Why getting divorced helped my understand why I was so exhausted all the time in grad school: a short thread on #hypervigilance and academia
My ex and I have 50-50 custody. When I’m with my kids, I am in bed by 9 (and want to be there by 7...) and find it hard to concentrate on writing even when they’re in school. But on weeks without them, I’m full of energy and brainpower.
I recently read about hypervigilance: a symptom/result of some anxiety disorders, PTSD, trauma, and for me now, basically just an effect of parenting. Hypervigilance means your body and mind is in constant high alert, scanning for threats.
“In hypervigilance, there is a perpetual scanning of the environment to search for sights, sounds, people, behaviors, smells, or anything else that is reminiscent of activity, threat or trauma.” en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypervigi…
Being on constant high alert is EXHAUSTING. And it’s hard to concentrate on big intellectual tasks when your brain is continually scanning your surroundings and your every act to fend off danger.
Thinking about the effects of hypervigilence when I’m with my kids made me realize that this was also my normal state during the entirety of grad school.
I was always exhausted from the effort of fending off disaster. I was always afraid that one slip - one stupid thing said in a seminar or just at the bar (since I hung out/lived with other grad students) - would unmask me as a pretender and deny me an academic career.
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In 2021, a Nepali monastery told the Virginia Museum of Fine Arts that the museum possessed a sacred painting stolen from the monastery in 1967. The museum responded by offering to give the monastery a replica... if they would sign away their rights to the original. A 🧵
In August 1967, the American scholar Mary Slusser photographed the painting during an annual festival at the Yempi Mahavihara (also known as I Baha) in Patan, Nepal. In September, , as her diary shows, a dealer offered it to her.
In Nepal's Buddhist communities, sacred artifacts like the painting are owned jointly by their worshippers. They cannot be sold. Slusser's other writings show she knew this, and knew that it was against Nepal's law to export such artifacts. Still, she bought it.
Arguing that tales of dragons are evidence that dinosaurs lived in human times - humm. Arguing that anything Herodotus says was literal truth - nope. (Nice buff H-man, there, though.)
“by funding scientific studies on Native American human remains… federal agencies have created incentives for institutions to hold on to ancestors in ways that undermine the goals of NAGPRA…”
It’s not that they didn’t think about consulting tribes - it’s that they thought doing so was a bad idea for their research. Holy moly.
Inscriptions friends... is pecking out a circular letter form instead of carving freehand weird for ca. 530 BCE? (Context in next tweet.)
So, John Marshall buys this stele in fragments from 1902-1913: metmuseum.org/art/collection…. Marshall was offering £10 a letter for further fragments of the inscription, or £500 for the rest of it.
In 1907, here's the part of the inscription he has (left) and two more parts he's offered by a dealer in Athens (right). The new parts have the cautious circles.