Thread by @sqiouyilu

I only have headphones for politeness reasons; my preferred way of listening to music is feeling it through my feet—ahaha oh god, 16 years later I understand why I, a stubborn earth-element taurus & metal ram, gravitated so much to toph, esp bc she too was sheltered & disabled

ahahaha omg all the fic I wrote about toph was about inaccessibility and access intimacy 🤦🏻‍♀️ I have not changed

the reason why “being yourself so wholly there’s still a you no matter what form you hold” is such a strong theme in #InTheWatchfulCity is bc chronic mental illness makes you forget you’re a person under all that, that’s why I’ve been delighting in rediscovering my personality

setting aside physical form there’s the forms of masking, and for a long time I felt like a bland chameleon, I actually didn’t even realize anima (a self-insert) had a personality until I reread WATCHFUL a month ago, it’s just ær personality is very subtle & yin like mine, 溫馨

omg and now I’m remembering the first time I learned about Deaf culture was in elementary or middle school, I just remember there was a textbook passage on culture and mentioned Deaf people enjoying the physical vibratory nature of music and it was like a lightbulb for me!!

anyway if not for my curiosity about Deaf culture and about how blind people navigate the world—both experiences I don’t have—I don’t think I would be nearly as in tune with my own sensory perceptions

I remember writing a fic about toph trying to understand colors by asking katara to describe them and treating it as an oulipo exercise (before I knew the term) to have her consider what else might be that color, without using sight

fanfic!! as!! theory of mind!!!!!!!

anyway, my preferred way to enjoy a concert is to dress up, go by myself, put in earplugs rated for a high decibel level, then stand right by the subwoofer and quietly get assaulted by soundwaves. the 氣 of it all!! I am understanding the thing powering my secondary world!!