yoongi’s. he literally didn’t know this boy but he felt like something in him told him to trust hoseok, to hold onto him. was he just craving affection? no matter what, he felt safe with the younger, and that’s why he just stayed

52. in his arms, closing his eyes.
—
“i feel like i’ve known you for ages, hoseok. isn’t that weird? you only told me random facts about you and your life, and i told you random things too, but it somehow feels... as if i already knew all of that, and so much more,” he mumbled.

53. right then, hoseok felt as if a dagger had been stabbed right into his heart. he didn’t remember anything, but his heart knew, his heart remembered. why couldn’t he just remember? right, because his memories had been taken, not temporarily but permanently.

54. hoseok gave a small smile nonetheless, playing with the hem of yoongi’s shirt. “it’s not weird, i feel like that too,” he lied - he could never tell him the truth, yoongi would think he was crazy. the older boy turned around a bit and looked at hoseok, not saying anything.

55. instead he stared at hoseok for a while, biting his lip absentmindedly before realizing and looking away. he was still confused, but he tried to ignore it and closed his eyes then. “thank you for holding me,” yoongi whispered, and just minutes after that he fell asleep.

56. his mind was still fuzzy and confused, but his heart felt warm and safe; this carried him to sleep in the end. hoseok laughed gently when he noticed that yoongi was asleep, running his fingers over the boy’s cheek. “if only you knew, yoon,” he mumbled, sighing before

57. closing his eyes as well; yet, he didn’t find sleep that night, instead laying awake all night with yoongi in his arms. this was enough for the start, but he would definitely get yoongi’s memories back anyway - for yoongi and for himself.

58. [jeongguk has a plan]

59. [the next morning: yoongi wakes up to a text from hoseok]

60. [yoongi’s reaction]

61. [his mood is ruined-]

62. [namjin + yoongi; what is logic?]

63. [namjoon asks jin to stop his crackhead behavior; they know the truth too??]

64. [meanwhile, namjoon talks to jimin as well]

65. [meanwhile hobi texts taekookmin + some explanation]

66. [tae texts gguk about the group chat situation]

67. [gguk apologizes + offers to meet]

68. [yoongi worries about hoseok, but hoseok is still disappointed in him]

69. [has yoongi fucked up?]

[for the next part before i update i need your opinion. do jeongguk and hoseok succeed in summoning the devil this time? or not yet?]

70. [something written out - yoongi with namjin]
—
“do you think he’s mad at me?” yoongi asked suddenly, looking up at seokjin and namjoon. he knew that he had done something wrong when he had ignored hoseok in the morning, especially since the other had been so nice.

71. but he had been freaked out once more - not for the first time. maybe he had also panicked; the day before they had cuddled and hoseok had been so nice, and then everything was weird again.
namjoon looked back at yoongi and let out a soft sigh, shrugging.

72. “i don’t think he’s really mad, just disappointed probably because you ignored him. yoon, just try to apologize maybe, and please don’t freak out next time. there’s an explanation for it all, i’m sure,” namjoon explained and patted his shoulder.

73. yoongi let out a dramatic sigh at his words, resting his head on the couch. “i fucked up. he was so nice and now he probably hates me.” this time seokjin hit his arm, not so gently. “shut up, you whiny idiot. you did fuck up but it’s nothing you can’t fix. -

74. just make something to eat for you two tomorrow, and apologize. i don’t think he’s someone who’s easily mad, or someone who doesn’t forgive,” seokjin said then, watching yoongi ein his arm where he had been hit, a pout on his lips. “fine...”

75. [more written out parts - hoseok and jeongguk]
they had tried three times now. three times of summoning the devil - and no result at all, it didn’t work. simply because the devil was such a stubborn bastard - and maybe because he was slightly scared of his own sons.

76. hoseok let himself fall on the couch as he let out a loud sigh, closing his eyes. “that damned bastard, fuck. will he just hide forever and never show up?” he complained, opening his eyes to look at jeongguk. the latter sat down next to his brother, patting his shoulder.

