This was a BBC funded film and the announcer described it as exploring Freddie's 'practical decision' to have a baby.
First imagery is close up shots of facial hair and chest hair of Freddie to
The effect that the residual T might have on a baby aren't spoken
Freddie takes the label off her folic acid tablets because it mentions pregnancy.
Freddie's mum is introduced. They have a very very close relationship. Mum says 'everyone should try pregnancy, especially men' and that it isn't true that transmen become infertile
Freddie reveals that she is a 'gay' and only fancies men. We are introduced to CJ, another trans-identified
Freddie doesn't like being off T and feels 'deficient' off it (withdrawal).
It is made clear that CJ and Freddie
We see Freddie having an ultrasound
We see Freddie inject something into her abdomen.
No reflections have been made at all in the film as to what the health implications are for the unborn child, nor what the implications will be
Yet it is this point at which lip service is paid and Freddie asks whether she can take ibuprofen during pregnancy.
Cue some heavy handed spring imagery and cloying bittersweet music - we are 30 mins in.
CJ and Freddie's fragile relationship breaks up. Freddie admits they didn't know each other well enough and has decided not to use African-Carribbean sperm donations.
More seasonal imagery - autumn this time - and Freddie gets a positive pregnancy result.
Cue seahorse and water imagery.
Freddie reflects that she 'feels like a man who is doing
Freddie shares insights that she could have read in any good book about pregnancy (or even a bad book) like that morning sickness doesn't just take place in the morning.
Filling out her first midwife form Freddie strikes out the words 'woman' and 'she/
First ultrasound mum is on hand to support and we learn that
Freddie talks about her relationship with her dad and that dad has not been supportive. Freddie reads out the email she is sending to her dad, in which the riot act is read out to dad that no negative comments will be tolerated.
Freddie says she's considering cutting dad off if she doesn't get the right response
Freddie goes to the barbers and wonders whether her 'cis guy' friends will see her as less of a man for being pregnant.
At which point the audience feels really tested.
A bit more boo-hoo poor me. More water imagery -
Mum buys a house in Spain. Freddie continues to inarticulate her feelings, every other word is 'fucking hell' or 'fuck me'. Difficult to maintain interest.
Freddie says that 'cis mums' make her feel bad.
One particularly 'nasty' lady recommends he goes to H&M to buy some big pants from their maternity section.
Then Freddie's labour
The logic of gender identity - well it doesn't have any! Nothing makes sense.
We see the moment of birth and it is observed that the baby is a boy.
Freddie reflects that she just wants to get on with being 'a normal dad' and the
So that was it, no deeper questioning of what it really means to be a man, or why Freddie had ended up with gender dysphoria. It was obvious that she and her mother had an extremely intense relationship and that Freddie was dissociated from her dad.
The clinics don't care, they will just sell their products to anyone who
We will have wait and see, but one thing is clear, the BBC won't be funding *that* documentary
Even if the T is stopped during the pregnancy, the ovaries and eggs will have been subjected to a sustained attack from high dose testosterone, sometimes for many years.
Normally this renders women infertile or seriously reduces fertility but what happens
This opens up the possibility that there is intergenerational transmission of development defects, as the ova of any female babies develop during pregnancy.