When he woke up he felt a terrible weight on his body and it was painful to breathe. There were traces of tears on his cheeks and terrible pain on his chest, but despite the physical discomfort he felt euphoric.
Everything looks different and reminds him of that time he had an accident where he almost died.
"Your majesty, your majesty, are you alright?"
"What ... what day is ..."
"He had us very concerned, both the second prince and his uncle have left his side only to attend to important matters."
"He had us very concerned, both the second prince and his uncle have left his side only to attend to important matters."
He ignored his discomfort and got out of bed, ignoring that he was still in private clothes and the calls of his servants and doctor.
"Your Majesty!"
"Your Majesty, you have just awakened, you must maintain absolute rest!"
"CALL EMPRESS JIANG!"
The room fell into a terrible silence, one that left them frozen and especially the newcomer. They all looked towards Jin GuangYao, the only imperial concubine whose smile seemed to break for a few moments.
The servants turned to see the imperial concubine and then the emperor, neither of knew whom exactly whether to abide by his order or stay in line with a lie to favor the Jin.
Lan Huan felt a tightness in his chest when he saw his empress enter the room, looking so beautiful and stunning in one of those suits
Back then he never paid attention to anything that related to his empress, his talks were simple and he never even asked him what he liked or disliked.
"What is all this commotion?"
"Are all of you deaf? How do you allow the emperor to wander around when he's barely awakened ?! ”
Jiang Cheng had always seen him like this?
He had never taken the time to figure out his husband's actions or glances, but
Everyone wondered at the time, what could be affecting the emperor's mental judgment? He had never call like that to empress Jiang and only show affection to concubine Jin.
“My emperor, please be aware that you just has hardly awakened. I implore you to go back to bed, please”
“Your majesty, please listen to imperial concubine Jin. The best thing for you is to rest”
"Empress Jiang, rest easy I will take care of our emperor"
There was a point where he got tired of insisting.
He was neither beautiful nor soft, nor did have a melodious voice,
However, the gods became cruel and both were forced to give an heir.
He always dream of making love, giving and receiving kisses.
His only memory that he had ever been touched by him, was a little baby wrapped in exquisite sheets and with a look so similar to his dearest husband.
His little boy was like a ray of sunshine in that darkness.
The Lan must not have been pampered, but the empress, despite his harsh exterior, fell before the genuine charm of his beloved son.
Lan Huan swallowed with difficulty, remembering how his mistakes came to cost him dearly, leaving his son to finish growing up without his mother's warmth and affection.
Lan JingYi grew up listening to a sweet voice singing lullabies or wonderful stories.
That room that Lan Huan did not pay attention to when he had the opportunity, it became a refuge in days
That room became a sanctuary where traces of his empress still remained. At times he could sense Jiang Cheng's presence, he could hear his sweet voice or shy caresses when he slept.
"JIANG CHENG !!" He called him again and this time using his full name.
"A-Cheng, don't ... don't leave me please"
That was a scandal!
The emperor chuckled through tears and the lump in his throat, feeling a joy that he had deprived himself of for years.
If he thought about it, it was understandable, they never had that kind of gesture and now that he had him in his arms he realized what he had lost for years.
"Are you deaf?" The strong embrace of his husband gave him strength to speak, even when Lan Huan repeated his name with affection and perhaps was only the product of some fever,
“The emperor has spoken and it is me whom he wishes to have by his side"
"However, the emperor isn’t in good health and perhaps the fever is speaking in his behalf.”
"The presence of the empress is not essential, it has not been for a long time"
However, the emperor got up with difficulty and help from his husband. Lan Huan felt miserable upon seeing Jiang Cheng's downcast gaze, as if it were a matter of seconds to be reprimanded for his audacity to speak against an imperial concubine.
A couple of years ago he saw the disappointed face on his father and the pain on his mother, they were the first to see firsthand how he humiliated his husband without even realizing it.
His brother simply came to see him with disappointment and a few times to intercede for his brother-in-law, he knew that Wei Ying had something to do with it but he simply ignored the warnings.
"Your ... your majesty?"
Despite his discomfort, the emperor frowned lightly, looking at those closest to him, and then at his husband, who kept cowering beside him.
There were faces of disbelief, no one was able to believe what their emperor said with such certainty. Jiang Cheng's servants were the first to react, the people of Yunmeng were more daring and vivid and it seems that
Jiang Cheng never saw a gaze full of love and devotion directed towards him, but in that instant
"Your majesty ... but ..."
Some servants doubted and it was the empress’s who obeyed his orders without hesitation.
From afar he heard the claims of his concubine, but decided to ignore them. In the past, he let him do and undo, he gave him
The room was cleared in no time, both regents returned in short steps to the room that was best accommodated by the Empress' maids. The bed covers were changed and the pillows accommodated, and the windows were opened to ventilate the room.
Jiang Cheng sighed softly, he couldn’t faithfully believe his husband's word and feared that at any moment he would come to his senses come to his senses and expel him of the room.
