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20 Jul, 14 tweets, 3 min read
After the first few attempts at UPSC CSE

I developed an almost instinctive sense of when I was going off track.

But in the earlier attempts
I had faced a lot of fear, uncertainty and doubt.

= Reflections on the early days =
During the first two attempts I remember being scared.

I was confident that I had what it took to clear the exam.

But I was also scared.

If this doesn't happen then what?
If I waste 2 years of my life, will I ever get a job?
(giving 6 attempts was unimaginable back then)
During my 3rd attempt

(I had failed 2 prelims by then)

I remember having vivid dreams where I was chasing something and despite my best efforts unable to catch it.

I was seriously doubting my intentions and my efforts by this point.
Could I chase down this goal?

Despite considering myself a bright student, I had failed Prelims twice.

I even questioned myself:
• Am I really a bright student?
• What if I never figured out how to do it right?

I really didn't like the idea of failing, again.
Over time
I realised that there is no answer to these questions.

Doubts come because we're scared of an uncertain future.

But all we have is the present moment.

The Stoics really helped drive that point home for me.
Given this premise

In my later attempts, I was easily able to focus on the planning and execution.

I knew I could still go wrong, but I also knew that given a chance I would correct my mistakes as well.

And that's all there is to it.
The doubts will always remain.

There is no way for you to remove the doubts.

Because to doubt, is human.

What you need to practice instead is not giving attention to those doubts.
Next time you ask yourself, what if I can't clear it?

Tell yourself to study the subject twice.

Because that's what you can control, your efforts.

If you try to control the outcome, the only result of that will be misery. Focus on your efforts instead.
With UPSC preparation, I had learnt to shut these demons out.

Ignore the voices that said, what if you don't make it.

And I figured having shut them out once I would not be bothered by them again.
Now working with @PensilTeam I faced those same fears again.

I was doubtful about what I was doing, whether I'd be able to execute as expected.

I was not sure if I would succeed.

But then success lies in the future, and all I have is the present.
You cannot depend on the mental muscle that you built built in the past to remain with you forever.

Just like you need to keep exercising to stay fit, you need to remind yourself that you have what it takes to achieve your goals.

If you don't tell yourself this, no one will.
And the hardest thing about life: no gain is permanent.
The obstacle is the way.

Something bothering you?
Figure out how to gamify it.

This is the mindset that leads to eventual success.

Be it UPSC preparation or entrepreneurship.
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Positive results will soon follow.
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