Thread by @MsEntropy

For 2019 -- I pray that you know how much you've sustained me throughout the manifold, incredibly dark, draining, and disheartening parts of my life (sometimes hidden, some partially revealed) the past few years - even if you don't know it.

The past several years have been some of the worst in my life (tbh, hilariously impressive,), and it's only in 2018 that I finally began to (sometimes) feel I could remember that optimism is worth fighting to find, and, resilience, dedication, sincerity will win in the end.

Paradoxically and simultaneously, 2018 has challenged those beliefs more than ever, especially the past several months. Thanks being here, in all your ways. It's gotten me closer to remembering that somewhere, a tunnel ends, and that -somewhere - I once saw a glimmer of light.

I want to enter 2019 with deeper, clearer gratitude, and making more certain that you know how much you mean - especially in the some of the worst times in my life.

You've keep me going when I've never been closer to considering just walking away from it all.

Thanks for reminding me that I matter. I hope I reflect that back to you. I intend to, that much is for certain. Thanks for reminding me that I can recall, still, that hope is vital to resilience, and it's still there, somewhere.

May 2019 be better for us all. Happy New Year.

Whether you realize it or not, you have all helped me start coming back to life.

And I am in your debt. Thank you.