77. “i don’t know, hyung. but don’t worry, okay? we will do this somehow. let’s try one more time and if it still doesn’t work we will stop, hm?” jeongguk suggested, ruffling hoseok’s curly hair. it made the other smile gently as he nodded - he was glad to have a brother like

78. jeongguk honestly. the younger was always so supportive and always tried to help, even though he was a demon - he loved him more than anyone else; except for yoongi of course. “let’s try one more time, yes.”
—

79. an hour passed and nothing happened. hoseok and jeongguk stood around a pentagram surrounded by candles and were chanting the spell in unison - both of them wanted to give up, it was tiring and nothing happened anyway.

80. then, suddenly, the room was filling with smoke - had a candle fallen, was it burning? no. inside of the pentagram appeared a figure which looked like a human; a human that resembled both jeongguk and hoseok in some ways.

81. though, it was not a human at all. it was their father, the devil himself. “ahh, look who we have here~ jeongguk and hoseok, my sweet children. you have tried to contact me often lately, what is it that you want?” he asked in a voice that sounded so kind.

82. hoseok had mixed feelings about this whole situation; on the one hand he felt relieved that this had finally worked out, that they had summoned the devil, but on the other hand he was mad, he wanted to throw himself at his father and strangle him.

83. gladly the pentagram prevented him from doing so, and it also prevented the devil to do them any harm.
hoseok wanted to step forward and at least yell at their father, but jeongguk held him back and stepped in front of him instead. “you know exactly what we want, -

84. you stole something that doesn’t belong to you, and something that doesn’t belong to either of us either. it is not fair to pull some random person in something that involves only you, hoseok and me. give yoongi his memories back or you stay in this pentagram forever.”

85. jeongguk’s words made the devil laugh, shaking his head immediately. “trying to threaten me, son? that won’t work. i am not giving his memories back until you give me what i want - hoseok’s soul and you in hell with me,” he demanded, crossing his arms.

86. this time hoseok stepped forward, huffing as he fake laughed. “you’re such a piece of shit! you want to tell me you love jeongguk and want him with you? bullshit. you want power, nothing else. that’s why you want my soul too. how even dare you pull yoongi in all this? -

87. jeongguk told you what will happen, either you give it back or you stay in this pentagram forever.” just like before, hoseok’s words made the devil laugh once more as he moved closer to the edge of the pentagram.

88. “you, hoseok, don’t even have forever so you better say goodbye to your little boyfriend~ and you, jeongguk, you will come to me as soon as your beloved brother is dead or i will take your boyfriends too~ waiting these few years until hoseok dies is worth it, don’t worry,”

89. the devil said with a grin on his lips - it only made hoseok more angry, and this time jeongguk also lost his patience too at those words. “you won’t do any more harm to anyone, i won’t let you. now, get out of my face,” jeongguk said and wiped some of the pentagram -

90. away so the devil vanished, only leaving dark smoke behind.
—
hoseok grabbed jeongguk’s arm, turning him so they were facing each other. he was furious, to say the least. why had he let him go, after their effort? this had been their only chance to get what they wanted.

91. “what the hell? why did you do that, jeongguk? he won’t come back now if we try again!” hoseok yelled, tears growing in his eyes at the thought of never getting his yoongi back. he was mad, sad and feeling way too many things at once.

92. the younger boy sighed and stepped back a bit, pulling away from his brother. “seriously? he threatened not only you but also me and my boyfriends! i’m not letting him do any harm anymore, he’s too stubborn to keep him in that pentagram anyway! it’s dangerous!”

93. hoseok huffed and grabbed his jacket, looking back at jeongguk once more. “he couldn’t do anything in there anyway! god, you’re so selfish, jeongguk!” he said bluntly before going to the door, opening it.

94. before he could leave jeongguk glared at him, his eyes dark. “i am selfish? because i want to protect the people i love? no, hoseok, you are selfish because all you can think of is getting yoongi’s memories back. even if it would cost jimin’s or taehyung’s instead. -

95. even if it would take me going to hell for our father. just so you can be happy. you know what? don’t ask me for help again, hyung. this all changed you so much, for the worse that is.” hoseok walked out at that, closing the door behind himself.

