hi friends

hello

are you a tenured or TT faculty member interested in the expertise of someone who shares your qualifications and training but not your good fortune on the curséd job market?

would you, in short, like to "pick" a NTT expert's "brains?"

okay good let's talk
before we begin:

1) this can but doesn't necessarily apply to other contingent folks

[you can skip the rest of the thread if you promise never to ask to "pick" the "brains" of fellow contingent scholars ever again; let's find a better way ask for help and keep trucking]
[you might not know this but folks in privileged positions LOVE to "pick" the "brains" of marginalized folks, within and beyond the academy

and what that means is "use the hard-won experiences of folks who lack my privilege to further myself w/o boosting that brain's owner]
[so let's commit to mutual aid and steer away from this kind of language, yeah?

good

resolved

moving right along]
2) I want to fully acknowledge that mercury is in retrograde and meanings are being lost left right and center rn

so I am going to try to rein in the bitchiness but also no promises
okay great, let's do this

a thing about the academy is that it relies on labor that gets compensated in non-monetary ways and often relies on exchange in-kind

so for TT/T folks, it is NBD to ask another TT/T prof to skype* into a class for free or lower their rates
bc guest lectures and keynotes and the like yield CV lines that in turn help that un- or undercompensated TT/T prof earn tenure and promotion

(and supposedly like job security and academic freedom and I know it's not working out that way but also that's a different thread)
likewise sharing teaching materials--which y'all know is like catnip to me--helps TT/T profs teach better classes

and teaching is ALSO supposed to help with tenure and promotion

(look, I know, don't get me started about how teaching is not properly valued by T&P either)
I'm not saying TT/T profs can't also take advantage of TT/T marginalized folks

bc obviously they can

our Black women colleagues have told us how often their white male colleagues ask to "pick their brains," yeah?
but what I'm trying to get across here is that TT/T requests of NTT/T colleagues is apples-to-oranges

actually it's more like polo to fucking Calvinball, if we're being honest

and the only folks who seem to know that are the alt-ac, staff, contingent, etc people
we are operating on different economies

and here's where I start using my I-statements
I, like 70+% of folks who earn PhDs these days, did not land a tenure-track job

I have the qualifications of a TT prof

and if we're being honest, I publish like one

until recently, I did service like one

but I am NOT one

I am: staff
granted, I am staff at a magical unicorn of a program at an R-1 that is super excited about the work that program does

and my supervisor is a smart, kind, incredibly generous colleague who takes me seriously as a fellow researcher as well as an administrative coworker
please do not think I am not counting my blessings every freaking day

I fully know how lucky I got, in large part bc so many folks like me--who got the degree, who put in the work, who did the dance and wore the suits and followed the rules--did NOT get lucky like I did
but even at this magical unicorn of a job, guess what my leviathan of an employer cares about

ready?

they care about: am I doing the job my job description says I'm going to do

that job description involves a lot of things

guess what's not on there

did you guess research?
yes, that is correct

research is officially 0% of my job description

teaching is a wee small part of it, but I could be the world's most phenomenal teacher

(and I'm pretty fucking good, don't get me wrong)
and that teaching excellence would in no way contribute to me staying employed in this job

here's what determines whether or not I stay employed:

external funding

(and Liz still wanting to work with me, obvs)

that's it
why are we talking about my job description, you might wonder

bc, friends, if you read it closely, you'll note that it makes my research an extracurricular activity

it is something that, in the eyes of my employer, I do for funsies

like other people take up golf or something
I love sharing my research! I love collaborating about teaching!

but I'm no longer in a system that rewards me for doing either of those things!

so if you're asking me to do them for free, you are *actually* asking me to pay to do them

bc that labor comes out of my PTO
I am so, so lucky that my employers are cool with me working an unconventional schedule

which means I have the latitude to decide if and when and how I *do* do work I enjoy and am trained to do but isn't part of my, you know, job

and I do quite a bit of that work!
but facts are facts, America

and one cannot subsist upon gift economies out of which one was rudely forced

after which one developed skills and also a research agenda many seem to want to know more about

so one shares those skills and that research

but one gets paid to do so
there are exceptions, obvs

I can choose to lower or waive my fees if the person/org asking is run by minoritized folks

I can choose to lower or waive my fees if it's a friend asking me to do them a solid

I can choose to lower or waive my fees if I damn well feel like it
but if you ask me to do labor that isn't part of my job description and for which I will not--indeed, CANNOT--be compensated for by the academy that flushed me

I am going to tell you I charge for that shit
hopefully, telling TT/T folks that I have set rates for research talks and teaching consulting can be the beginning of a conversation

hopefully, my TT/T colleagues know or can learn that we're not playing the same game anymore -- that it's damaging and unfair to pretend we are
but that starts with us acknowledging that so many folks doing work that excites you got flushed the fuck out of a deeply broken sewer system riddled with leaks

and if you want their shit to fertilize your own work, that comes at a cost
and bc I am one big nerve ending this week, let's say out loud that the cost isn't just monetary

it is so awesome to be asked by scholars you respect to do talks or share resources, bc that FEELS like the respect the academy at large didn't, wouldn't give us
this can, I say from deep experience, lead us to OVERPERFORM and OVERCOMMIT to any opportunity that comes our way

BECAUSE WE'LL SHOW YOU, THE ACADEMY

YOU'RE NOT OUR REAL DAD AND YOU NEVER WILL BE
but that shit is not healthy, beloveds

they will take our labor

but there is no amount of overwork we can perform that will make the academy take us back

(pause to cite @seananmcguire)

publishing.tor.com/everyheartadoo… every heart a doorway cover
all this is to say that it costs NTT/T scholars to do work that folks might expect us to be eager to do

(in funds and time, but also in disappointment and frustration and just, like FEELS)

I'm not saying don't ask us

I just hope you understand: we'll have to charge
postscript of overwhelming gratitude to all the TT/T folks who supported, invited, signal boosted, commiserated with, and literally and figuratively fed me while I tried--and I'm still trying--to figure this alt-ac thing out
your solidarity is everything and also the only way academia has a shot to change for the better
and white women colleagues also, obviously

look, whiteness and white people are a problem

full stop
*I also got so lucky bc so many tenured profs, especially tenured women profs, worked very very very very hard to land me this spot

and the only thing I can do about that is be grateful and try to pay it forward

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