Hello friends! Let's talk about anger a little bit, because we're all going to be dealing with that for the next little while. Anger is not bad, in and of itself, any more than rocket fuel is bad.
There are some things that require a huge burst of adrenaline, energy, and pain tolerance. Anger is why you don't really feel the hits in a bar fight until it's over. Getting angry can sometimes get you to the end of a tough workout, run, or other physical challenge.
But just as rocket fuel is incredibly powerful when burned toward a specific end, but very dangerous to take a bath in, anger can do a real number on your internal organs when you just sit in it for long periods of time.
Even if you're relaxed enough to give normal readings at the doctor, constantly stewing in anger at home can keep blood pressure high enough for long enough that you can do damage to your heart muscle or increase risk of coronary disease just like all chronic high blood pressure.
Other side effects are less well studied, but causal links have been suggested between chronic uncontrolled anger and conditions as varied as stroke, immune deficiencies, and even cancer. Long story short, the body just doesn't withstand sustained adrenaline very well.
We're told a lot, especially lately, "You need to get angry!" "You're not angry enough!" This is actually very ungreat advice, but it comes from a good place. What people probably mean is, you're not active enough. They want you to be a rocket, and they assume you need fuel.
But in the case of powerful action, it doesn't *need* to be fueled by anger. Perhaps ask, "What would I be doing if I were furious? Is there a way I can do this from a calmer, more calculated place?" The same action, taken calmly, will likely be more effective anyhow.
Now, that's all well and good, if you have a CHOICE about being angry. If you haven't had training in self-management of emotions (most NT people have not), then anger may not even be a choice. You may be stuck in a constant loop of rage and feel helpless to change that.
So here's an interesting thing I learned about emotions very early on in my therapy. There is no such thing as a constant emotional state. Any state you're in for longer than say, a minute, you're unknowingly feeding it and renewing it in some way. All emotion needs fuel.
If you've read Borderline, you may recognize the phrase "anger up thoughts" from the second chapter. It's such a weird phrase, but that's what some therapists call them. These are the thoughts you toss onto the fire to keep it from going out; it can take practice to spot them.
Stuff like "How dare she," "This is so unfair," "After all I did for her!" "This is an outrage!" Etc. It's a loop you silently play in your head, and yes, there are usually actual words attached. Step one to anger management is to write those down when you spot them.
Eventually your anger will burn itself out. When it does, see if you can spot the new script your brain is running. "This just isn't worth it." "She is the way she is." "It could be worse." "I'm better than this." "I've got other stuff to do."
Everybody's "up" and "down" thoughts for anger are different, and they can differ by situation, of course. The key is to make conscious note of them often enough that you detect patterns in which scripts control *your* emotions. The "down" thoughts are crucial.
With practice, when there is no constructive action for your anger to propel you toward, you can learn to run the "down" scripts consciously, earlier and earlier in the process, until your anger becomes the fleeting thing it was meant to be.
Like all self-management skills, this is a *skill,* which means it takes practice. If it doesn't work at first, that doesn't mean it's useless. Having a professional guide you through it can help you spot flaws in application, but it can also be learned solo if necessary.
Anger can be a powerful tool if *you* are in control of it. If it's controlling you, there's too much risk that you'll hurt others or yourself, and so I sincerely plead with you to consider addressing it, not equating it with power. It can FEEL powerful, yes.
Anger feels so much more powerful than fear, and that's why we learn to feed it those "up" thoughts in the first place. But any power, uncontrolled, is as likely to hurt us as to help us, if not more so. So be careful.
Remember that taking the reins of one's own emotions isn't easy, or everyone would do it. Most of us are never taught that we need to. It's all right if you're terrible at it. Think of it as learning a new language. Be patient with yourself. I've got your back. ❤️

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