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#MamaJiuWeek2022 #liujiu
day 1 : unplanned pregnancy

shen jiu stared at the mirror, his eyes glistening with tears.

he hates crying because the way he grew up...it's always been a sign of weakness. and shen jiu is anything but weak. or that's what he wants people to think.

but at that moment, at 1 AM, in his right hand a pregnancy test and his left hand over his thumping heart, shen jiu is at a loss.

how did he–20 year old, independent, cautious and shrewd–end up getting knocked up?

shen jiu doesn't make mistakes but boy is this a blunder.

no, not the baby. the baby is far from a blunder. to shen jiu's 'cold', 'frozen' heart, this baby is a bundle of warmth. he can already feel his insides being warm and cosy just knowing the fact that there is a life growing inside him.

to shen jiu, the baby will be one person who will always be his.

(until they figure out how messy shen jiu actually is. and then if the child walks out, shen jiu thinks he'd actually di–no. too much, too soon)

so yeah, the baby is a blessing.

fhe blunder is the father.

one drunken mistake was all it took to get shen jiu knocked up. he'd been trying to hard to forget how much he'd enjoyed liu qingge's hazy focus just on him, the way those rough, calloused hands had held him,

how liu qingge had whispered sweet nothings as shen jiu had struggled to take all of him.

how liu qingge looked at him as if shen jiu was everything to him for that one moment before shen jiu scrunched his eyes shut so that he didn't delude himself.

liu qingge has always openly hated shen jiu. or at least always been bitchy (but shen jiu will be honest, it's always almost him who stirs up shit by saying something snarky, and liu qingge never backs down)

so yes, the baby is a result of hate sex (according to shen jiu).

he spends three sleepless nights thinking about how exactly he's going to break the news (he really doesn't wish to, but how long can a baby bump be hidden, really? he did the math, by the time the holidays begin, he'll be only 5 months pregnant. and when he has to come back, 7.

there is no way he can keep his pregnancy a secret.

so now, he has to devise a plan to reveal the pregnancy to two parties.

the father, liu qingge, obviously.

and then there's qi-g...no. yue qingyuan. the guy who has been relentless in his pursuits to let shen jiu know how sorry his ass is for leaving him stranded in that hell he calls their foster home for 5 years before shen jiu escaped.

shen jiu also suspects some of yue qingyuan's attempts to have something more with shen jiu and frankly....no. that ship has long sailed.

'thanks for the trust issues though, yue qingyuan', he thinks.

anyway, back to the matter in hand.

a baby. liu qingge's and his baby, to be specific.

"busy killing someone in your head?" he heard someone ask and shen jiu shook himself out of his thoughts and muttered something.

which was a very bad idea because only one thing has been playing on his mind and that's the fact that he's pregnant.

so he says 'pregnant'. to the certain someone.

who turns out to be the one and only contributor to his current state.

liu qingge stares back at him in shock and shen jiu suddenly feels tired.

he's 20, overworked and pregnant. and his baby daddy is an idiot so sue him for having no patience to beat around the bush.

"i'm pregnant."

liu qingge chokes on nothing.

"who the fuck knocked you up?!" liu qingge asks and gets up in what shen jiu thinks is righteous fury which is absurd. also something about what liu qingge just said doesn't sit well with him.

"what did you just say?! 'who the fuck knocked /me/ up'?!

"you don't think someone can knock /me/ up?"

"what? no! i meant, /who/ the fuck knocked you up? how dare they?"

well, that's interesting.

"it's you, you moron." shen jiu says before going back to his book as if he didn't just drop a bomb on liu qingge.

"w-what?!"

"i said, it was you, you moron."

"/i/ knocked you up?!?" liu qingge whisper-yelled and grabbed shen jiu's arm! his grip was so tight that shen jiu isn't even surprised that the aftermath of their drunk sex had lasted quite a while and that the marks took a week to fade.

"yes, you mo–"

"stop calling me a moron!"

"you are one!"

they are at an impasse.

"wait, but for the baby to be mine, we would have to...you know...?"

the look that shen jiu gives him would send any one with enough face scurrying away in embarrassment.

not liu qingge though.

