My beautiful Nana Jaan - grandfather - has passed on into the Hereafter.
إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ

If you are a person who prays, please consider reciting Al Fatihah for Maqbool Ahmad Shaikh and that he receives Jannatul Firdous.
I don't have much in me left, after a year and a half of so much loss; after six months of so much loss. So many of the elders who held our history in their tired eyes and their wrinkled hands, gone.
If you had asked me a year ago what grief is, I would have defined it as a visceral reaction to the loss of something gone too soon, taken away too soon.

Today, I understand grief to be a longing for time.

For more time.
For one more conversation, for one more laugh; one more embrace and one more cup of tea. Grief is a longing for a different time: a time where you wrote back to all of his letters, where you spoke to him on the phone more often.
We don't grieve people, we grieve the time we spent and didn't spend with them.
My Nana Jaan defined me as a person. I inherited his love of literature, culture, art and the written word - English and Urdu. He, along with my late grandmother, bought me my first text of Iqbal as a teen.
I truly believe the greatest blessing I've received in recent years in my life was being able to go back to Pakistan after ten years this past January, to see my grandfather. I spoke to him about his life, his marriage, our history.
I learned about myself, my family; about love. I learned about how Sadat Hasan Manto wrote his wedding invitation card.
In my grief - in my wanting one more conversation with him - I am so grateful to Allah swt that I was able to kiss him, embrace him; comb his hair, listen to Qur'an with him, learn about him and feel his hands tightly grasp mine and not let go.
I just didn't realize that that trip would be the last time I'd see both my Nana Jaan and Taaya Jaan (uncle).

I am so very tired of grief. So very, very tired of it. I am tired of longing for more time.

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