CW: sexual abuse, trauma, suicidal ideation

2020 was an incredibly difficult year for me, more so than I let on publicly. Y'all know now that @/IrrationalChad engaged in some widely inappropriate conversations with me back in April, but at the same time as this, I was in a..
long distance relationship with someone who gaslit and emotionally abused me, and guilted me every time I showed even remote interest in another person.

When I broke up with her, she attacked me as well as a few friends around me until I had to block her on any platform she..
could use to reach me.

Then in October, I was sexually assaulted by every member of a polycule I was a part of, and it just about broke me. Coming out about what happened between myself and CL I think made me realize how much I had to endure, and it's gonna take a bit for me..
to process all of this.

My mind is telling me I allowed all of this to happen, that I deserve it somehow. And that's total BS, but trauma makes it difficult to forgive yourself for things that genuinely aren't your fault.

To everyone who's sent me love over the past hour or..
two: thank you. Seriously. I went through a suicidal period in October and realized that all of this pmated a role in it, and I've been trying to climb my way out since.

Y'all have done wonders in helping me begin the healing process, and I HAVE to thank my GF for showing me..
both what a healthy relationship looks like, as well as helping me believe for myself that I DO deserve better. And she's been a lifesaver 🖤🖤

I love y'all. Don't ever give up hope, no matter what. You are not the things that have been done to you.

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