I often want to leave academia. The work I do has led to my being targeted by obsessive misogynists, getting speaking engagements but not job talks, and being left high and dry by people in power all too often.

This is a thread about why I stay.
I have at this point amassed a huge number of collaborators/colleagues/friends who are my generation or more junior, who are ten times the scholar I am and inspire me every day. They are my ride or die colleagues, we build better worlds together every day.
I have a small handful of senior women who I trust and have had my back, privately and publicly. They support, mentor, and sponsor me and I can be whiny and tired with them when I have to be impenetrable and perfect everywhere else.
The trainees in my lab have made me a better person and a better scholar. It's because of them that I returned to feminist theory after years away, that I now read critical theory regularly, that our lab's research is as forward-thinking as it is.
My trainees are why our lab's mission is justice and growth. I think about those two words almost every day - I ask if my decisions, my actions, are in service to what we decided would be our values. I am a better scholar and mentor only because I endeavor to deserve them.
My students more broadly - in my undergrad Humanizing Science class and my grad Feminist Science seminar - scare the crap out of me with how smart they are. They bring so many new ideas, disciplines, perspectives, that I am inspired to keep up.
And then there are all the people I read and fangirl about in my own head - mostly humanists and critical studies scholars of various kinds - whose work I wouldn't be able to access as readily without an academic affiliation. I think new thoughts every day because of them.
What's valuable about universities is that they enable cross-disciplinary & cross-generational conversation, collaboration, & mentorship. When done right, we create affirming counterspaces to at least partially protect ourselves from the abuse we endure by daring to do Big Things
That's not enough. Maybe one day the abuse & lack of support will be enough to make me leave. But until then, I enjoy imagining radical futures with my colleagues & students, learning from them, and making the closest thing to a just, inclusive academy in our labs and classes.

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tl;dr page 1: I was asked to testify about my personal experiences with Mr. Balter and to provide an expert opinion, which I have done before.
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