Because I can’t mentally put together the steps to make that thing happen.
“Just do it”
I’m trying, but I keep forgetting how.
“Stop making excuses”
I’m making a plea for help.
For autistic and adhd people like myself, it’s complicated.
By the end of the day my house is a mess but I’ve learned to sew ice cream hats for stray cats and... oh crap I forgot to do the thing.
They go out of my mind before they’re completed and pop back in afterwards when I need to be focusing on something else.
Unfortunately, the ADHD meds that work wonders for so many people are unreliable and mostly ineffective for me.
As Adrian Monk said, “It’s a gift... and a curse.”
If I can hyperfocus on a tweetstorm, I should embrace it.
If I can hyperfocus on drawing comics, great!
If I can hyperfocus on housework, then no harm done.
I do best when I follow my hyperfocus first thing, and do the boring stuff after I’ve gotten wound up.
Otherwise I spin my wheels and stall, trying to find traction.
That is often seen as a weakness for autistics or ADHD-ers, because it keeps us from doing things deemed important.
If you can embrace your hyperfocus and ride the wave, executive dysfunction allows you to go with the flow.
It can take you anywhere!
But then hyperfocus set in. I kept adding tweets to describe my experience with executive dysfunction.
Now I have a resource to help me in the future.
The next time you feel ‘stuck’, cut yourself some slack. Your brain works differently and it can only function when in hyperfocus.
Find your hyperfocus for the day and branch out to other tasks when ready.