This is something I am still thinking about a lot. Because I say things like, “ha ha it’s cool I can manage it, it’s no biggie!” but also I failed out of college twice.
I’ve had to do a lot of thinking to get myself to the point where I can say, “yes, this thing that derails me occasionally for years at a time is in fact a form of disability.”
And it feels weird saying that to myself because I’m fine! I’m happy! I’m successful by any reasonable metric (which means I struggle with feeling like a failure, thanks brain).
This is still a new idea for me—the idea that it’s a disability for my brain to go on the fritz for months—and it sounds so obvious when I say it like that, but I am only now beginning to understand this.
And I’m 44.

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