normally I named my most difficult moments after spirals because they are great easy mazes, and i crash a lottttt mentally and sometimes I fall down physically
This time last year was a horrible confluence of a few perfect storms tfor me and my family; getting threatened with eviction, basically recruiting everyone we could to help us move to the nice home we have now, and well now the USA is on fire like Australia was last year >
whales are attacking boats, & COVID is worsening just as Denver Public Schools is poss. moving pupils back to school buildings
GOOD THINGS: #Plurality became prevalent in my life, @gallifreyeve is still in town, and @fran_wilde is kicking metaphorical butt at #WesternStateUni
Hopefully more on this later.
TASKS:
I have to get the last chapter of my novel Escape Light up on patreon.com/wordglass, get the secret poetry book ready, & sleep?
But yes, I went on a journey today. All the while staying at home.
Wear a mask.
I love you all.
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Some days I am just awake with no memory of waking; not knowing which door i came from, entering a closet of consciousness from a bright sunlight & birch tree scented outdoor dream into the acrid smell of seared steak which fills the starry home in my mind. #endofclickbait
I live like an empress, having gone from homelessness at 19 to living on a goodwill twin bed with a fitted sheet & pillows of my own that no one can steal by age 44. I have a bed of my own that stays in the same place every night. Worn and sagging and mine.
The box springs have cut my hand in my frantic dash to find my phone when I wake up blind without my glasses and unaware of my current bank balance—the exact ticking debt I owe today. Good thing I can access the internet any time I want.
The next time you hear someone bring up the racist myth that Native Americans are lucky because we don't pay taxes, keep this image in your mind: these are the taxes I owe for this year that I have no realistic way of paying back cause I'm broke:
This & my medical debt is why all of my followers (& their friends!) should join my Patreon/contribute to my PayPal/Venmo so that I can do the stuff I have to do while cranking out more tweets, poems, art, and stories for everyone. linktr.ee/marikurisato
I'm very worried about my health lately because besides feeling like I'm getting a cold, I've been very brain-fogged. Also, my teeth don't ache; instead, they randomly sting my nerves leaving a weird tingling feeling. It's ominous.
I've just been disqualified from SSDI, which means I'm about $900 poorer every month, since the cut off is 1250 and I make just under ~2000. My rent is $1530 a month which leaves me with about 456 for meds, medical bills, food, and utilities. this on the heels of losing Patreon
of losing too many Patreon patrons.
Oh and look what I got the Saturday after Black Friday
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I don't CARE how they interpret my actions because I can't control that. All I can do is follow the 7 teachings of my tribe . I want to heal things & see criminals brought to justice in a fair manner. I want ignorant people to learn and reform & redress. but at the same time >
people are angry. im angry, but I don't want to punch trump supporters in the face. I want cops to stop shooting Black and Indigenous people. I want cops defunded or disarmed or removed. I want the ignorant people to learn and empathize with the harm they've caused.
i know it's a moonshot. But I want to strive for it even when there are Nazis in the streets. Oppose injustice, bring criminals to justice and let people learn and reform. There will be individuals who can't accept this. People whose family and friends
the streets of Colorado Springs at City Hall yelling about “how Joe Biden’s family stole the election,” and how they plan to fight on, and to “stop the steal.” (Source)