> basically a study on coming out to an ex partner from the point of view of the new partner
> side namseok
> extra for this au:
They were just having lunch at a restaurant, and Yoongi casually mentioned how his ex girlfriend from college was coming to Seoul.
“Wait, I’m not following you. Have you two been talking?”
Yoongi seems to be thinking his answer a lot. “Well I haven’t seen her in a long time and we were good friends…” Yoongi doesn't finish because Jimin is feeding him the meat he just cut.
“Well if you want to meet her it’s okay.” Jimin guesses.
Honesty is better than meeting up in secret, because that would definitely bother Jimin.
Yoongi seems to be thinking deeply about his next words. “We could have a glass of wine or something small like that, so she meets Holly and… well, you.”
“It’s not like I want her to meet you, as in get my ex and my boyfriend together in a room for weird purposes.” Jimin laughs. “I haven’t thought of it that much, I just feel a lot more comfortable home. With you.”
Jimin nods. “Okay I get that.”
“Ah, an ulterior motive,” Jimin teases, amused.
Yoongi chuckles. “You know like, I wasn’t in the best place during college, and now I have this,” Yoongi holds Jimin’s hand. “And it’s nice. Is it bad I want to show it off?”
Yes, during high school he would get jealous because he would date older boys that were in college already and he was immature and felt everything more intensely,
That’s what he feels right now. He feels intimidated. Best word to put it.
Also, she knows Yoongi since they were younger and they’ve lived so much together.
Jimin leans over and pours more wine to his glass. He and Yoongi discussed it beforehand. Jimin knew she was coming over, Yoongi had even asked him if he was okay with it.
He’s not jealous though, he doesn’t get jealous. Only insecure people do.
“Ah baby, the sauce is next to the microwave,” Yoongi lets him know. Jimin doesn’t bother replying because Kaeun and Yoongi are talking again as soon as Jimin nods.
She doesn’t know this old apartments have thin walls, and that’s probably why she lets herself ask, “but I don’t get it Yoon, you’re not gay, right?”
He listens how Yoongi hums, probably letting her explain herself after radically changing the conversation topic.
For some strange reason, Yoongi chuckles. “Wait, I think that's what your question is actually about. You’re curious because you think I liked men while we dated?” Yoongi laughs.
“Kaeun, ah… Maybe I did. I think I wasn’t sure yet. I probably found some attractive but didn’t precisely categorize it as physical attraction,” Yoongi sounds amused by the whole interaction.
Yoongi snorts. “It wasn’t that. And I still like women. For real, I do. I just realized I also like men. Not only Jimin, men in general...”
"Yes," Yoongi agrees. It's silent, Jimin has already poured the sauce on the ribs and if he doesn't walk out they'll get cold.
"I knew you couldn't stop liking women," she laughs dryly. What does that mean? "I knew I didn't date a gay guy."
A rational side of Jimin tells him that she wonders because she feels like Yoongi’s sexuality is her fault, which is very self centered but a common trail of thought.
she wants your boyfriend.
But Jimin doesn’t get jealous, he's mature, so it must be something else.
“Yoongi, you cooked those?” she asks.
“I did,” he says proudly.
“Then they must be good.” And Jimin is bothered now.
“Umh right now?” Jimin nods. A moment and then Yoongi closes his book, “yeah sure.” and he takes his glasses off.
"okay, okay, wait, let me get a towel” Yoongi detaches himself from Jimin, he's blushing and hard and Jimin feels good knowing he's got that effect on Yoongi.
But he moans nonetheless, "hurry!" And Yoongi moves fast, he almost trips. Jimin giggles.
So he's sure it wasn’t jealousy, how can Jimin be jealous if Yoongi is with him right now in bed? If Yoongi wants him so much? If Yoongi wants him and no one else?
“Only if it’s okay with you,” Yoongi quickly adds, “I know it’s awkward hanging out with my ex,” Yoongi nods as he speaks. He's cutting fruits, he always makes fruit salad for Jimin on weekends.
“Why did he ask you?” Jimin's mind comes up with situations such as Kaeun asking Namjoon to tell Yoongi to go, he wonders what are her intentions with seeing his boyfriend again even if he doesn’t know the real situation.
“If it’s a university trio kind of thing… then I’m not invited?”
“Hoseok is going to be there too?”
“Yeah, he will be there,” Yoongi assures him.
“Okay, then I’ll go.” Jimin stands up to receive his fruit bowl from Yoongi.
“Mmh, you like it?” Jimin asks sultrily.
At the moment Namjoon, Yoongi and Kaeun are deep in conversation about Namjoon’s degree.
