ok all, from now on my color matches with paint names are gonna go in the tag #TheAutumnGraceCollection, “autumn grace” being of course an extremely HGTV-worthy translation of my chinese name that makes this all sound very boutique décor
#TheAutumnGraceCollection 0107 KB, Chaparral Jade, a muted green-gray, evoking rolling hills of coastal sagebrush on an overcast day
#TheAutumnGraceCollection 0109 KB, Gentle Fawn, a muted greige with a hint of warmth to it, reminiscent of the soft fur of a baby deer
by the way, these are real paint colors that you can totally buy (though the color swatch on a screen is only an approximation). the codes reference my formulas for them #TheAutumnGraceCollection
#TheAutumnGraceCollection 0104 KB, Damascus Steel, an elegant gray with just a touch of warmth, reflecting the craft and artistry of west asian forged blades
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DEEP IN THE FOREST
a rich, vivid, emerald green, so dark as to appear almost black, evoking the shadows cast by dense growths of pines
a welcoming creamy yellow, like heavy paper with a tooth that brushes against your fingertips just long enough to leave you scented with the perfume of old books
a lot of people define cuisines by what they see in restaurants, but another way I like to understand people’s food heritages is “what food would your mom make for you when she’s sooooooo so tired, but still has to feed her kids?” (or whoever did most of the caretaking)
that question indexes Staple
other questions I like (change terms as appropriate):
• what food would your mom make for you if you’re sick? (indexes Bland)
• what food would your mom make for you when she’s just feeling so happy to see her kid? (usually indexes Fancy/Effort)
my answers are:
(1) when my mom is sooooo tired: instant noodle with egg cracked in and whatever veggie is in fridge
(2) when I'm sick: congee
(3) when she's so happy to see me: sweet & sour spare ribs (糖醋排骨) (usually takes at least a couple hours for sauce to render)
sometimes I wonder if PCOS isn’t more widely considered an intersex condition because that would make being intersex even more common and people would have to reckon with that
with PCOS it’s less nonconsensual medical interventions like surgery, but there is a common experience of medical neglect due to ideas of how a uterus should function wrt gender (i.e., be fertile only)
there’s also bodily autonomy denied bc people are deemed too young or inexperienced to know they want sterilization, and misinformation about how your own body is supposed to work and what’s normal or not normal
the idea of “last wilderness” is inherently colonial
ever defining a frontier
when there is a frontier, there is a place to seize more space
also like how can the ocean be earth’s last wilderness when there’s so much terrestrial wilderness and people die in it all the time _because_ there’s no one else around
western medicine is just beginning to recognize that inflammation exists and gut health is a foundation of all health, and meanwhile thousands of years of chinese medicine are like “to reduce fire in your body, eat cool foods”
me ben affleck smoking at the pain of trying to eat more cool foods and cut down on stuff that 上火
pissed off that people think guasha is some twee shit but hey at least it means I was able to get cultural tools from ross for $5 that are effective for self-massage
my navel hangs a full 4 inches lower when I don’t focus on pulling in my core and straightening my back. that’s an 18° increase in spine curvature, if I did my trigonometry correctly
corsets improved my pain but apparently my spinal curve is so severe that that’s probably what *actually* snapped steel, TWICE
people were always like “noooo you can’t wear a brace all the time it’ll weaken your muscles” and now I’m reading “people with lordosis often need a brace for 20 hours a day”
ughhhhhhhhhh using physics and chemistry knowledge to think about bodies and how low air pressure precedes storms and also worsens inflammation because your body has more room to expand and put pressure on joints
let me be a taut high-pressure meatskin blood balloon with properly elastic joints
we’re like 60% water and I guess when a storm is coming we are wilted sad little floppy stems and after water comes down to rehydrate we are turgid blood blooms. makes sense