It hurts me to say it but I feel so out of the loop, so unconcerned by anything related to 875. I’m barely hyped or endeared by anything anymore, I’ve lost interest in everything. I don’t feel concerned by their love. Their message don’t reach me anymore.
I’ve been in depression almost half of my life and I’ll be 29 this year. That’s a lot of years dealing with it. But since I’m in the fandom, it’s the first time they can’t help me.
Those who follow me noticed I’m not really on twt anymore since the tour announcement and,
as much as I’m very affected that I cannot attend, it just has been a trigger. Beside of that, I’ve been dealing with personal issues. As some of you might know, I’ve lost my big sister almost 7 years ago and judicially, it’s still not over. I’m not in peace with that,