I’m not a child groomer - those are in your houses and churches.

I am a parent with a vivid memory of my own childhood.

I made affirming shows for kids like me that break the binary — speculative social fiction — to shut me down you’ll have to put a bullet in my head.
I’m from Flathead County Montana and then lived in the Upper Pennisula of Michigan. I’m rural mofo.

You don’t think people have tried to “shut down” the sissy in me?

The following are things that didn’t work:
I’ve had a decade worth of therapy two to five days a week - so these are well turned over and I don’t ruminate — but CW for folks who might not be in a good spot

At home my military step father called me a sissy constantly and kicked, choked, and punched me every chance he got
I was chased and corned into a bunch of captive situations:

Tied to a chainlink fence and had my genitals beaten with a bike lock

Had saws held to my wrist and told I moved I would be cut

Had to stand over a log and had it bounced up and down on my crotch
Held down in the locker room screaming while a bully put makeup on me and covered me in baby powder

Invited to a girl’s house to listen to music but it was actually an ambush by her boyfriend and his friends. Beaten.

Held down / had a rock smashed down on my hand — lost nails
Have had guns pointed at me a bunch

Been shot at — my friend Tim was shot in the leg that day — and had sling shot penned wiz by my ears

Had my clothes torn off in the hallway — had to sit in the principles office in tights only until my Grandpa brought new clothes
Had a bunch of bloody eyes as a child — vivid memories of the sloshing of blood as my head turned. Lots of general punching and having my stuff thrown onto roofs of into dumpsters or into the river.

Had to hide my bike when I went places so the spokes weren’t kicked out -
Walked my bike home a bunch.

Chased with and hit in the back a few times with a baseball bat

Then just a lot to taunting, chasing, teasing. Jumped out of moving cars twice.

This lead to the attempted sexual assault in the woods — where I was slammed onto the hood of a truck
That was childhood — weird shit in adulthood too. I fought back plenty too — and sometimes I won.

At any rate — what are ya’ll thinking?

You can definitely hurt us and have material impact on our lives and career with 4Chan, TERF, Right wing rumors and abuses — those work
I want ya’ll I mind your business and leave us alone

I want allies to have empathy and patience and understand that marginalized people face trauma and micro aggressions that dominant culture doesn’t as much — but we deal with those and put it into the work
But “shut us down” requires you to bring back the laws that put us in jail pre 1970s or it’ll requires some Nazi shit

Will I ever get another show? I don’t know — but I am gonna keep trying and I don’t think ya’ll can match my vigilance or resilience or EXPERIENCE with bullies
Also I know I tweet like a manifesto but in reality I am eating Cheetos and gonna watch some sci-fi with my son then clean my porch

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“Many are afraid to speak up because they fear for their jobs and even for their personal safety” said Rowling. “This climate of fear serves nobody well, least of all trans people”
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Prior acting Emmy noms include Laverne Cox, Rain Valdez, Scott Turner Schofield, Eddie Izzard
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Like - even major entertainment publications get it wrong — @THR @nytimes @EW and even @glaad

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