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Jul 7, 2021 27 tweets 14 min read Read on X
I live in two overlapping worlds. In one, I’m seen as a monster. In the other, people value my work.

/ A thread.
One of these worlds is based in reality. The other is not, and yet that false world often feels stronger, ineradicable.
The day I was acquitted and released from prison, I thought I had escaped the labyrinth.
I thought I would return to the life that had been stolen from me…I quickly realized that life didn’t exist anymore.
I was no longer just me, a language nerd who liked poetry and rock climbing. I was the girl who was accused of murder.
And in millions of minds, I was not just accused, but guilty. I was redefined as a killer. My innocence didn’t change that.
When I was definitively acquitted by Italy’s highest court, I was freed from a physical prison...
...but not from the prison of infamy, not from the false identity as a drug-addled whore and killer.
The accusations and hate didn’t stop.
It’s been 4,993 days since I was first arrested. 4,993 consecutive days of hate.
For a while, I felt so, so lost. Entering freedom, I had landed in an entirely new labyrinth.
And inside, I had to discover who I was.

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What I’ve gone through is unique, but also...
...not unique at all. Plenty of people have been wrongfully convicted - mostly poor, disenfranchised men.

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And I’m not the first to be globally slut-shamed (shout out to @monicalewinsky)
I never asked for attention, for scrutiny, to be cast as a cardboard character in a morality play for tabloid readers and true crime junkies.
But here I am. Trying to figure out how to play the strange hand I’ve been dealt...

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...to make the best of a bad situation, and put to work everything I’ve learned along the way...
...to practice the nuance and compassion and empathy that was denied me by those eager to vilify and punish.
So I’ve been building bridges, talking to victims and vilified men and women, advocating for criminal justice reform.
But the thing I’m most proud of is Labyrinths, the podcast I created with my novelist husband @manunderbridge. I’m grateful for the opportunity to do this work and meet other survivors along the way.
And nothing gives me greater satisfaction than to know that I’ve reached someone.

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That someone else feels less alone in their own labyrinth.

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It helps me shrug the hate off. To remember that it doesn’t define me.
I define me.
Season 2 of Labyrinths premieres today with episode 1 of a 5-part miniseries on infertility. In today’s episode, I bare my soul about my recent miscarriage.

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I hope you’ll listen. And if you like the podcast, please consider supporting us! We’re independent and ad-free. If we had one supporter for every hundred cruel messages that come in, that would more than balance out the hate.

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Jul 16
When I first got out of prison and fully entered the public eye, I wanted to disappear. I wanted to be featureless, shapeless, blurred like a poorly pixelated background NPC. Desire made me a target, or at least that was the message I had internalized.
Not just sexual desire, but the desire to be seen, to be known, to connect. To this day, it still stuns me that I had to rediscover my sexuality in the most repressive and punishing place imaginable: prison.

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In my book, Free, I write about Lenny (not her real name), a fellow inmate who developed a crush on me. She wasn’t the first person in my life to project her fantasies onto me, but in her case, I wasn’t just an attractive object.
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Jul 11
Today, an Italian judge ruled that there is sufficient evidence for Rudy Guede—the man who murdered my roommate eighteen years ago—to stand trial for a new set of charges against another young woman: sexual assault, domestic battery, and stalking.
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I wish I could say I was surprised, but I’m not. Not by the evidence, which includes witness testimony as well as thousands of photos, text messages, and audio files. Not by the bravery of the young woman who came forward.
Certainly not by Guede’s denial; that’s the one thing he’s been consistent about for the past eighteen years: refusing to take responsibility for his violence.
Read 12 tweets
Jul 9
It's my birthday today. I'm thinking about how I stopped celebrating my birthday in prison. It felt like a pointless ritual that belonged to the outside world. I was facing more years inside than I’d been alive so marking the passage of time wasn’t something to celebrate.
/🧵
I turned 21 in prison, with no rousing cheers for a first legal drink. Not even prison hooch, though my cellmates did attempt to ferment pineapple juice with pizza yeast in a two-liter water bottle hidden behind the toilet.
Just five days prior, I’d passed my first Fourth of July in prison more homesick than ever. I wasn’t even in the mood to go outside for “aria” and walk around in circles under the hot July sun, though it had become the highlight of my days.
Read 10 tweets
Apr 16
This battle over Abrego Garcia is simple. It doesn't matter that he was here illegally. It doesn't matter if he's a gang member or if he's a wife beater (both of which are disputed). It doesn't matter if you think he deserves to be deported or to be in prison. / thread
It doesn't matter if you think the county is overrun with immigrants who entered illegally. It doesn't matter if the system is burdened with processing these immigration hearings. Only one thing matters here, and all the rest is a distraction:
There was standing court order preventing his deportation, and he was arrested and deported anyway. Even if you think that court order was unwise, flawed, or based on politically motivated reasoning, it was a legal court order. It was never challenged. It was merely violated.
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Apr 16
"I'm not OK with sentencing innocent people," says JD Vance while defending the decision to send a man to an El Salvador prison without due process, without a trial, without the presumption of innocence. We've arrived at the Ministry of Truth.
Yes, every system has an error rate, and wrongful convictions are inevitable. That is why error correction mechanisms are crucial. This is why we have appeals. This is why when an automaker installs a faulty part, they issue a recall. RECALL Kilmar Abrego Garcia!
Vance is arguing here that enforcing the law inevitably means errors, and that providing due process to people is inherently in conflict with enforcing the law, so we just have to accept these errors. But he also wants to say he's not okay with sentencing innocent people.
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Mar 27
I remain wrongly convicted of slander in Italy, and loads of people still think I'm a killer despite my acquittal. I am at peace with this. I will also never stop fighting to clear my name.

This is a paradox. Embracing this paradox is a key that can free you from suffering.
/🧵
You must accept that the world is on fire and simultaneously try to douse the flames. You must accept that your life is perfect, with all its flaws and annoyances and griefs and burdens, and still strive to improve yourself and your circumstances.
Zen Master Suzuki Roshi put it this way: "Everything is perfect…and there’s plenty of room for improvement!" What does this mean? How could everything be "perfect" when there are wars and famines and rapes and murders, and myriad injustices that no one deserves?
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