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20 Nov, 6 tweets, 2 min read
The life review, when you're falling to your death, is phenomenologically similar to when you're reflecting on the stupidity of your youth.

You reflect on how totally governed you were by the desire to fit in the material world (i.e. the will-to-life), and this disgusts you.
When falling to your death, you realise "This entropic descent is not me; it is not who I am. I want no part in it anymore."

This is also what's happening when you reflect on your youth.

You're disgusted by what lies in store if you continue along that path, so you transcend it
Letting go necessarily entails falling back in judgement with regard to your life.

You let go of all your silly investments (because your memory consists only of your investments, aversions and outstanding debts, which is why adrenaline is a correlate of memory).
(You don't remember what you were doing when you weren't trying to secure your existence. Someone has to point it out, and you find it charming to see your naive self.

Memory itself *is* clinging, and without it, you would drift into pristine naive awareness.)
The phenomenology of not wanting to die is the extreme version of wanting to fit in among people.

You feel invested in this world, and you cannot conceive of leaving it. Everything worthwhile seems *here*, just here.

Trying to not to die is trying to fit into the world.
When you dodge a lorry, or run away from a falling branch, you're trying to fit into this world. The only world you feel secures your existence.

Your chief asset, your main investment, is your body. You perceive only what can cause immediate physical harm to your body.

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21 Nov
Just think, for instance, of how the average person is mortified by the slightest harm done to a dog, but happily eats a burger from a tortured cow.

When you point out the hypocrisy, they lazily—often-times mockingly—gloss over it. They just want their slimy indulgence.
I'm not against eating meat that is properly sourced, but I've always been plagued by contradictions like these in my life.

The modern human is so disgustingly lazy when it comes to ethical output. They cannot for a moment interrupt their freedom of action.
Just think of how addicted the average person is to alcohol. They cannot let go of it for a single evening.

Look at the absolute rubbish they watch on TV. Much of it is borderline pornographic. They're perfectly fine with this objectification of life. Ethics is for schmucks.
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21 Nov
The basis for my saying this is two-fold.

a) The problem today isn't that the masses don't have enough bread and healthcare. The average person today behaviourally resembles an Oriental despot in their manner of consumption and attitude toward life. Punishment is required.
For the same reason Jesus said a rich person had a slim chance of getting into heaven, the average glutton today doesn't have much of a chance either.

Punishment requires temporal power, i.e. the state, in order to overcome all this. Temporal and spiritual must come together.
b) Even if this punishment is not forthcoming, the world would degenerate into such a low moral state that only the most radical (and even barbaric) moral reformer could prevail.

In any case, there is no soft-spoken route of this mess. A moral reformer must aspire to power.
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21 Nov
This is an important subject, so I'll expand on it.

Firstly, Christ was a philosopher: a genius. He also strikes me as the best recorded example of the Platonic Idea of a perfect human being.

I therefore lean towards Christianity, but I must be frank about my feelings on this.
On this subject, Schopenhauer has put into words what I have long felt.

Essentially, everything with material instantiation has an expiry date—which is why prophets must return time and time again, so to speak. Image
The Christian religion is essentially true, but it is in a "heterogeneous age". This means that the inspiring myths no longer have psychological force, which, like it or not, means people don't believe them.

If this means God's voice isn't heard, something is wrong.
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20 Nov
Taking pleasure in food is one of the more forgivable forms of degeneracy, but it is still something to be surmounted. (I'm being a hypocrite here)

All great spiritual leaders agree on this, which is why fasting and gastronomic modesty is an important component of all religions.
It tends to immobilise you, just like all worldly pleasures do (including women). In fact, it's no coincidence that women love to cook for a man they love. They want to see him stalled in his satisfaction, thus making him more dependent on her.
Because I am still a sugar addict, it doesn't yet fall to me to explain the essential nature of gastronomic pleasure.

If I understood it fully, I would not have such a sugar tooth. Still, I have made great strides in this area, so I'll offer some incomplete thoughts on this.
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20 Nov
I hesitate to write the following thread, as it is a disgusting topic. But it's precisely on account of this disgust that one can achieve celibacy.

I'm talking here about the nature of ejaculation, and the pleasure one takes in it.

My previous thread was insufficient.
I regard it as one of the great philosophical triumphs of my life that I have phenomenologically understood what is happening during orgasm.

It has greatly diminished my desire to have sex, much less to watch it. A life of celibacy is perhaps the most liberating feat possible.
Something which has so impacted me personally should be shared, even if I find it embarrassing to discuss.

If enough people can be liberated (if only partially) from blind sexual desire, the current system will be in for a mighty shock.
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20 Nov
Also contributing to a well-defined appearance is uniformity of surface.

Taut skin is attractive for this reason, and I also take this to be the reason why people have a fetish for rubber latex.

Wrinkled skin shows that no definite thing is prevailing. It's failing.
This is a general feature of objects.

The ideal object is a circle with uniformly distributed boundary.

I have tried to explain before in other essays that an object is characterised by its *repetitive* qualities, both in space and time.
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