Phew. Okay.

Big vulnerable ask, since I know a lot of folks are struggling (hello, global pandemic!), but I’m raising money for a service animal.

It would literally change my life. So. Let me explain. 🧵
I finally have the opportunity to get a service dog (😭) because some stars aligned very suddenly. I’m trying to raise enough money to bring a pup home for my PTSD and agoraphobia.
Agoraphobia is a type of panic disorder in which sufferers struggle to leave their home. I developed the disorder after trauma as a young person. It’s hard for me to talk about, because I have a lot of shame around being unable to leave my house for long periods of time.
If you’ve struggled to stay quarantined during COVID, you have a little glimpse into what my entire life with this disorder has looked like. It’s an isolating, depressing, awful phobia and it makes my life so much harder than it should be.
I’m not able to leave my home without another person, and even then, I’m likely to have a panic attack. It makes me feel like... I’m not even a part of the rest of the world, because I don’t get to truly experience it.
I want to feel like I have a life that isn’t confined to my home. I want to be able to see friends. I want to be able to hug my family.

There is a future where everyone will have that again. And I’m scared to death that I won’t, because I’ll still be confined to my home.
While I’m doing exposure therapy and taking antidepressants and working on my trauma, my team feels really strongly that having a service animal could be exactly what I need to be able to go out on my own and be independent for the first time in my life.
The pandemic was really my wake up call. I’m going to get vaccinated next week here in Oregon. There’s an end to this pandemic, and I want to rejoin the world like everybody else.

So I want to try to raise enough money to get a service dog. And get my life back.
If you feel called to and have the means, I would be really grateful for the help. 😭 A service dog from the organization I’m in touch with is 5,000 dollars — which includes all the training and support. I have some savings so I’d like to raise 3,000 if I can.

Venmo: SD-Finch
I also have PayPal here:

PayPal.me/SamDylanFinch
I am turning 30 this year. I feel like I lost my twenties to this disorder and I don’t want more decades of my life confined and afraid like this. So, I’m trusting in community and hoping we can make this happen.

I would be so grateful!! Thank you. 😭💗💗
UPDATE: YOU DID IT. 😭

I rolled out of bed and my jaw dropped. I can’t even express how much this means to me.

If folks still have money to spare, I would love it if you donated to the Houston-based Trans Disaster Relief Fund: tdrfund.us
I’m going to be crying all day. Especially because so many of you shared what my work has meant to you, too. That was really special to hear and I feel so lucky to be part of your lives in that way. Thank you. 😭😭

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✨ ADHD experiment for this week ✨

How I'll choose my three priorities for the day:

1. One task/project I've been delaying on
2. One that is *actually* urgent (there will be consequences)
3. One that I'm excited to be working on

An hour spent on each.
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1. Reply to three dreaded emails
2. Unsubscribe from three lists
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+ Productivity Planner (intelligentchange.com/products/the-p…)

+ Social media as accountability
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I was prescribed Propecia for hair loss associated with HRT twice in my life.

Both times, a few weeks later — like clockwork — I was hospitalized for acute suicidality... which subsided when I was no longer taking the medication.
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We deserved consistent, reliable care.
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