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Feb 21 • 4 tweets • 1 min read
CW: Suicide

I’m pretty sure I lost a friend to suicide this week.

She was a newer friend, and we only knew each other online. Different countries. Different time zones. I knew how low she was, but I had really hoped, more than I can tell you, that she would stay.
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She reached out to me a while back when she was really low. We talked. She tried to get help. She had so much going on, and she was hurting so, so much, but my goodness, was she a fighter. She fought really hard. She kept trying to find reasons to stay.
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I really cared about her, and tried to help her as much as I could. But we can’t save other people. That’s something I know very well, both personally and professionally. But it doesn’t make it any easier. I’ll always wish I could have done more.
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I’m sharing this story because I miss her, and because I really don’t want to lose more people. I don’t want to lose you.

Whether I know you or not, I care about you. Your life matters. No matter how dark it is right now, there is help. With all my heart, please hold on.
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Feb 21
Have you met Briane? She's a hardworking Canadian single mom who had her bank account frozen because she once gave $50 to the Convoy. Everybody's talking about her. She's the face of injustice and governmental overreach.

Except, people have a lot of questions about Briane.
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First, let's get some perspective: According to everything I can find, no more than 300 bank accounts in Canada have been frozen in relation to the convoy so far. While banks can use their discretion, government has said they're going after major sources of funding.
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Second, those who have combed through the leaked GiveSendGo data can't find a single Briane or even someone with "B" from Chilliwack. Good breakdown of the data here.
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Feb 20
Hi, can we talk about PTSD for a minute?

I've posted a couple of times about PSTD recently in terms of what's happening in Ottawa, and both times have received responses like "Ok, but it's not like folks are in a warzone."

PTSD is not a combat-specific disorder.
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To understand PTSD you have to understand trauma disorders.

Pretty much everyone will experience trauma in their lives, but not everyone will develop a disorder. It's hard to know who will and who won't. There are many factors and we don't understand them all.
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PTSD is one type of trauma disorder, but there are several. I have a complex trauma disorder from ongoing trauma in my childhood. But someone else can develop complex trauma in adulthood for other reasons. Similar symptoms, different situations and age of onset.
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Feb 20
According to the government yesterday, about 76 accounts have been frozen so far. I'm genuinely wondering why someone who gave $50 and participated in no other way would be frozen out like that. I might need to see some proof on this one.
First, if the bank did freeze this account because of one small donation a while back, that's NOT cool and shouldn't happen.

But do we know for sure why the account was frozen? Did the bank say that directly? Did she just assume that's why it was frozen and not, say, card fraud?
Also, I nerded out did math. 76 accounts with a total of 3.6 million dollars. If you were to divide that evenly by the number of accounts, they would each contain $47,468.42 (not that they're even.)

But it would be safe to assume they're going after people giving a lot of money.
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Feb 20
I've never gained followers this fast in my entire time on Twitter. So again, hello to everyone new! I hope you like trans people and mental health talk and breakdowns of complicated topics and dogs and homemade bagels and shirts/mugs I make out of the words of my trolls.
My wife and I have four kids. We live in a very boring house on a quiet street. I'm an author. She's a VP of engineering because she's a lot smarter than me (as I often tell her). This year we'll be celebrating our 25 year anniversary. I wrote a book about our life and love.
Coles notes: One of our kids came out as trans in 2014 at 11. My wife came out as a trans woman in 2015. I came out as nonbinary last year (sure took me long enough!) My work is largely centered around showing up for those you love and accepting them. It's not hard.
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Feb 19
I kept it together for 3 weeks+. I've been as calm & rational as possible. I've been called every name in the book as I've repeatedly explained what we're dealing with in Ottawa.

But the bomb threats to the hospital today? That broke me. How can people not see this is terrorism?
No, we don't know who made that threat. We can't say for sure that it's a person or group involved in the occupation. But the timing of it is highly suspect. An argument could be made that someone wants to divert police attention away from protestors at a critical time.
These past 23 days have wounded many citizens of Ottawa. They hurt our quiet city and changed its landscape in more ways than one. They will have lasting repercussions in how our city operates & who leads it. This is collective trauma. We will be healing from it for a long time.
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Feb 19
It’s so frustrating to see statements like this. “What the media is portraying” are stories beyond the hill. Down the road a few blocks. Into the neighbourhoods where folks can’t sleep. Talking to store owners who’ve had their staff threatened and homophobic slurs yelled at them.
Going to Ottawa three times doesn’t give you the full picture of what people are living through here.

Sharing media stories of straight, white, cis people who live downtown saying “well everyone has been nice to me” doesn’t paint the full picture either.
Saying “most people support the end of mandates” does not equate to “most people support what’s happening in Ottawa.” That number has fallen below 20% nationally because most people can see that what’s happening here is not protest, it’s occupation.
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