"yes, i'm aware how babies are made, liu qingge." shen jiu scoffs and liu qingge keeps shaking his head.

"no! i mean yeah, you must know but that's not what i mean! when did we?! we've never! i'd know if we did....!"

'did' what?! the deed?!

wait what?!

"what the hell do you mean by 'we have never'?! of course we did! how the hell do i have your baby in me?"

"you tell me! when did we do it?!"

"that stupid party hosted by shang qinghua at mobei jun's where the two of them absconded to who-knew-where and the party turned chaotic and we ended up getting drunk and...?"

liu qingge's face visibly pales. shen jiu has never seen the athlete this pale.

"that was not a dream?"

"you dream of us doing it?!" shen jiu asks, angry, embarrassed and flushed and only a 'little' pleased.

"i-i...need to sit down." liu qingge says and shen jiu sighs.

"you're already sat."

"uh...alright. okay, so it wasn't a dream, we had sex and now you're pregnant?"

shen jiu shrugs, trying to look as nonchalant as possible but deep within he's terrified. he's terrified of what liu qingge's reaction might be.

what if he doesn't want the baby?

what if he wants the baby but will make shen jiu let go of them?

what if the liu family takes away his baby? or never acknowledges the baby? they come from old money after all. rich people do crazy shit.

"i...alright."

"alright." shen jiu deadpans.

"yes, alright."

"what the hell does 'alright' even mean?!" shen jiu snaps and liu qingge flinches just a little before placing his palm on shen jiu's. very hesitantly.

"alright meaning that i will support you. whatever you choose to do." liu qingge says with so much sincerity that shen jiu has no idea what to do about it.

they've always warred with words and it feels almost out of character for liu qingge to say...that.

"even if i choose to raise the baby?"

"yes."

wow.

"even if i give them my last name?"

shen jiu has never had anyone to call his, after all.

"yes."

the actual hell?

"even if–"

"whatever you choose to do. and...uh let me be with you. i can support you."

"i don't need your support!" shen jiu snaps, feeling seen all of a sudden. what is with liu qingge being nice all of a sudden? shen jiu only knows how to deal with a bratty one.

"alright."

"stop that!" shen jiu says, feeling even more like a skittish cat.

they visit the doctor together the next week and liu qingge has absolutely no knowledge of how babies and pregnancies work. shen jiu enjoys watching the guy listen to the doctor with horror.

the car ride back to shen jiu's apartment is a silent one.

liu qingge's knuckles are almost white with how tightly he's holding the steering wheel. shen jiu finds it mildly amusing.

"move in with me." is what he says when shen jiu is opening the door of the car to get out.

"what?!"

"let's move in together. i...will take care of you–"

"you don't think i can take care of myself?" shen jiu asks, slightly offended.

he really needs to learn how to not get so defensive. one day.

"no! i mean, that's not what i mean. i just...it was because of me you're like this–"

"pregnant." shen jiu interrupts.

"yes, pregnant. and i would feel much more at ease if i could take care of you and the baby."

that...moves shen jiu. when has anyone ever shown him care?

liu qingge might be doing this only for the baby but for shen jiu...for shen jiu it might be more.

maybe he can finally belong.

"alright." he whispers and gets out.

liu qingge's car stays on the road till the moment shen jiu switches on the lights of his living room.

they make it work somehow.

it's not a peaceful household, not with both of them and their explosive temperaments.

but there is never a dull moment in their house.

especially when the liu family drops by. the lot of them are too involved in the new baby shen that's about to arrive in a few months.

they were onboard with the baby's last name being shen. they were onboard with everything.

in fact, liu qingge's mother–shen jiu will never admit he actually likes her–had been ecstatic about her son finally finding someone. she conveniently overlooked the whole knocking someone up while in university thing.

how single and hopeless had liu qingge been?!

but now...now liu qingge is forever stuck with him because the way liu qingge looks at him and their baby a while after the delivery makes shen jiu think that maybe it's not just a temporary arrangement, after all.

maybe shen jiu will have more people to call his.

~the end~

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