96. these words didn’t leave him emotionless; he cried at them, looking to his feet - jeongguk didn’t even know how he felt. it made him sad and a little mad at his brother, for being so mean. but nonetheless, he started to walk back home, trying to suppress his thoughts and -

97. feelings. maybe he could talk to yoongi.
but when he arrived back at his house, yoongi was nowhere to be found. this night, hoseok cried himself to sleep.

98. [the next morning looks better already, hoseok gets texts from yoongi]

99. [yoon is in love uwu]

100. [taekookmin talk about last night :(]

101. [yoongi knows today is gonna be good~]

102. [after yoonseok’s dinner]

103. [today was indeed a very good day]

104. [but hoseok worries]

105. [jimin is worried too]

106. [jimin shares his worries with his babies :(]

107. [jimin will always support hobi ❤️]

108. [hobi finally replies to jimin’s texts]

109. weeks went by without another incident. hoseok had only tried to summon his father again at jimin’s house so yoongi wouldn’t freak out anymore, and yoongi was falling more and more for the handsome dancer living with him.

110. it wasn’t a rare thing to see that the two were cuddling, going out together - on one side, yoongi was totally in love and happy even if he wouldn’t admit that, and on the other side there was hoseok; he himself was happy too, to be able to spend time with yoongi, but

111. he just couldn’t live with the fact that yoongi had lost his memories. he would keep trying to get them back. though, hoseok did feel kind of guilty for not telling him about it all - he would gladly tell yoongi the truth, but he was afraid that the older would freak out.

112. [yoongi is in love~]

113. [but joon is worried :(]

114. [hoseok and jimin tried summoning the devil again, and it didn’t work :(]

115.[jimin listens and talks to tae and gguk]

116. [yoongi is attention deprived (aka hoseok deprived) and namjin helps]

117. [yoongi asks if hoseok wants to hang out - and forgets to answer -]

118. [ - because he live tweets instead]

119. [yoongi replies (and yes, that’s the cutest date idea uwu)]

120. not long after talking on the phone, both yoongi and hoseok found themselves on a small hill somewhere outside of seoul - simply because it was much more quiet there. the sun had set a few minutes ago and the sky above them was getting darker by the second,

121. more and more stars showing up on the dark blue sky.
they were laying on the grass, and it was a little cold like that - but then again, yoongi had his head on hoseok’s chest and was cuddled up next to him; was it really that cold? for now, it was bearable.

122. other than that, the grass underneath them was soft, and the sky above them was pretty. none of them talked right now; hoseok had one of his arms around the older boy, who was playing with the younger’s fingers, and hoseok’s other hand was in yoongi’s hair,

123. playing with it, running his fingers through his soft hair.
right now, it felt as if the two of them had never been apart to hoseok. it felt like they were still a couple, like yoongi still had his memories, like back when the two had always watched the sunset

124. together, and stayed outside so long that they also watched the sunrise too and then got back home, freezing, and cuddling in bed all day. everything felt normal again.

125. but when yoongi talked, he was reminded that nothing at all was normal.
“how did you find this place? it’s so quiet here, and all you can see is the stars and the sky, no houses, no cars.”

126. hoseok could almost feel his heart drop in his chest at the question; yoongi had been the one dragging hoseok up here one day, when they had taken a walk and searched for a nice spot to have a picnic date.

127. why did he torture himself like that? he could just stay away from yoongi until he got his memories back, he could be spared from the pain of seeing yoongi not remembering him. but hoseok knew he wouldn’t be able to stay away; he wasn’t the one who had lost his memories.

128. no, he remembered everything, he still loved yoongi. and no matter how much it hurt to see yoongi not knowing, it was worth staying close, seeing the boy smile and live life. at least he could still be a part of it, somehow. so he had to endure it, just a little longer.

129. “oh? actually, someone showed it to me a while ago. i come here often when i want to think, or just need some silence, you know?” hoseok replied after a while, realizing it must seem as if he was ignoring yoongi. the older boy laughed a bit and turned around a bit so he -

130. could look at the other instead of the sky. “silence? you? you’re like, the definition of loudness. but i guess living in a big city can be annoying sometimes, so i get you,” he said as hoseok looked back at him, letting out a short, soft laugh.

