Yeah, it's a Contra thread.
I've only seen *parts* of a clip,
'cause I had to keep skipping around,
'cause she keeps cutting back to voyeuristic footage of an autistic trans woman having a very bad time,
breaking down, lashing out.
I've heard the "story."
But it's footage I've very deliberately never seen,
'cause I don't
fucking relish the abject fucking misery of other fucking autistic trans people.
It's not even, like, a choice.
would cry if I had to see it.
trying to miss the footage that should never have been recorded to begin with,
it's a subject that hits close to home.
In January, I had about 600 followers on here.
but she *evaded* my block,
screencapped my tweets,
presented those tweets out of context in a video seen by two *million* people,
my 600 followers on here were
about 1/400th of her own Twitter following,
or about 1/1,333rd of her YouTube subscriber count.
especially when all I ever actually said
was that you shouldn't "reach out" to shitty, abusive bigots
or actively downplay the scale of their actions.
"Password reset" emails from just about every single site I was fucking *on* at the time,
as people tried to fucking hack my accounts.
I was actively afraid for my job, and my home, and myself, and my family.
That's what she exposed me to.
"What the fuck
"does she think she has to say
"about the mass-harassment of autistic trans people?"
have a "sick" "addiction"
to cringe content about other people in the same groups because it gives us a chance to say,
"Well, at least I'm not like *those* people."
i don't know,
speaking for your fucking self, maybe.
We fucking knew.
I can't even fucking *watch* those videos.
I'm mostly just a fucking mass of trauma
with no emotional regulation
and a severe fear of *any* sense of tension,
that was fucking *burned* into me before I can even fucking remember.
It's the end result of a lot of fucking shit.
"But it's still worth talking about, right?"
Some people *do* have this emotional response,
so, sure, it's good and useful to talk about where it comes from and what it does for people.
Why it happens, and what that means.
it's *so many* fucking minutes of her just
vomiting up *every* *single* shitty fucking TERF talking point she can think of
almost twenty fucking years
of basically nonstop stalking, nonstop mass-harassment.
in the most *vivid* fucking
*gruesome* fucking terms,
about her voice, and her shoe size,
and a million fucking things,
and it's so fucking awful,
and after a certain point,
there's no way this is just talking "about" the feeling, or the concept, of tearing other trans people down.
rendered in lavish fucking HD detail.
that we'll just chalk this up as case #9,834,905,892,348,239,048
of "Natalie hating trans women who don't pass the way she does."
That *is* what this is.
That is the *only* fucking thing this is.
but then she *immediately* starts listing all the ways this woman isn't passing right.
that this woman doesn't even seem to "realize" she's not passing "right."
That she expects to be called "ma'am" when she looks
Just fucking say it.
You might as fucking well.
because the woman in the video is openly yelling at a customer service person.
It's not like we have a whole fucking slang term to describe the way women *do* do that.
You're only disgusted by her because she's trans,
and specifically because she's trans in a way you don't fucking approve of.
It's so fucking brutal, for no fucking reason.
I can see how this is going to go.
intentionally or not.
As a shield.
"Nuh-uh, she wouldn't. She did a whole video about how mass-harassing autistic trans people is bad."
She wouldn't do it.
Never mind the fact that she *did* do it.
Because she made this video.
Or "being ironic."
Or "speaking through a character."
Or "fine, actually -- just not even bad to begin with.
"Just fine, through and through, and you're wrong for being offended."
because when you're rich and famous, you can get away with fucking anything.
with her non-binary videos.
"Where she plays a shitty, inhuman caricature for half an hour. That proves it.
"And if you say it doesn't, fuck you."
I don't even like writing these fucking threads about her.
I think it's shitty, and miserable, and stomach-churning, and I hate every fucking second of it.
It doesn't make me feel powerful.
and it reminds me how much I don't matter.
'Cause I could scream for the rest of my life, and it wouldn't fucking matter.
Her patron count went *up* by 3,000 people.
I think about how much worse my SI got,
every fucking day,
for those two or three months after the "Cancellation" video.
Those 3,000 new patrons would still be there, without a second fucking thought.
and it doesn't fucking matter.