Thread by @meliiimae

Well here I am…you all prob think im pulling a last ditch effort to go to SFO. Although I’d love to do that as this whole tour seemed to be run by my pure impulse & love for the boys, sadly I’m signing off from the #SB19 #WYATTour 🥲 @SB19Official

despite all the stress & anxiety, nothing has honestly made me feel so alive in recent memory. just like the boys have learned sm abt themselves in this tour - i have as well. It may all seem to be all fun & games but this tour was so so deeply personal to me

I’ve struggled so hard over the yrs trying to belong myself in circles where im never enough. but #SB19 came into the picture telling me that no one can label me but myself. The flag i raise is my own & in the end the only validation i need is from myself

ive said this so many times but the boys have reconnected me back to my culture something i didnt think was essential in rly being so secure abt myself. for yrs I’ve struggled with my identity as fil am bec im never filipino enough for filipinos or american enough for americans

In this fandom, i use being fil am as an advantage. ive learned i can be a connector - to help bridge the divide in #SB19’s wide & diverse fan demographic. And bec of this the friends ive made have become the most precious thing i truly could have gotten out of stan culture

I never regretted spending every second with them & wished i didnt sleep at all so i could have truly spent every single second. The bonds we’ve forged are unmatched & even tho we’ve separated & future is uncertain my heart is happy that these people will always be a part of me

i did what i did in this tour bec it’s the LEAST i could do to thank the boys @SB19Official for quite literally EVERYTHING. they’ve prob heard this so many times from fans but they all have played a part in SAVING ME. Idc if i have nothing left as long as they have everything 🫶🏼

To Ken esp, seeing him thrive against all odds as a BISDAK- im so proud bec his success feels so close to home. The resilience of the Bisaya people is personified in him & i hope he uses this as a propeller for more success. Langga naa ra mi diri. Padayon lang permi 🖤

i love you boys #SB19 so much. I’ll always be here supporting you. It’s been a crazy ass ride but i’d do it all over again & again & again. i can’t wait to one day go back home in 🇵🇭 bec the longing has been more real than ever. safe travels & I’m so proud of you 5. SLMT 🫶🏼