131. “i might be loud, but sometimes everyone needs some silence to think. especially when my thoughts are too loud already anyway, then i don’t need a busy city around me.” yoongi didn’t say anything for a while and just nodded, understanding what he meant.

132. instead, he focused on the younger boy’s pretty face; he noticed there was a mole on the top of his lip, the lips that always shaped into a beautiful, heart-shaped smile when he was happy, showing his adorable dimples. he also noticed how his long lashes brushed over his -

133. cute cheeks whenever he blinked, and how his eyes shone brighter than the sun whenever he opened them again, sparkling like a million stars.
only after a few moments he noticed that he was staring at the perfection that was hoseok, and he was so embarrassed that he quickly

134. pulled away from the younger and sat up, stretching just so he didn’t seem rude - he hadn’t wanted to pull away, but he could feel his cheeks burning as he was most likely blushing; and he didn’t want hoseok to see. damn, yoongi was definitely in love.

135. hoseok looked at yoongi and tilted his head a bit - of course he had noticed his staring, but he didn’t mind. yoongi had used to stare at him a lot, mostly it was even hoseok blushing and turning away, not the other way around. did it make him uncomfortable now?

136. “it’s getting colder now, don’t you think so too?” yoongi broke the silence between them, feeling weird to just sit there without saying anything. “do you think we should head back home soon?” he asked then, only now slowly turning around to look at the younger boy.

137. the question bothered hoseok, more than it should; maybe it wasn’t the question but the fact that yoongi was lying, because he was feeling uncomfortable around hoseok. “do you want to? i don’t think it’s very cold and i would like to stay a little longer.”

138. yoongi was startled by the other male’s words; thy had sounded harsher than before - was he mad? had yoongi done something wrong? he started to chew on his bottom lip, looking down at his own hands.

139. hoseok sighed softly and sat up as well then, moving closer to yoongi - he knew he had sounded harsh. “hey, i’m sorry. look, you just seem like you don’t want to spend time with me anymore right now, and i know i’ve freaked you out a lot during the past few weeks that -

140. we’ve been living together so i would understand that you’re uncomfortable. you just don’t have to lie about being cold when really you’re not feeling comfortable,” he said, placing a hand on the older male’s shoulder gently.

141. yoongi was confused when he said that; uncomfortable? he wasn’t uncomfortable around hoseok. yes, he had been freaked out more than once in the past weeks, and he still hadn’t gotten an explanation for it, but really he hadn’t felt more comfortable with anyone else but him.

142. had he gave off that vibe? if so, it was unintended.
“do you really think i’m uncomfortable? i’m really not, hoseok. do you think i would go stargazing with someone i feel uncomfortable with? no, right?” yoongi stopped there, trying to think of he right words to say.

143. “i mean, yes, you have freaked me out a lot. all the blood, the weird latin chants, are you part of a cult or something? but anyway, even though i was creeped out, i still looked forward to you coming home. so we could cuddle, and so we could talk.

144. and i don’t think i ever really felt uncomfortable around you. not even when we first met, which is weird because i don’t like a lot of people. and when you first walked in my apartment i felt as if i’ve known you for years, as if i could tell you anything and just -

145. be happy around you. i don’t know why, and i still don’t understand until this day, but i have always, always felt comfortable around you, hoseok,” he said, his voice quiet but steady nonetheless. yoongi was looking at hoseok again now, not knowing what to say next.

146. should he confess that he was in love with him, even? or would that just further ruin their relationship? but honestly, what was there to ruin? seokjin was right, he should give it a try at least. “you see, i think... well, i know that i really like you, hoseok.”

147. hoseok listened to yoongi as he talked, looking at the older male while doing so. and he was happy that yoongi felt this way - until he confessed about liking him. no, this couldn’t be happening. he wasn’t done getting his memories back yet, he couldn’t lie to yoongi.

