A small story:

Consort is sentimental and nostalgic.

I am not.

In fact, if pressed, I would describe myself as "Whatever the furthest point is from nostalgia." I actually hate reminiscing. Until yesterday, I knew this without being able to explain why.
And then, I took a shower.
I have taken showers before.

Several, in fact.

And sometimes when I'm standing there, trying to atone to my body for the Sculpt class I have just taken, I realize something very profound, something obvious, something that it took conditioning my hair for me to see.
"I don't like reminiscing," I thought as I set the water to "Flay," "Because either the memory is good and I can't go back there or the memory is bad and what kind of sick fuck enjoys that?"

I smiled at my newfound brilliance and then coughed, because I had inhaled shampoo.
"Uh, Quinn. You're writing this on Twitter."

Yes.

"Where many times a week you write a story."

Indeed I do.

"About your life before now."

Usually.

"Wouldn't 'thinking back on an incident in your life' be sort of the definition of reminiscing?"

Allow me to explain.
(Always assume anything I write is me telling you what my experience is, and this might not be your experience)
(Assume it double for the following)
Nostalgia and storytelling aren't the same. In fact, they are the opposite. Nostalgia is warm, amorphous, experiential; you could write a thousand words about how it felt in your grandmother's lap when you were four and it would never quite get it, because it can't.
Nostalgia literally means "An ache to return." When you are nostalgic, you are in the nicest kind of terrible pain, an injury only soothed by more injury. Nostalgia is inward.

Storytelling is cool, precise, outward.
Reminiscing and nostalgia are "I feel."

Storytelling is "Listen up."

When I go through something less than wonderful, some part of my brain is already taking notes for the story it will become, which is my brain's way of containing the damage.
Even if it's a good experience, my brain still treats the data points as cross-beams in a construction yet to be determined.

Everything is material.

Everything.

My brain is filled not with dust-covered Kodak carousels but building supplies and I prefer it that way.
My ears, of course, are filled with shampoo.

I could do without that.

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@DoodleWrangler Did I ever tell you about the time I quietly avenged your father by ruining a drunk's night?
We knew a couple where Consort was longtime friends with the husband and I usually got stuck with the wife. She was and, I suspect, still is a therapist.

She was also nearly certainly an alcoholic.

Maybe she wasn't.
Maybe it's perfectly normal to not be able to stop after a single drink, maybe all the most abstemious drinkers turn into an utter jackass after downing a bottle pretty much on their own.

Maybe "weekday breakfast wine" is a thing.

Anyway, she was my responsibility.
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LOL.

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Cancer?

Terror?
(You don't)
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(Bites tongue, taps foot, begs self to leave it there)

(Cannot)

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bmj.com/content/346/bm…
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(Will definitely touch rail in a bit)


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Read this.

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