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Thread: I’ve long been a mildly depressed person. I sought help once and they told me I had PTSD.

That didn’t work so 20 years later I went to my PCP because I wanted to stop feeling stuck, he gave me Zoloft.

What follows is a thread of the positive life changes I’ve noticed
First: This wasn’t something I expected at all, but I’ve long been the “omg my grandmother died” type when doing oral presentations in front of groups.

...and I’m forced to do biweekly new hire orientation at my company.

About a month ago I started to enjoy it and excel at it.
2: I’ve noticed that my sweet tooth is almost dead. I still have bad habits but if I say “I want 3 Reese’s cups...I eat 3 instead of the whole bag”

Likewise, I’ve stopped snacking at work, or going for seconds at dinner.
3: i treat meals differently now too. I won’t go for seconds, and I eat until I am satisfied rather than when I start to fee full.

I’m down 15-20 lbs and I’m not even trying.
4: I’ve rediscovered an enjoyment of music. Instead of getting angry at RW talk or listening to podcast, sometimes I just listen to music in the car. It’s nice.
4: I don’t stress about deadlines and I feel like I’m better at meeting them now, plus I’m trying to make my job more efficient. Instead of asking my boss if I can do something, I’m doing it and then telling her.
5: I’ve found that my relationships everywhere are improving dramatically. At work I’m joking around with people and not afraid of the executives.

I’m not ignoring people trying to be friendly at the supermarket.
5: likewise, I’ve found that I’ve developed a backbone. I’ll talk to outside vendors and make them bend to my will instead of capitulating.
6: i am sleeping better and for longer stretches. I found that I used to wake up every few hours and decide I was wide awake so I’d eat or have soda and then pass out.

Now, I wake up and I look at the clock and go back to sleep
7: Now, because my wife also started taking this a few months before me, my marriage is AMAZING.

Seriously, I proposed to her after 3 awesome years (in 2011) and then her grandmother died and she was depressed by the wedding.

It’s like I’m married to the woman I proposed to
8: We really only fought about money before.

Now, we work together every day and we make the budget work. It’s like a partnership rather than me being a fascist dictator who yells a lot
9: I’ve also stuck up for myself in regards to politics.

I just want to finish this part of my life and go back to my amazing family - unless I somehow finagle an amazing job offer out of my writing/research.

Before I was always angry when my posts were ignored
10: Now I look in a mirror and while I recognize that i look like dick Cheney lol, I don’t care and I don’t hate myself.
11: I can also help with middle of the night feedings because I’m on point instead of groggy as hell.
12: Most Importantly though? I’ve struggled with Moderate depression/ptsd my entire life and I’m happy now.

Seriously, if you’re #Depressed or sad and feel hopeless...talk to your doctor or find a shrink or both.

It might take some trial and error but just try it.
13: I know so many people who suffered for so long and are living better lives because they got help. Chances are you know some of them too, that they all have stories like mine to tell, and that they haven’t told them because there is still a stigma behind it all.
14: I know people who started taking meds and it made them happy for a little while - and then they sat and thought about how life would have been amazing at diff points if you just had been on meds

That’s a real danger, but I already spent my life doing that so i won’t now.
15: I’ve also noticed that I’m better at small talk and “reading the room.” My autoresponse to how are you is no longer some variation of “meh” and I actually ask people how they are
16: I’m going to keep updating this thread. Today I had too much for breakfast....so I had a small lunch and dinner.

That would have never happened six months ago.

I know it’s small, but still.
17: My BP Meds are causing insomnia, which sucks but I’m able to function still which is good
18: Yesterday was day 3 of switching meds from night to morning as a test, and insomnia seems to be gone
19: I’ve always been a bland person ie my senses are terrible. My vision sucks, I have a terrible sense of smell, very bland tastebuds.

I guess it was partially psychosomatic because I think my smell is getting better
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