148. what was he supposed to do? could he really bear to break yoongi’s heart and say he didn’t feel the same, when in reality he did but he just wanted his yoongi back, the yoongi who remembered everything? or should he maybe, possibly, tell him the truth? wouldn’t yoongi hate

149. him then, for lying? for pretending? or, should he maybe just act as if his yoongi didn’t exist, and let himself fall in love with this yoongi? but that wasn’t fair, not to any of them. their relationship would be a huge lie.

150. hoseok was lost; he didn’t know what to do. on the one side he didn’t want to hurt yoongi, he didn’t want to lie either though. and telling the truth? would that be the best option?

151. he really didn’t have a choice at all; he couldn’t lie to yoongi, it would just make things worse than they already were. he had to tell the truth. no matter if it would hurt yoongi or not, there was no other way; lying would ruin the future.

152. hoseok reaches forward and took both of yoongi’s hands in his own - the older was visibly nervous - and he moved a bit closer to him. “yoongi, i don’t know how to explain this all... look, you’ll say i’m crazy and you might even be mad, but it’s time to tell the truth. -

153. well, first of all, i am in love with you too. there’s a but, though. and that is that i have been in love with you for years already. yeah, it will all sound stupid to you but i’ve tried to keep you out of something that didn’t work. -

154. you wonder if i belong to some kind of cult? no, yoongi, the truth is way easier. i’m the son of the devil himself, though my mother was human. and yeah, that sounds as if i’ve gone mad, but it’s the truth. and what else is the truth is the fact that... -

155. the fact that we’ve been together already. we’ve been together for many years, until my father took your memories away. he took them away so i would go to him. and in the past weeks i have tried to summon him, whenever there was blood or spells. -

156. to get your memories back for you, because i wanted to have my yoongi back. you won’t believe any of this, because you can’t remember, right? but it’s the truth, you were my boyfriend, yoongi, and i want my boyfriend back. i tried to stay away from you, i really did, -

157. but it didn’t work; i couldn’t stay away from the person i love. and that’s why namjoon moved out, and i moved in with you. they all know too, in case you won’t believe me. namjoon and seokjin, they know the truth. i just asked everyone to stay quiet about it. -

158. i didn’t want anyone to say anything before i got your memories back. but it’s not working, no matter how often i try; either my father doesn’t show up or he won’t give them back for nothing. you should have been told earlier, but honestly? -

159. i was afraid, and still am, of your reaction. the only way you can react is thinking i’m crazy, because you don’t remember. and there’s so many things i did wrong with not telling you the truth right away, but i hoped that maybe we could get your memories back -

160. before i had to tell you the truth.” hoseok stopped there, realizing that by now, he was just rambling and repeating himself. he looked at yoongi now, trying to see some reaction in his expression, but when the older looked back at him he only saw pain in his eyes.

161. there were a few moments of silence before yoongi finally opened his mouth to say something. “you’re right, i think you’re crazy. but... but honestly, if this all was true, then why did you think it was a good idea to keep it secret? you could have told me. -

162. from the start. and then we could have tried together, to get my memories back if that’s true. we could have tried to fall in love again if it hadn’t worked, you know? but instead you decided to lie to me until you ‘had’ to tell the truth, and you decided to -

163. act as if we hadn’t known each other before this all. you still know me but to me you were a complete stranger, yet i still fell for you again, right? what were you afraid of? did you think i would push you away? did you think i would never talk to you again? -

164. you acted selfish because you wanted your yoongi back, and you never thought about your yoongi through all this. maybe i don’t remember anything, but don’t you think your yoongi would have wanted to help you through all of this? instead you decided to do this alone and -

165. lie on the way.” yoongi pulled his hands away from hoseok and slowly stood up; as weird as it sounded, he didn’t think hoseok was crazy and for some reason he didn’t think hoseok was lying either. it had been too easy to trust the younger in the beginning.

166. too easy to feel comfortable around him. and being with him, cuddling, and now, loving him, had all been too easy, too familiar for yoongi; he wasn’t a person to fall for someone easily, and get used to them quickly. his heart probably still knew how to love hoseok.

