alRIGHT day one (night one) of bookposting. might have something cool coming up tomorrow if things go according to plan (if you know a lot about discord maybe dm me)
for now, lets take a little thread tour through the real cutting room floor - some things that did not make it in
lots of things i found going through the archives that hovered on the edge of memes and comics (ie., below). u could kind of call them either. i really didn't want the book to feel like a collection of memes, its really the story of the comics, which form a cohesive metanarrative
so, there were lots of things i found that were really more [memes] than [comics]. as you see below. for some of them, it was hard to tell, so i mostly split them up according to how much i liked them, or, more importantly, how well they fit into the arc of the book.
brb i have to carry owen jr up and down the stairs, that is the only situation he is comfortable existing in rn for some reason (stairsmaxxing). one sec.
some were a little situational, like this one. fun fact (behind the scenes), i was working at a supermarket at the time, and had this idea like the day before thanksgiving, so i drove home way too fast on my lunch break, quickly drew it, posted it, then drove right back
then i think i ate my actual lunch in the freezer or something when i got back. just a day in the life. speaking of being cold i like this one a lot also:
i kind of drew a line time wise and said, okay everything after this definitely goes in. there were a few things i drew when i was still feeling out the comics format and just doing them every now and then that just kind of didnt "stick" in the record, like this one:
there were a few historical things that were more like sketches than "comics" that i collected along the way but that didn't make it in. i think when i made these i thought of them as things to just post in the moment so, these were easy to move into the "maybe" folder.
its funny, i used to really really like hunter s thompsons stuff a lot, + in something we wrote once, he said his ideal, at least for fear and loathing in las vegas, was just to record everything raw unedited on this notepad and then drop that off and have it printed straight up
with no editing, cuts, or anything. i guess thats always partially my style, but when you're printing something and sending it out, suddenly you have like 40 pages of medium quality for every 4-5 of 5 star stuff, maybe its more of an artistic vision than ideal reality.
he never ended up getting that ideal unedited concept printed btw. ultimately on my end i had to order a bunch of test copies because i wanted to see how it felt with X included, or Y excluded, while reading it. im very happy with the sequence and overall "set" i ended up with.
some wholesome stuff that did not make it in. i think one person guessed this, but the second image here made the rounds for some reason + the center overlap is the name of a song by a band called less than jake. this is kind of a deep cut i havent mentioned but its a funny story
when i was way younger, very young, i was at my friends house. he randomly takes us in this room and says, hey, my sister has doubles of all these CDs, you guys can each take one, and theres a bunch of CDs all laid out in a line. kind of makes no sense in retrospect but, whatever
and i saw this one, and took it. theyre kind of a ska punk band (i was probably 10-12 years old). i listened to it all the time, and this band ended up being my favorite band for most of my life. its funny because their songs are mostly about a theme that became central to me.
most of their songs are about being really intoxicated all the time but kind of being brought down by it instead of enjoying it, but you keep doing it anyway, or this general feeling of dissatisfaction that pervades that lifestyle. so, i only got to relate to this more and more.
or they're about being sick of where you're from and wanting to leave but feeling stuck there. so, as i eventually got more 'in the hole' of being a drugs and alcohol based person as i got older, i just listened to them more and more, all the time, while drinking / smoking etc.
but then, i stopped doing all that, and i actually did pack up and leave the place where i was from. on the way out, they have this song five state drive that is about exactly that, and i was actually driving across five states, so i listened to it in the van on the way out.
and then when i got here, i just stopped listening to it. i just totally pressed pause and tabled it and put it on the shelf. every now and then it comes up but it just so perfectly encapsulates the first half of my life, its just really interesting i was given that CD that day.
so whats the moral of that
im not sure. its kind of weird though, in a way, isnt it. i mean its like if i hadnt "randomly" chosen that CD an entire section of my inner landscape would be totally different. it really feels non-coincidental
anyway fittingly heres another meme one
perfect. we got a music one that didn't make it in. hey some of these are pretty good. maybe i can call the printer and...
hey this one fits the story also. man these are pretty good. wow if these are the ones that didnt make it in, the book must be pretty solid. we must be feeling pretty good about the book if this is the cutting room floor material
lmao i love this one (2real)
lol forgot about this one, i made this specifically to quote tweet a post on here one time
2esoteric4me (idk)
did a few of these weird ones way in the beginning. they're also not in the book.
man this is the perfect one to (maybe) end this b-sides thread on. obviously the main series of comics now, they start (in a way) at the tail end of the book with the m99 comics, ended up being about me (or a guy who is basically me) and the people in my life [...]