“Bi,” Yoongi quickly corrects. “I’m bisexual.” Kaeun nods at him. It makes Jimin feel weird, he’s reminding her he likes women.
At some point Namjoon suggests getting food from the thai restaurant downstairs. “We can call for them to bring something up, they have the best noodles dish you’ll ever try,” he offers.
Jimin knows him. He knows he's up to a conversation with Hoseok.
Jimin doesn’t actually want Kaeun to be alone with Yoongi (technically with Namjoon too, but it’s the same logic)
Jimin also wants to be a good boyfriend, “get me something sweet,” he pouts and Yoongi kisses him. In front of Kaeun, so it's a successful move.
“I won’t!” he assures his friend.
“Wow, is it that obvious?”
Hoseok’s smile is nice even if Jimin is pissed. “Don’t get mad, it's kind of cute.”
“I think she must believe you’re clingy and,” Hoseok searches for the right word, “eccentric, which isn’t so far from reality, right?” Hoseok shrugs. “So nothing too bad.”
Jimin rolls his eyes. “You think you’re funny”
Hoseok nods slowly, amused expression. “You think she was implying that she’s available if he still likes woman?”
“Maybe… I don’t know,” Jimin bites his lower lip. He tries to think why he feels so intimidated.
“Really? I think it has to do with her being confused about his sexuality...”
“She probably thinks, I don’t know, that she turned him gay,” Jimin grimaces when he says.
“I know he is,” Jimin agrees.
“I'm not.” Hoseok looks at Jimin with disbelief. “How could he be interested?” Jimin takes another sip from his drink. "He's not... I know he's not, but there's..."
“I don’t want to be an annoying boyfriend. A jealous boyfriend.”
Hoseok smiles gently. "I doubt Yoongi would find your honesty annoying,"
“I think it’s just basic ex jealousy. You’re uncomfortable because they’re exes. If Yoongi’s ex was a man you’d still feel weird. I'm not saying that what she said about knowing Yoongi's sexuality before he did was okay but that's not it”
“I don’t get it” Jimin rolls his eyes.
“No one in theory is going to accept they are jealous because that’s admitting insecurities and possessiveness, but in practice… we all must get a tiny bit jealous at some point.”
“What do you mean?”
“You think that?”
“Such as?” Jimin wonders.
Jimin doesn’t know what to say but he doesn’t need to say anything. Namjoon is loud when he walks inside the apartment, he screams “food is here!” just in case. And that's it.
Jimin remains quiet for the rest of the night.
After that, Jimin pretends he’s sleeping.
“I’m just tired,” Jimin says carefully. Yoongi hums in understanding.
He takes his glasses off, drinks a little of water before settling the glass on the bedside table. “Wanna make out for a while?”
“Mmh, yeah, I’m also tired so don’t think sex is a good idea for either of us right now, but kissing is always nice,” Yoongi smiles widely.
“You’re cute,” Jimin smiles and leans forwards.
He speaks up as soon as their lips detach. “I think I’m jealous,” Jimin admits lowly.
Jimin takes a deep breath. This is the conversation he needs to have even if he’s going to feel uncomfortable. He really needs to have it. “Jealous of Kaeun…”
Yoongi blinks. “Really Jimin?”
“What are you jealous of?” Yoongi sounds serious and he's waiting for Jimin’s answer impatiently.
Yoongi squints his eyes, like the thought seems impossible to him. “Why do you think that?”
“Well Jimin,” Yoongi says slowly. “I think it’s normal if you’re jealous of my ex, you don’t have to feel comfortable around her.“
Jimin doesn’t want to be jealous “I don’t really know why I feel this way… I know you wouldn’t cheat on me"
“I wouldn’t,” Yoongi reminds him just in case.
“It wasn’t the case during college, I hadn’t understood myself yet, but this last days felt like it. Like good old days but better, so it was a nice feeling. I didn’t say it to lead her on or anything.” Jimin nods.
“Scared?” Jimin asks bewildered and Yoongi squeezes his hand tigther.
“Yeah, I know she kind of was. But it’s difficult to get mad at her, like… I know her, I know she doesn’t mean harm, she just doesn’t understand.”
"I know," Yoongi agrees. "I know, but..." Jimin looks at his eyes.
"I didn't want to sound like a jealous boyfriend, didn't want to be, because no one likes a jealous boyfriend."
Yoongi lifts both his hands to able to squeeze Jimin's face, he likes doing that a lot. “So talk to me.”
JImin nods quickly and squirms until he's able to lean and kiss him. “I love you.”
“And I love you too.”