167. but his mind had forgotten about him. “we could have worked this out together, you know? but right now, i’m disappointed in you. maybe hurt. give me time, please, and don’t try to stop me from going now,” he said at last, before turning around and walking away.

168. yoongi’s head was too full now and his heart hurt when he left hoseok alone there, but he needed to think. the boy was hurt indeed, he was upset and confused and mad that nobody had told him; he felt left out, betrayed and he felt like crying.

169. for now, he had to get away.

170. hoseok on the other hand still sat on the ground, looking at yoongi as he left; and as demanded from the older he let him leave, not wanting to annoy him any further.
he had fucked up for sure now. yoongi was mad, and he probably hated hoseok now.

171. though, it seemed as if yoongi didn’t think hoseok was crazy; he was more disappointed than freaked out. and honestly, that wasn’t any better, probably even worse. was it really that wrong to keep this all a secret? hoseok has only wanted to keep yoongi safe,

172. away from all this trouble; but maybe wanting to play the hero wasn’t the right thing to do; definitely not so in a relationship.
honestly, yoongi was right. maybe this wasn’t the yoongi he fell in love with, but it was still yoongi, his yoongi.

173. and he should have been honest from the start, he should have let the older help him, because that was what his boyfriend would want.
it was too late to realize that all now, and hoseok knew that. if yoongi never wanted to talk to him again he would understand that.

174. hoseok got up himself after a while, wiping the tears he hadn’t noticed were falling down his cheeks away. right now, he didn’t know what to feel; anger towards his father, sadness because yoongi was mad, remorse because he had acted the wrong way and possibly ruined it all.

175. he needed to talk to jeongguk, even though he knew that his brother was still mad as well. hell, hoseok had really acted so selfishly all of this time; he needed to make it up.

176. [hoseok talks to jeongguk :(]

177. [namjin just want to ask how it went - but yoongi isn’t having their shit]

178. [namjin’s conversation afterwards]

179. [hoseok can’t sleep and wants to tell yoongi something...]

180. [hoseok messages gguk...]

181. [...while namjoon tries to talk to yoongi]

182. [yoongi needs to get away]

183. [hoseok texts yoongi after going to his house to grab some things and finding a note the younger left]

184. [a long conversation between hoseok and jeongguk]

185. [hoseok keeps messaging people because he’s worried :(]

186. [hoseok can always count on jimin]

// to everyone reading this: i know i haven’t continued in a while because i have been very busy, but i intend on doing so today! i hope you will keep reading this! thank you for your support, i love you all!!

187. hoseok and jimin did try again, and they failed again. the devil didn’t show up, and he probably never would. in conclusion: yoongi’s memories were forever gone. right now, hoseok didn’t know what to do at all; his head hurt because he hadn’t slept, his heart hurt -

188. because yoongi was gone and hated him, and his body hurt from trying to summon his father. how was he supposed to go on now?
“hobi, come on. you can’t keep sitting in front of that pentagram, the floor is cold and staring at it won’t help either. we both knew chances -

189. of him showing up were small, and you said this would be the last time. you need to fight for yoongi the normal way now,” jimin said, pulling the older up from the ground by his arm and placing him on the couch instead.
hoseok looked up at him and sighed, shrugging.

190. “what even is normal, jiminie? what do i do now?”
the younger sat next to hoseok and wrapped an arm around his shoulder. “you just give him time now, and he will talk to you whenever he is ready. but you have to show him that he is important to you, okay?”

191. honestly, hoseok didn’t know at all what to do, how to show him that when he couldn’t reach him, but right now he just wanted to sleep and forget all of this for a while. maybe that would give him better dreams than what reality was like now.

192. hoseok thanked jimin for his help then, but immediately went to bed - the younger was his best friend and he was thankful for his help more than anything, but right now he needed to be alone - though, his thoughts didn’t let him sleep that night anyway.

193. he took his phone then, looking through old pictures of yoongi and him; it only made him cry, but with a smile on his face. they were happy memories, and yoongi deserved to have them back too.

