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15 Oct, 40 tweets, 9 min read
You'll also notice that, when you're bored, you'll mentally search for a plausible route to free-flowing consciousness, in effect lying about your interest in the subject, or about its wider existential relevance.

I'd say most conversations and tweets bear a trace of this.
You can sense that most people are lying to themselves when in a conversation by the overly strained contours in their face.

I burst out laughing watching this Oblivion meme, because the bizarre smile reminds me of normal people chatting, and the cat-man creature is me watching.
A kind of emptiness in their eyes, which is them hiding in their shell, but also checking defensively to see if things are working in their interests.
I depicted it like this:
Of course, you have to smile in life, just as you're compelled to exist authentically as the will-to-life in general, but I point it out to demonstrate its inherent ugliness.

By getting a feel for its ugliness, you get a sense of the basic error of the will-to-life.
It takes some effort to see the ugliness in things, but you should be doing it as much as possible, otherwise you'll fall into errors.

This is why it's recommended that people with addiction or OCD record themselves in third-person. This makes them ashamed and ready to reform.
Most people cannot properly reflect on their past with third-person objectivity, and so they are stuck in the error of their ways.

They refuse to see anything ugly or stupid about their behaviour.

Schopenhauer reported having these difficulties too.
It's like how I discussed in the attached thread.

When you really grasp how ugly the will-to-life is, this extinguishes the flame of passion.

If you can see everything that's ugly about the material world, you will more eagerly anticipate the here-after.

You will have transcended the will-to-life to some extent, and will identify as consciousness. It is precisely this transition which makes the world more beautiful.
It is by authentically letting go that you experience beauty.

The beauty is the feeling that you are levitating above all the creases and fluctuations of matter, and you're watching it busily unfold without fear of your true essence disappearing.
I've always advocated seeing *beyond* the fluctuations of words and matter, and seeing instead *the essential activity*.

See attached:
Schopenhauer describes this well in terms of gesticulation:
When I said "creases" earlier, I mean this in a literal sense.

Whenever a crease appears, this is the will-to-life under strain (be it a harmonic oscillator causing ripples in water, or someone smiling in order to convey harmlessness).
The people who are most comfortable together do not smile. Best friends do not smile much at all

This is because, to some extent, they are in no delusions about one another's ugliness. They have gotten used to it, and so they no longer feel in danger of revealing their baseness.
It is people who fear that their ugliness and material baseness will come to light that smile a lot.

This is the will-to-life trying to achieve a striking effect, as it fears that its prospects in this situation are precarious. It is constantly plugging the leakages.
In doing so, they actually become even uglier and baser in their manner of being (because they are a more intense incarnation of the will-to-life). In their attempt to avoid looking like the will-to-life, they achieve just the opposite.
My mind keeps returning to this intuitive notion of a "crease".

A crease is characterised by differentiation, resulting in darkness. If this happens quickly, it is due to an acute cause. If it happens slowly, e.g. when a grape turns into a sultana, it is due to slow cause.
When you see a crease in something that is otherwise taut, you know that it is due to an acute expression of the will-to-life.

The closed-system and tightly elastic system of a normal human face means that a crease is generated by something acute and perhaps even necessary.
Already, with this consideration alone, fluctuating facial creases gives off an appearance of being in the grip of the will-to-life. The more exaggerated & frequent these are, the more the person conveys subordination to the will-to-life. Women exaggerate facial expressions a lot
Someone like Trump, on the other hand, rarely moves his face, and so you get the impression that he is not trying to preserve his life with quite as much zeal.

Added onto this consideration is the basic feeling of analogy between you and other humans.
You know what certain contortions suggest because of your own experiences and memories, but this isn't necessarily the dominant factor in discerning facial expressions.

Smiling is caving inward. You are retracting into your eyes, because you feel this is the seat of the ego.
This is why a dog looks like it's smiling when it worries about being hit.

Chimps smile when they're in fear too.
The eyes are the most reflective surface on the body (i.e. the *least creased* membrane), and so there's an intuitive sense that it's the most important facial locus.

The natural smile inherently conveys a withdrawal into this area.
When the crease isn't acute, it means it's a long-term instantiation of the will-to-life. Wrinkles are just this phenomenon.

This is a harmonic oscillator holding onto life over the long-term. It decays into differentiated folds.
All causes, short and long-term, are just matter pursuing its least burdened form, passing unwanted burden like a hot potato onto surrounding matter.

When someone talks to you, you're afraid of seeming rude, and so you pass this burden from nerves in the brain to facial nerves.
As for wrinkles, this is also matter pursuing a less burdened form.

Even when you smile around someone who doesn't deserve to be given good treatment, by lying about your true feelings, you are passing on the burden to others of telling your interlocutor that they are annoying.
Harmonic oscillators are pursuing their least burdened form, and in doing so, they cause a mess for others to deal with.
Now, I defined a crease as differentiation which causes darkness. This actually describes all of matter.

The most unambiguous differentiations are categorised as objects, be it sound, tactile sensation, or an object in vision.
When you're perceiving creases in a person's face, you are perceiving unambiguous differentiations which capture your attention. They subtract from the ideal version of that person's face.

Anything but a serious and discerning face is a degrading diminution.
This is why great men have fewer facial expressions, and it's why clowns make the most ridiculously exaggerated and widely-varying facial motions. They want to stand out as unambiguously as possible, and in so doing, they show themselves to be governed by the will-to-life.
I'm pointing all of this out, because it's a bit of mystery how people in NDEs can properly apprehend emotions in others even without the usual fleshly form.