For many, the surprise on the face of their empress was notorious,
Possibly Lan Huan had broken the protocol by having his husband while he was being attended by the physician, but having him by his side and feeling the warmth of his hand reassured him and helped him to ignore
A couple of servants /the spiders/ approached the doctor to receive his instructions and how to prepare the medicine. They both looked at their
"There’s not doubt that the gods have been on his majesty side and have protected him" doctor and disciple bowed to both rulers "They kept him safe from serious danger and...”
Less than half an incense stick the servants gradually disappeared, leaving porcelain jar with
Lan Huan sighed exhausted and at his side the younger man came over to help him drink some of the medicine.
They both remained silent with thousands of thoughts hovering in
Lan Huan never imagined that Jiang Cheng could become so careful or have such soft hands, he always imagined that his exterior was a reflection of his interior, although in the past he didn’t taken the time to get to know him more.
It's easy to say,
the older man thought, but he didn't complain and continued drinking until the last drop. Fortunately the fruit that was brought him helped remove
“I can't believe I will have to keep drinking this medicine for several days, it tastes horrible"
Jiang Cheng raised an eyebrow and stared at him for a long time with a strange expression and then burst out laughing. Lan Huan regarded him with some outrage at
His WanYin was smiling and laughing, and for each delicate movement the decorations of his hair swayed and gave a slight clink.
"Why would it be dead?" He asked confused and slightly cocking his head to the side.
"Lan Huan, I don't know if you have noticed but from the seven years I have been here in Gusu, my sense of taste has been dying”
"You called me Lan Huan"
However, his words caused panic in the empress who immediately apologized.
“I'm sorry your majesty... it won't happen again"
He wanted to ask why he was apologizing, but a memory came to his mind, one where his empress’
Jiang Cheng snorted, and while the caress on his hand felt full of tenderness it didn't stop a lump from forming in his throat.
With regret Jiang Cheng released his grip and got up from the bed,
"A-Cheng...”
"Your majesty, please..." he shook his head slightly and put back a cold mask to protect himself. He loved hearing that love and devotion in his voice, but it hurt him at te same time.
The empress revered softly and without losing his calm or elegance, the decorations in his hair clinked again. Lan Huan tried to stop him and asked him to stay, but his husband showed a sad little smile.
He straightened up slowly and didn’t meet his gaze again,
"My spiders will take care of your majesty ..." He walked backwards and with small steps.
"I am sure that tomorrow morning things will return to normal"
Finally, exhaustion overcame him and his eyelids closed.
His guards were placed two behind him, one on each side and two in front of him to avoid any / incident /
The empress showed a slight smile.
"I'm left on my own, he must rest"
Only when they were alone there was no need for filters and both could distill the poison and disdain at each other.
With a couple of steps and standing side by side, Jiang Cheng gave him a light glance and curled his lips up.
Jin GuangYao's face turned dark, the Empress's guards went to defense.
"Do you think you have the power to do something to me? Don't these guards of yours know it's in vain? Only death will they find if the emperor finds a simple scratch on me.”
“However, none of us fear death. Unlike the imperial concubine’s guards, we have not been bought and we know where our loyalty lies”
Jin GuangYao frowned and retraced his steps towards the emperor's room, being stopped a few steps from entering by one of the spiders
"The emperor must rest," growled one of the ladies, a young woman of rough nature from Yunmeng.
Another of them faced him and frowned, "However, the emperor must rest... /alone/“
A remote castle dedicated to the empress, the same one that his mother, the Last Empress Lan,
He was blind in never noticing the changes in his husband, in seeing that that spark of life had been disappearing little by little.
The celebration was small and with just the family, there were no big banquets or music;
Lan JingYi didn't even look at him, what could be expected when he abandoned
For brief moments he saw his husband’s smile, heard him laugh when their son recounted his new exploits or his improvement in classes; but there was sadness in the prince's voice,
"I can’t do that to A-Yao” was his quick reply, refusing and with his back to his empress. If he hadn’t turned to see him, he wouldn’t notice his decayed
He thought his empress was referring to something else when he simply asked him to sleep in the same bed.
It was awkward at first, he didn't remember when was the last time they lay on the same bed and with Jiang Cheng on his chest.
"Thank you, A-Huan," he whispered, and finely hugged his husband.
His eyes blurred with tears and they descended until they were lost on Emperor Lan's chest.
There in a room in a remote palace and with the moonlight illuminating them, he witnessed a serene face and which he traced delicately
He didn’t even realize the moment he fell asleep, he only let himself be carried away by Morpheus' dream.
The emperor's movements stopped and his face filled with concern as he noticed the lack of
He refused to accept reality and with a shout he call the guards and order them to bring the Imperial physician.
The pain continued in his chest and with that his memories starting with their wedding day, moving on to the day their son was born,
He listening Jiang Cheng trying to calm the annoyance of his son and clarifying his doubts, but then he heard a confession that was meant to be a secret. He heard Jiang Cheng confessing that he love him.