194. [hoseok starts writing stories of old memories daily]

195. [story one]

196. [story two]

197. [story eighteen; almost three weeks have passed where hoseok writes these stories daily and never gets a reply...]

198. [...until this day]

199. hoseok sat in jeongguk’s living room as he received yoongi’s reply, for a few seconds he was more than confused; had he actually replied just now, and said he loved the stories? but more importantly, he would come home? hoseok didn’t know what to do, how to react.

200. was yoongi being serious? would they be able to talk this all out? was hoseok supposed to reply to this message somehow or should he just wait? his questions were soon answered, when he received a call from yoongi.

201. [they’re talking on the phone]

202. the two of them talked on the phone for a very long time; to be exact, when yoongi has called he had just packed his stuff and asked his brother to drive him back to seoul, and they talked during the entire car ride from daegu to seoul. which took a little over three hours.

203. yoongi told him he was being serious about coming home and he asked hoseok to come to his house where they had lived together before, while hoseok was thanking him a million times for finally coming home and giving him the chance to explain everything.

204. the rest of the time was spent with hoseok telling yoongi more stories about their relationship, because yoongi has asked for more. the younger told him about their dates, about funny moments they had shared together, stuff they had done, habits they had -

205. such as always fighting over who loves who more, and who could stare into the other’s eyes longer, always kissing first thing in the morning and last thing before sleeping, and many more. he also told yoongi about the end of their relationship, he told him -

206. that yoongi had had cancer which was why he would have probably died, and why hoseok had traded his memories for his health. hoseok also told him how he had felt after the relationship had ended; that he was happy that yoongi could live on and he knew he was safe with -

207. namjoon and seokjin, but that he himself had cried endlessly, felt guilty but also determined to get his memories back for yoongi. even though it had all been his fault in the first place anyway.

208. before he could finish talking about everything he wanted he heard a knock on the door; hoseok had walked to yoongi’s apartment before, since it was only a few blocks away from jeongguk’s house. had three hours already passed?

209. had hoseok talked so much? suddenly, his heart started to pound against his chest; why? it was still yoongi, and he could talk to him in person now, right? there was no reason to be nervous. yoongi was here because he was ready to talk, to forgive him.

210. “was that you?” hoseok asked then, getting up from the couch. “don’t you have keys? this is your house,” he added and laughed a bit, for the first time in a while. yoongi groaned a bit. “well, i do, but if you forgot i also have some bags with me so would you be so kind -

211. - and open the door for me, please?” hoseok hurried to the door at that, totally forgetting that small fact to be honest. he was just looking forward to finally see yoongi again, after so long. almost three weeks. his heart was beating even faster once he opened the door -

212. and saw a smiling yoongi in front of it. “finally. but listen, hoseok. it wasn’t your fault, okay? you were right, if it had been you dying at my hands i would have done the same thing if i had had the possibility. and i can say that even though i do not -

213. remember anything. but from the stories you told me, i can tell that much. we seemed to love each other a whole lot, huh?” he said before stepping inside then, placing his bags down before closing the door behind him. hoseok didn’t know what to say in reply.

214. especially not so when yoongi was even closer to him now than before, hugging him tightly, and hoseok swore that his heart skipped a beat or two. he had waited so long for this to happen again, and right now it felt unreal.

215. “i might not remember a thing about our relationship, as harsh as that sounds, but my heart did not forget, hoseok. as much as i tried to tell myself to stay away from you my heart told me it couldn’t. i still love you, even though i can’t remember.

216. then again, i got to know you again, right? you moved in with me because you knew me, and you loved me. the hoseok i got to know is amazing, honestly. and i fell for you again in those weeks that we spent together. or maybe not again because my heart still -

217. remembers, but you know what i mean. i learned to love you again, even without my memories. and you know what? if i never get my memories back then why don’t we just make new ones? maybe it hurts you, because you remember everything, but you can treasure these -

218. memories anyway, keep them safe and tell me every now and then, right? but i’m ready to make new memories with you. you said rather a stranger than dead, right? how about i tell you i want you to be my boyfriend again rather than a stranger, but you have to let me -

219. get to know you again? does that sound good?” yoongi said, looking up at hoseok then with a soft smile. he wasn’t mad at him anymore, not after all these stories that had shown how much yoongi actually meant to hoseok, but he was still a little disappointed that he hadn’t -

220. been told this all earlier. though, he was ready to forgive, and start all over. he wanted this adorable relationship that hoseok always described, and he wanted to love hoseok. even without his old memories.