i just found this drawing way back from our apartment in [big city]. kind of a proto-comic image i guess. my wife used to knit on our bed, and we didnt have curtains, i just pinned this tapestry over the window, and it would blow in the wind. this is really what it looked like:
thats crazy man. honestly thats the coolest part of the book, it really spans a whole set period of my life, from that apartment, to my exodus from the city, to her getting pregnant. the book took so long to make, we found out she was pregnant, then we moved this summer [...]
so by the time i sent it off to print, i had more comics i made here (at our new spot). i tried to add them in at the end but it just didnt fit. the book really is like an album the perfect spans from point A to point B. that was the weirdest part of making it, to be honest.
initially i thought it would just be like a 60 page tiny thing but in the end, i was holding this 250 page document that really was a total summation of this whole body of work and chunk of my life. an interesting feeling. many old interesting pics but we'll wrap this up now.
yooo anprim owen cyclops???? this was even before dog
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heres some genuine esoteric psychology advice (for entertainment purposes only):
you have a job. we say “have” so, you think its “just there”. its something you got, and now you possess it. thats wrong. if you “have” something like a job, you are creating that job.
things dont just exist eternally in a static state in this sphere: so, every day, you are creating that job. you don’t realize it, but you are. if you weren’t, it would just decay or go away or be destroyed. so, youre creating your job every day without realizing it.
next:
now, you get to a point where you dont like your job anymore. so, you think: now, i have to fix this. i have to create a solution. i have to create something to counter this problem in my job.
but, thats wrong: because youre still creating the job, every day. so, what happens?
van dusen (psychologist who worked with schizophrenics and read swedenborg) eventually adopted an energy vampire model of the voices his patients were hearing, he claimed explaining this to the patients consistently resulted in the voices telling patients to physically attack him
he basically claimed that he could sit (at least a significant percent of his) patients down in a room and go through a script, like “i am going to start explaining something to you - here’s what the voices are going to tell you to do”: first they would tell patients to leave.
(might mix up the order here) - then, they would tell patients to not listen to him, then finally when none of that was possible, and he was explaining what was happening as a phenomenon, they would tell patients to attack him. like a predictable pattern, one, two, three.
tech interfaces used to be much more actively customizable. you could just poke in and make everything green, pink, anything. this is much less of a thing today. this probably stems from a kind of allergy to sincerity - someone might see your interface and see how much you cared
jordan peterson really got his whole thing locked into a single meme: "clean up your room". whats lesser known is what the second step was: make it beautiful. the idea was that by trying to make something look nice, you would then be forced to be open to harsh personal criticism
regardless of what you think about him or his work, this is true. if you hang a painting up in your room, people are going to come over, and they might say, "...thats the painting you chose?" - and you have nowhere to go. you can only say, well, yeah. you're total unguarded.
'medical mundi' is a term i started to use, internally, at a time in my life when i was often in and out of hospitals.
the 'medical world' really is 'a world'. it is a realm. it has its own way of being, its own paradigm, and its self-contained.
thats medical mundi.
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you dont really notice when you enter medical mundi. something happens, and you go to the hospital. thats just what you do. you're just there.
but, you notice when you leave. you're back in the parking lot - hours, days, weeks later. like a stone, you hit the earth. you're back
i have lots of memories like that. suddenly, you realize you were just in a whole separate universe. thats usually when it all hits you. things dont really hit you in medical mundi. people talk to you, you're doing stuff, but you're kind of just there. its just happening to you.
it is difficult to imagine something more wholesome than a baby. children are, in a way, the benchmark for what wholesome is. likewise, if you were asked to think of content that was unwholesome one subject that would immediately come to mind is sex
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it seems noteworthy then for those interested in symbolism, cosmology, religion, or sociology (life in general) to observe that these are only oppositional concepts when it comes to practical day to day terrestrial life. on deeper level, they are more than directly related.
the way hot and cold are apparent opposites but are in reality extensions of one thing (temperature), our first instinct for most wholesome thing and least wholesome thing are actually part of the same process. the baby is the completion of the sexual act. children come from sex.
one way to conceptualize mormonism historically is that it re-orients the christian system around the family unit, as we might say that at other times (possibly now, i cant say) it was organized around groups of monastics. this allows them to make statements like this one:
most american christians intuit that there is something essential about the family and marriage - but they lack the theological basis to say its essential. in my opinion they really feel that its “the whole point” and talk this way, but its hard to square in their big picture
catholicism has this nicely squared up (imo, which means nothing). its kind of “the whole point” if youre a layperson, but if you’re a monk or priest obviously there are other reasons and factors for your lifestyle differences. they have a different track built right in.