So I tweeted about my voice pain and my rib pain. I have one last chronic pain related to transition and it is intimate. Basically testosterone weakens and dries out your vaginas mucus membrane. I also had a total hysterectomy leaving an small incision scar in my vagina where my
cervix was when the surgery was performed. I am sure you can imagine where I am going with this and how it affects my sex life with my partner. I never really got to have a sex life with someone I am attracted too with a healthy vagina so I don't really know what I lost.
But I know I lost something. I am blessed to have an understanding and loving partner who loves me as I am.
None of my complications were covered in "informed consent". #detrans#posttrans
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I talked to my therapist about the chronic pain I live with post-transition. #Binding my breasts from 2015 to 2019 fucked up my ribs. I started crying when I talked about how when I am hugged too hard it hurts or if my nieces jump on my lap and they accidently press into my ribs.
How the chronic pain I live with from breast binding affects my relationships and quality of life. For the first year I wore a binder I bought a handmade one I wore occasionally on @Etsy and than I had #G2CBbinder that I wore daily to work. My breast amputation in 2019 did
Improve my quality of life. The true cause was no longer wearing a binder. All the benefits of so called top surgery were explained by no longer wearing the constrictive garment and having a flat chest.
The real questions should be: Why do young females feel alienated from their
I am a suicide survivor and it's weird to think people would have said it was due to transphobia not the complex mental health issues I have. I survived and can explain what led me to that attempt. Its so important not to give simplistic answers to why people end their lives
I got a second chance to live and tell my story, to love and be loved, to actually heal. I have not felt suicidal since DBT but I do have the thoughts. My brain created and reinforced pathways that ending my life would end my suffering. If I went through DBT
first I would have never transitioned. I obviously can't prove it but I started feeling reverse dysphoria and regret a few months into DBT as i was becoming more connected with my body and inner self. When trans ided I viewed my body as my flesh prison.
Damn trying to find a therapist as a detransitioner is literally HELL. I am ready to just curl up and cry. Every god damn therapist now has something like Trans Ally in their profile to score woke points when that just makes me nervous they are going to victim blame me for
the trauma I went through. IDEK what to do at this point. It seems like there is help for people like me in Europe but Canada the water is more murky with the Conversion Therapy law being as vague as it is. (I am in touch with Genspect dont worry)
It is just such a fucking trap: we are told transition or die, than if you end up with regret and need support, the same people who tore your body apart just flip it around like you are the problem. I am tired of being told I am "actually nonbinary" or "I must not have real
I am very grateful @JustinTrudeau for the conversion therapy ban, as a lesbian. As a detransitioner, no therapist will want to touch me with a 10ft pole. When has conversion therapy been done on the basis of gender identity. I am only aware of this torture being done to same sex
Attracted people. Including gender identity in this bill harms many dysphoric people who have been and will be harmed by transition. Gender affirming care pushes us to medicalisation, claiming suicide is the other option. @marcusevanspsyc@sueevansprotect wrote an amazing book
Gender Dysphoria: a therapeutic Model. It shares one potential pathway to allow kids to receive compassionate care that they watch out for signs transition may be wrong for the patient and give them quality therapy without an agenda.