221. hoseok, on the other side, didn’t know how to respond, how to react. he was just so happy that yoongi had forgiven him, and that he was ready to start over. “i know i was such an idiot, but until this day i don’t regret doing what i did. you deserve to have your memories -

222. back but honestly? i would rather have you alive and healthy. you’re right, memories can be remade, right? and together we can make so many new ones. i will always keep our old memories, remember that i saved your life like this, and that we started over. -

223. let’s go for it, yoonie~ let’s try again!” hoseok replied, his voice gentle and a smile painted on his lips. yoongi pulled away from the hug slowly, looking up at the younger boy while nodding. “yes, let’s try again! but i want to know how often you tried to -

224. summon the fucking devil in my house before i kiss you,” he said with a smile on his lips, tilting his head slightly. hoseok laughed and pulled yoongi over to the couch, supposing that this would be yet another story he told to him, and why not cuddle while doing so?

225. the younger sat down and pulled yoongi in his lap, his arms around the boy’s waist, and he swore that yoongi was blushing slightly at the gesture. “well, i didn’t try that often in your house, actually. just twice, or maybe three times. but he never showed up anyway,” he -

226. started, humming before he continued to talk then. “i tried in my room once and then in the bathroom but you saw both, right? well, as i said it never worked but maybe if we tried again...” before hoseok could finish that sentence yoongi’s lips were already on his own.

227. they kissed for a few moments, both of them pressed against the other, arms around each other and deepening the kiss. it felt like their first kiss all over again, a little messy and all over the place but the best feeling ever; well, and for yoongi it was their first kiss.

228. and yoongi was the first one to pull away again, even though he would have wanted to keep kissing hoseok forever - he had kissed him only to shut him up (and maybe also because he wanted to but nobody had to know that).

229. “no summoning the devil ever again, seokie. it’s dangerous, and we just agreed on simply trying again. it would be nice to have my memories back, but i don’t want them if it means having to summon the devil,” yoongi said, looking at the younger and hoping that he would -

230. understand that things were fine like this and starting over was just as good as getting memories back. hoseok bit his lip and nodded then, smiling gently. “okay, okay, got it. new start, no summoning. let’s try it,” he said in reply, nodding once more.

231. yoongi smiled, and as soon as he had that answer he continued to kiss hoseok once again, this time not pulling away so soon.?

232. [gguk is worried because hoseok vanished]

233. [yoongi texts namjin]

234. [a few days later]
things were going better again a few days after yoongi had come back to seoul - namjoon and jin had talked things out with the boy, and hoseok and yoongi had moved in together again. everything was sorted out, and everyone got along with each other.

235. hoseok told yoongi even more stories about them, and it made them get closer and closer with each story; it felt as if yoongi knew all of these stories deep down, and he could feel how his love for hoseok was growing daily - they were going back to being an adorable couple.

236. even if it would take some time longer until they completelyknew each other again, this was a start at least - even without yoongi’s memories things were going fine and they were just as in love as they had been before. though, things were, of course, different.

237. nevertheless, this wasn’t a bad thing at all - they had agreed on starting over, and they did start over from the part where they had started dating: they went on their first date again, in the coffee shop where they had first met, and then went along with whatever happened.

238. none of the two would want anything else but this. and even though yoongi still didn’t have his memories back, they could make new ones. they could be happy again, and they were, like this. better boyfriends again without memories than complete strangers, right?

// alright, i decided to put an end to this story now. this is the end. the truth is, i have lost motivation for this story even though i lived writing it, but in my opinion this is a good enough ending and leaves space for you to imagine what happens afterwards.

// i want to thank everyone for reading this and supporting me! i will soon have a new au ready for you and i hope you will support it just as much! i love you all!