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30 Nov, 16 tweets, 3 min read
The feeling of embarrassment/shame/cringe is a feeling that, despite great effort, you didn't accomplish what you wanted in the material world.

This is because you were anticipating a kinetic outcome to the build-up of potential. You were *clinging* to the outcome.
If, instead of that, you had built up potential without view to a kinetic outcome, you would not notice either way.

What makes you feel shame is not the build-up of potential, but the fact that you were *looking for the kinetic outcome*.
You feel ashamed of your lack of naivety. The fact that you checked afterwards makes you feel enslaved. If someone caught you looking, you would be embarrassed that you demonstrate that you care too much about what others think.
By contrast, you're very proud of accomplishments to which you were naive.

This is the appropriate perspective. Whenever you deliberately do something with the expectation of a favourable outcome, it is connected to the will-to-life like a bungee cord.
This cord gets stretched and stretched because the pain is preferable to being confronted with naive, indifferent and uncertain consciousness(i.e. consciousness without an object in mind, i.e. without will-to-life)

If you cut it, you're free, but also cut from the animal kingdom
This moment of acceptance is the realisation that your efforts were in vain; all that really ever awaits you is consciousness without will-to-life; in the final analysis, all there is is consciousness, no matter how successful your efforts.
Embarrassment is the correct perspective, even when the efforts were nominally successful, because you were enslaved. You were clinging to something, which the passage of time was bound to make a mockery of anyway.
It was bound to be this way, because the brief moment of success was you trying to attract a warm protective barrier around yourself (whether that be other people's validation, or your body's literal metabolism), and all thermodynamic kinetic activity is self-serving and chaotic.
So, when people "like" you, this is really just them in pursuit of warmth in which they can share. They are *using you* for their own purposes (which is why you see people sharing and tagging images of themselves that are intended to be retweeted by some celebrity figure).
Similarly, the flesh of the body is self-interested, and not ultimately on your side. Each constituent part is pursuing its own interests, which just so happen to be on your side for now, but will just as surely be the cause of death in the end.
When you used other people as a warm protective barrier, they will always produce their own friction by pursuing their own interests simultaneously.

They will be fickle, uninterested in your well-being, will constantly demand more than you can give, etc.
In theory you can just dismiss them, but you depended on them for your manner of life, so dismissing them is tantamount to dismissing the life to which you were clinging and pursuing in the first place.
The only way to avoid all this bother is to not cling to outcomes, but to just keep on building potential regardless.

In this way, you will avoid the slime of the material world holding you down. You will be liberated, and naive to the precise kinetic outcomes.
Only then do you become truly proud of yourself in the long run. Only in naivety (i.e. innocence) do you feel proud of yourself. Without naivety, you feel like an impostor, who was pursuing something contingent, balancing a house of cards.
The feeling of acceptance is the feeling that you efforts will always result in naught, and so it would be better to be free and naive to your fate (because at any rate this leads to happiness).

When you die, you realise this in the utmost sense. You let go of the body.
You will therefore no longer depend on the warm protective layer (namely your body/thermodynamic metabolism), but instead will be happy with consciousness sans flesh.

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30 Nov
Here is a beautiful exposition of the essential feeling of *confinement* in the material world.

She has not read a word of my philosophy, and yet, from her very real experience of the other side, explains it with perfect naivety much more vividly than my philosophy does.
I love these interviews. They're as refreshing to me as reading Schopenhauer.

These are normal people who, by accident, keep giving proof of my hard thought-out philosophy, which was often provoked by my looking at a wall or something, frustrated with the dullness of matter.
These are some of the most precious and enlightening interviews ever given, but our disgustingly philistine world refuses to take them seriously.

People insist on cash value in this world, not insights into the next.
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30 Nov
Humans have an excess of sensibility. We have, so to speak, more nervous system than is necessary for the purely vegetative functions.

(In fact, this more or less defines the nervous system: cells that are superfluous to vegetative functions, and expand in pursuit of affinity.
...All cells are electrically charged, i.e. have ionic imbalance; it's just that nerve cells have a more expansive and ordered domain.)

Because of this excess of sensibility (i.e. nerves), we are axiomatically inclined to check for problems even when they aren't near.
Alcohol and opiates appeal to humans because they depress the central nervous system, and bring you to the present moment. A high enough dose will reduce you to mere vegetative function, and maybe even less than that.

Being in the present eliminates desire, and is thus pleasant.
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30 Nov
The reason drugs like heroin and alcohol feel good is because they give the illusion of being among a warm protective barrier.

They numb the extremities of the central nervous system, so that the ego identifies closer to the centre therein.

You feel cosied up *within* the body.
This makes you lose control of yourself, but this very outsourcing is what makes it pleasant. You can just swing about without your usual powers of discernment.

This is why a pleb likes to mix in crowds. He can cosy up within it, and abandon his powers of discernment.
Alcohol and crowd mentality is therefore a perfect marriage.

It's not just alcohol and drug addictions I'm describing, though. All addictions are a function of the will-to-life (the will-to-life is the sovereign addiction, the engine of them all).

Take gambling for instance.
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30 Nov
One of the main barriers to ideal behaviour is a touch of embarrassment.

As will-to-life, one of your main priorities is securing a position in the animal kingdom. When you start talking about God, or when your ethical output seems excessive, you come off strange and irrelevant.
When you're young, you're especially keen to secure a position in the animal kingdom, so you will do your best to avoid high-flung talk of God and the need to love your enemy and whatnot.

On growing old, it becomes more appropriate, although still slightly jarring.
The decline of culture today means that securing a position in the animal kingdom has become a central aim, and so almost no one is willing to talk in such grandiose terms

Now and again, a young person has an outburst of ethical output, but then they feel embarrassed afterwards.
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30 Nov
In an ideal realm, we would be Jesus-like in our behaviour.

In fact, a person whose mind isn't filled with impurities can notice this in themselves. In their daydreams, such people fantasise about loving, caring, forgiving, patience and heroism in general.
Patience is arguably the master virtue, because all anger, hatred, cowardice, falsehood etc, is the result of taking a shortcut.

In the material world, we have skin in the game (i.e. will-to-life), and so we take the shortest route to our satisfaction by lying, being angry, etc.
Christ so little instantiated the will-to-life that he embodied the ideal in the material world.
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30 Nov
Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think I'm basically describing Arianism.

I think Jesus Christ is the perfect Platonic Idea of man, but that this is distinct from God. This still makes him worthy of exclusive worship, and his story must remain in the material world.
For me, this has force.

I dream about Jesus. He's in my thoughts every day and every other moment. I am deeply moved and inspired by the story of Jesus Christ, etc.

But, in my mind and heart, I can't quite form an identical relation between him and God.
Perhaps this isn't one of those things I should be speculating about out loud, because after all, my mind could change over the years.

But I figured it's worth clarifying anyway (as there are a few people interested in my philosophical outlook).
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