It hurt to remember the day his empress asked for an audience and confessed that he wanted to abandon his title as empress,
At that time he already knew of his feelings and without knowing why he prevented him from leaving his position as empress, he simply invited him to spend time
When he was free from work, he managed to visit him more often, both took walks in the gardens, or shared tea and snacks during some afternoons. He also refrained from commenting about his relationship with Jin GuangYao to avoid giving him a bad time.
Inside the throne room there was no one sitting next to him to advise him; and at the same time he discovered that it was Jiang Cheng who prepared
His empress always showed like a cold and rough person but in the inside he was someone noble and kind,
His amber gaze had turned melancholic and even the company of his ‘A-Yao’ couldn’t get him out of that state. He forbade him to be present in his room, because there were certain comments towards his empress that bothered him.
And when he finally found solace, it was one night that he visited the desolate room that Jiang Cheng once used. The sheets, despite being washed, still retained his aroma, he also noticed
Lan Huan stopped in the middle of the room and in front of him his son was sitting on the bed, holding a notebook whose calligraphy he would recognize anywhere.
"Mother loved you, protected you and respected you,
Many times saw his mother cry in solitude, and heard the servant mutter of how his grandparents
The teenager shake his head and gets up, walks to his father and hands him the notebook he has been holding.
“It was mom’s, maybe this will help you get to know him a little better"
Once alone, the emperor saw the small notebook that his son gave him, that was the empress's diary,
“My empress, is that you?"
The jewels were similar to those he saw his mother wear, but there werent any pieces with little of having been acquired. There were no paintings by famous artists, except for those that Wei WuXian or Nie HuaiSang had given him.
"Jiang Cheng..."
It was a courtship gift, one that caused a beautiful smile and blush on an innocent young man.
That night they slept on the separated ends of the bed, wondering why he was forced to marry someone he did not love.
"Forgive me” He whisper.
In Jiang Cheng’d diary he found a part of him that Jiang Cheng surely struggled to hide and prevent from being hurt, a soft and naive side. In that diary were the secrets of his empress,
He wanted a look and a touch, share the bed but just to sleep while holding each other. Sharing a happy life for many years as they watched their son grow and his kingdom prospered.
He cursed himself like never before!
If he had, surely none of them would have lived through hell and surely Jiang Cheng would have found happiness in someone... else?
The thread of his thoughts stopped and his anger ceased for a moment as he imagined
The very idea of imagining Jiang Cheng sharing the bed with another man,
His blood boiled when he imagined those scenarios, if the Jiang’s never
If the words 'my husband' were dedicated to another man, to someone who could have given him a better life, something that he couldn’t... do...
What the hell was going on with him?
“What is this? What am I feeling?”
Could he really allow someone else to take the place of his Ah-Cheng? He felt that no one was worthy to sit beside him more than him.
"Your majesty, you have to find someone else to take the position of empress!"
Did he really thought the council would remain silent? No, but he hope they were aware and will not come to ask such a question in front of his guests and
Out of the corner of his eye he saw that his son tensed and King Jin's smirk increased, were they really doing that right now?
"Your Majesty!"
"ENOUGH!"
Thousands of pairs of eyes turned in the direction of the only person who had no one close to calm him and prevent him from losing control. The crown prince's gaze was filled with hatred, resentment and outrage.
“Young prince, this is an offense! How dare you raise your voice in front of the emp... ”
"SHUT THE FVCK UP!! ALL OF YOU, OH SO FVCKING VENERABLE ELDERS!
"PRINCE LAN, THIS BEHAVIOT IS UNACCEPTABLE!!"
Prince Lan did not show fear but determination, possibly the absence of his mother and having to endure the advance of the Jin over his father's
"If I disappear, father... no, Emperor Lan will need a new heir for the throne!" He spread his arms on each side and gestured with his hands to highlight the importance in his words, his eyes watching each of the guests until he reached
"What a perfect excuse"
"Shame?" The crown prince halted his steps and glanced at one of the elders, giving him a gaze as cold and lacking in warmth as he once possessed.
His words being so full of truth managed to silence the old man, the great hall became tense with all eyes over the young prince.
"Why is everyone pointing at the Jin’s? why is everyone trying to get my father to dispossess a mere concubine fucking concubine from the Jin family?"
"YOU SHUT UP! EVERYBODY TIRES ME! ”
"A-Yi..." Jiang YanLi sitting next to her husband tried to approach the young man but he denied her, even his cousins were worried specially the young mistress.
"This is all your fault!" Someone shouted.
"We should never have allowed the Second Prince to marry someone so... so... ahh!"
HanGuang-Jun's gaze turned cold and had it not been for his husband's hand on his,
“Everyone knows that King FengMian always favored that man's son, but what could be expected of someone like Wei ChangZe? Tsk, the death he had was well deserved ”
Lan QiRen's knuckles turned white and his lips parted to intervene. Wei WuXian was a headache, but he is someone he promised to take care of and he wouldn’tdare to break