this thread will document some interesting things i come across as im working on a project called PSIDAR, (psychological spiritual imagery demonic archetype research).
the images can be read on a phone but they load compressed on a computer so ill include links.
this thread isnt the reason im doing this but i figure as i come across interesting data i may as well share it.
in case its not clear each single image will always be one person talking unless clearly indicated.
001 - 004
001: person who has never done psychedelics sees baphomet while meditating spontaneously, doesnt know what it is.
002: person on dmt meets a demonic entity that seeks to control them
004b (gonna use the system of one person will be 004, 004b, 004c etc from now on)
same guy from before who "went to hell", after hundreds of dmt and ayahusca experiences, is converted from disbelief to a conventional model of demons and stops using dmt
guy does form of ayahusaca with a whore that has a mystical aura. shes silent then presses her head to his. he feels a "voodoo spirit" enter his head + sees baphomet. starts to believe "simpler ideas" about death + god. no trip posts after this
non-religious guy concludes the positive things about DMT world are a facade concealing something sinister + "satanic", experiences demonic possession, very dark visions, beings cutting into his body, stops using DMT and still feels off months later
popular shamanic teacher hangs himself in a peru apartment, obviously after extended ayahuasca use and searching for knowledge along similar shamanic paths. journalist close with him says he hung himself to intentionally cross over to the other side
after recently deciding that "nothing matters, theres no absolute", man smokes DMT and meets a dark evil jester shadow entity in a red realm of blood visions, the being torments him and tells him "if nothing matters, you should kill your friends".
lots of really weird hostile responses to this thread. not that i care but i will just address this one time. im not trying to "prove anything" here, just documenting interesting phenomena. as an artist + person into mystical things, naturally this type of thing would interest me
ill be documenting various archetypes in this thread, some that overlap, some that do not, for a variety of reasons. if you're drawing some odd macro conclusion based on this youre probably projecting your own feelings onto me.
we now return to regularly scheduled programming.
009: guy is possessed / assaulted by dark energy possibly left behind by a friend
010, 010b: guy meets mayan god and starts a relationship with these beings (+ a jester)
011: guy is tortured by beings that look "devilish" and look like an aztec being
016, 016b: john c lilly, famous psychonaut, eventually came to the conclusion that he had been ushered into a cosmic hierarchical order that had some role in orchestrating things on earth, also experiences "psychic surgery"
018: across the spectrum of those experimenting with esoterica, the occult, amateur shamanism, and/or psychedelics, the idea of being inducted into a cosmic hierarchical order of higher beings is extremely common + has strange overlap across time + place
tech interfaces used to be much more actively customizable. you could just poke in and make everything green, pink, anything. this is much less of a thing today. this probably stems from a kind of allergy to sincerity - someone might see your interface and see how much you cared
jordan peterson really got his whole thing locked into a single meme: "clean up your room". whats lesser known is what the second step was: make it beautiful. the idea was that by trying to make something look nice, you would then be forced to be open to harsh personal criticism
regardless of what you think about him or his work, this is true. if you hang a painting up in your room, people are going to come over, and they might say, "...thats the painting you chose?" - and you have nowhere to go. you can only say, well, yeah. you're total unguarded.
'medical mundi' is a term i started to use, internally, at a time in my life when i was often in and out of hospitals.
the 'medical world' really is 'a world'. it is a realm. it has its own way of being, its own paradigm, and its self-contained.
thats medical mundi.
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you dont really notice when you enter medical mundi. something happens, and you go to the hospital. thats just what you do. you're just there.
but, you notice when you leave. you're back in the parking lot - hours, days, weeks later. like a stone, you hit the earth. you're back
i have lots of memories like that. suddenly, you realize you were just in a whole separate universe. thats usually when it all hits you. things dont really hit you in medical mundi. people talk to you, you're doing stuff, but you're kind of just there. its just happening to you.
it is difficult to imagine something more wholesome than a baby. children are, in a way, the benchmark for what wholesome is. likewise, if you were asked to think of content that was unwholesome one subject that would immediately come to mind is sex
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it seems noteworthy then for those interested in symbolism, cosmology, religion, or sociology (life in general) to observe that these are only oppositional concepts when it comes to practical day to day terrestrial life. on deeper level, they are more than directly related.
the way hot and cold are apparent opposites but are in reality extensions of one thing (temperature), our first instinct for most wholesome thing and least wholesome thing are actually part of the same process. the baby is the completion of the sexual act. children come from sex.
one way to conceptualize mormonism historically is that it re-orients the christian system around the family unit, as we might say that at other times (possibly now, i cant say) it was organized around groups of monastics. this allows them to make statements like this one:
most american christians intuit that there is something essential about the family and marriage - but they lack the theological basis to say its essential. in my opinion they really feel that its “the whole point” and talk this way, but its hard to square in their big picture
catholicism has this nicely squared up (imo, which means nothing). its kind of “the whole point” if youre a layperson, but if you’re a monk or priest obviously there are other reasons and factors for your lifestyle differences. they have a different track built right in.
one time, years ago, a guys dog brought fleas into my house.
the experience of having fleas goes like this: you see a tiny dot. you poke it, then its gone: the flea jumped when you touched it.
cycle: the visual stimuli, the suspicion, then the confirmation. over and over.
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this happens to you somewhere between one hundred to one thousand times, at random moments, all the time, until you get rid of them (which i did). then, you still think about it after. youre poking random black dots you never would have noticed before, just to check.
interestingly, i never really came back from this. i notice little black dots still, to this day. of course, they’re always just some debris, a speck, something random. but im aware of them. never even really saw them before. i extend my hand, a small poke, just to check.
one evangelist wrote something like, "out of the fullness of the heart, the mouth speaks".
this is a great principle for cultural analysis: whats really in a heart just comes out of the mouth.
one example: no one really thinks the point of public school is to make you smarter.
im around a lot of parents, people with kids: that means people discuss homeschooling a lot. this discussion is also found online now, virtually everywhere
when the topic surfaces, if someone objects, sometimes people will show data about homeschooled kids generally doing well
this data seems to exist. some makes it seem like they do better on standardized tests, or at least just as well. they apparently at least arent crashing and burning, i guess.
whether or not this is accurate doesn't matter here. its about people's reaction to this information.