It is because inherent knowledge of harmonic oscillation entails an understanding of emotions expressed in the face.
Words are a sideshow. It could be this topic or that topic. Only a pleb really thinks that the material side of things is most relevant, which is why they're always distracted by goings-on in the material world.

The will-to-life is the truly important principle.
Words, if anything, are a distortion. They are crude labels which don't do anything justice, and are usually just bored digressions.

The manner of their words (e.g. the pitch and flow) are more important than the actual objects trying to be depicted.
They are like creases in that they are unambiguous deviations (which is why they are coated in consonants), and the more elaborately something is differentiated, the darker and more meaningless that subject becomes (which is why academic studies are now complete trash).
The whole of the material world consists in creases. Objects themselves are just creases which subtract from reality.

It is this wholesale attention which is paid to unambiguous deviations which is fundamental to our existence.
So when I said earlier that, without the will-to-life, you float above the creases of existence, this is what I was getting at.

You no longer see creases/fluctuations of matter as something that concern you, but as darkening distractions.
Taking account of unambiguous deviations are always the result of uncertainty about your continued existence.

It's a delusional fear, because true annihilation is impossible. You are simply addicted to a certain grade of objectification, and it's losing this which you fear.
You need to hear sounds, you need to see objects, you need to see emotional contours, because this assures you that you are still playing the game of existence in a way that's familiar to you.

If the ego begins to slip, this happens:
You are addicted to this grade of objectivity: this material world. You have skin in the game right here.

If you could properly achieve certainty about your true nature, you would drift away happily into a more original and proper state of existence.

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It is characteristic of young people that they believe the material world works in their interests

It's partly a function of the fact that they have healthy bodies, so they lazily assume that flesh is basically on their side. Older people realise that flesh isn't a loyal friend.
This comes is perfect tandem with the realisation that, actually, nothing material is on your side. Everything and everyone is pursuing its own course regardless of you.

The older person then becomes serious and more honest about the true nature of life.
In youth, flesh seems like an excellent bargain which cannot go wrong. It is like Pinocchio when he joins those who want merely to use him for their own benefit.

The fun, singing, freedom of being young seems absolutely worth pursuing unto the end of the earth.
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What the plan always fails to take account of is entropy, namely the fact that everything seeks its least burdened state—including of course humans, nay *including yourself*.

With all plans, there is always a kind of lazy fizzling out when all is said and done.
People can't even take into account their own desire to seek their least burdened state (i.e. laziness), which I've always found remarkable.

The great stories in history were not planned, and even if there was a hint of one, it always took account of entropy/human shortcomings.
The axiomatic fact that, in every plan, you're trying to avoid failure shows a subconscious knowledge that the whole thing is a lie destined to fail anyway, i.e. it shows a subconscious knowledge that the universe is constantly conspiring against any persisting format.
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What I just said in the parentheses is a general explanation of why trying to avoid a certain fate—e.g. trying not to lose a girlfriend, trying not to fall over, trying not to be unhappy, trying not to think of a pink elephant—results in that thing you're trying to avoid.
The reason is this:

In a state of uncertainty, you feel compelled to check for certainty.

In order to be certain you're avoiding the bad scenario, you have to mentally conjure up the bad scenario which you are trying to avoid.
The more frequently you check that this is being avoided, the possible you believe this scenario to be.

You end up having an elaborate space-time conception of all the ways things can go wrong, and this framework of certainty becomes the easiest path to pursue.
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Some random thoughts on sound.

I'll start by retweeting the basic characteristics of matter.

The only way matter can outwardly convey itself is by means of sound. In this way, a kind of universal language of its inner nature is broadcasted. You can discern its properties.
From the very get-go, sound is a function of the will-to-life, because all objects are harmonic oscillators resisting annihilation.

As it resists annihilation, i.e. pursuing its lest burdened state, it wobbles and slaps surrounding harmonic oscillators, e.g. air.
Each harmonic oscillator tries to pass off the superfluous energy like a game of hot potato.

Each new reception of excess energy is unwanted, and is imparted to its neighbour as effectively as possible. Eventually the acoustic reverberation fizzles out of detection.
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This frustration with complacency is the fundamental motive of my life.

People are content with such opaque explanations. Whenever you google a scientific question, you're always confronted with a totally bland answer ("because [noun]") which doesn't actually explain anything.
It amounts to "that's just the way things are". It's an exhausted response on the part of people who have given up on actually getting a grip of the world.

Look at this dullard of a scientist's response to my attempts at explaining pain.
His response to "what is pain" was just "durrr, molecules hitting molecules". People who are genuinely satisfied with such explanations are always low-energy materialists.

For me, the lucidity of consciousness is supreme.

I've explained pain as follows:

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An email I wrote to a linguist recently (who subsequently found interest in this approach):
In addition to st-, we can also add an 'r', which elongates the word's *st*arting point.

Strrrrring. Strrrrain. Strong. Stress. Strip. Strap. Strait. Street. Stream.

These all indicate *stretching*.
We could also make our language more beautiful and meaningful by returning to our Germanic roots, but this is an unrealistic hope.

A screenshot of me improving on someone else's attempt at Germanising English:
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