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This was another song full of anger and so much hurt. Lan Wangji muses inwardly as he takes his former boyfriend on the stage, singing as his husband stands at his side, clinging to his arm.

He deserved this embarrassment, though no names

were mentioned in the song. Because this was Wanyin singing, and Wanyin had always been honorable.

He knew his husband, Wei Ying, deserved it too.

Taking a silent peek at his older brother and the expression of adoration he gives to his soon-to-be husband, has Wangji tightly

clenching his fists at his side.

Wangji had always known he was the more selfish brother. He had wanted the ice cream and cake too.

He had wanted both the Jiang omega's as his.

'𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘵?'
'𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦?'

'𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴?
'𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘳'

Wangji feels his heart twist with deep regret in agony, as he recalls the hurt in those beautiful clematis-gray eyes as he caught him and Wei Ying together.

'𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦'
'𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬.'
'𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥.'

He recalls Wanyin's tears and screams that twisted through his eyes. How witnessing the

two of them together had destroyed something in his Wanyin's gentle soul.

Of the hurt, the deep impending betrayal he feels clawing in his chest as if trying to escape in a comprehending way he could accept, has him suffocating. The betrayal burns like lava throughout his body.

It takes root into the very marrow of his bones and settles itself next to the grief of a broken heart.

Wangji knows this is how Wanyin feels from the heavy expression he is showing.

Wanyin and him had been friends and lovers for so long that they could make out each others

naked body blind. Straight down to the last freckle. They could read each other like he and his elder brother could.

'𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦.'
'𝘖𝘩 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦.'

'𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦.'
'𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦.'

And there is a dark part of him, who wants Wanyin to return to him, even though he only feels a small sense of guilt for what he

has done.

Wangji had always known he was the selfish brother.

'𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵?'
'𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘮 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘴𝘵.'
'𝘖𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦.'

'𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘬𝘪𝘴𝘴, 𝘰𝘩 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥.'
'𝘪 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘵.'

Wangji ignores the urge to cough of blood when he witnesses them kissing. This is his retribution, He knows. His atonement for all

he has done.

Perhaps in another life, Wanyin and he will reconnect as lovers again and stay rooted together like branches to a tree.