that david kept trying to play but for years and years he couldnt figure it out, he just kept hitting random combinations of notes and asking the lord “is this anything?” and “ok how about this one??”
and the lord was like not pleased at all,
and so when david finally stumbled upon the combination of notes that formed a basic F major chord, the lord was like “yes david that was it, that was the one, you found it i’m very pleased now, now can you please for the love of me go HOME”
and so david went all around town shouting “i found the secret chord!! i found the secret chord!!”
and he gathered everyone around and went “it goes like this” and he played them what the lord had said had pleased him but that was actually just this basic F major chord,
i love how after you watch a great movie, you walk back into the real world and it feels like you’re still in the world of the movie for a few moments longer. it’s like the movie casts this magic spell on you where for just a few minutes, the world of the movie becomes reality
i just watched john wick 3 then crossed the street and ordered a small coffee the most calmly and confidently i have ever ordered anything in my life
everyone else after watching john wick 3: imagine if the world really had an elaborate and structural society of assassins that follow their own code of honor
me after watching john wick 3: imagine being that calm and confident and knowing what you want
i still cannot believe i was on late night with seth meyers. please watch us chat about the book, being okay with not being perfect, acceptance, deadlines, my lovely parents, self care, @tinycarebot, and more! what a dream come true. i love you all!!
my family flew in to be in the audience and seth was so kind and talked to them backstage after. elissa was with me the whole time and held my hand when i got nervous before the taping. i love her. she also took this UNCHARACTERISTICALLY snazzy candid photo of me before the show!
im not really sure what to do now so im sorry if i dont have much else to say here for the next little bit! i feel like i spent so much energy preparing for this that im a little spent now. we’re on the train home and i think i’ll need some time to recover. then back to writing!!
if happiness visits, let yourself let it in. dont judge it, dont give it a side eye. its not trying to trick you. trust that its here to see you. it comes too rarely for you to ask yourself if you deserve it. just sit next to it for as long as it sits next to you
if happiness visits, try not to think about the next time it will return. once its ready to leave, let it leave. it will leave you with a memory. let yourself hold onto it! then remember, there is a difference between living with a memory and trying to live inside one
basically im just trying to learn to not add pressure or expectation onto something that comes rare enough as it is, and i have found that to be helpful for me
apropos of nothing, i applied to a lot of things i was excited for this year and did not get accepted into them. i just wanted to share that, in case it helps. let's keep going. take it as a sign that you still have room to grow, as permission to continue, and let's keep going
something important i've learned is in how to frame this thing. it's not "i got rejected" it's "my application for this specific thing at this specific time wasnt accepted"
there have so been many things in my life that didnt work out the way i thought i wanted to, that, looking back, i am very grateful did not happen. different things await you. keep going. your only job is to keep going.