Thread by @D13F0RY00U

#joongdok
cw: stalker, dead dove, obsession

dokja dragged himself to the kitchen. it's another exhausting day at the office. yanking his tie off, he went straight to the fridge for a bottle of cold water.

his eyes darted on the sticky note on the fridge.

https://twitter.com/iguessomebody/status/1665751101834948608

[ you look so tired today, i wish i could take care of you. ]

dokja would have smiled if the message was from a roommate or a boyfriend but the thing was dokja was single and he lives alone for 3 years now.

and it also started to bother how desensitized he had been to the notes

admittedly when he first saw the notes 5 months ago, he nearly had a heart attack. dokja tried to stay calmed and messaged his friends to stop pulling his leg.

all of them just voiced their concerns and sooyoung even visited the next day to nag at the admin to change his locks.

dokja probably had changed his locks more than ten times since then. he only stopped when the building admin was starting to really hate his guts.

after that, he just accepted that this was his reality that for some goddamn reason there's a stranger that can go in and out of —

— place.

sometimes, for his peace of mind, he sleeps with a knife under his pillow and double lock his room's door.

pulling his phone, he took a photo of the note. he had been documenting it and sadly he had an album filled with those sticky notes from his stalker.

pulling the notes, he added it on the drawer next to the fridge together with other discarded notes. the drawer was nearly full and the thought made dokja sick so he ignored it.

he just went to grab his water as planned and went to his room not without a knife with him.

dokja managed to sleep. he was over the days he couldn't get a wink of sleep because of his stalker.

he woke up a bit late but manage to arrive in the office one time. when he got there, sangah happily went to his desk, showing him a new merch he bought of his favorite actor.

sangah continuously raved about yoo joonghyuk while dokja listened and looked and flipped through the photo book she got.

dokja was not interested about the actor before but as sangah continuously tell stories and shows videos about the actor, slowly dokja got invested.

there was even a time where dokja filed a leave just so he can line up in one of joonghyuk's fan sign event just because sangah was on a business trip and begged him to go in her stead.

to say dokja was speechless seeing joonghyuk in person was the understatement of the year.

"he has a new movie coming!" sangah nearly shrieked. "and i think this is the best role he ever had!"

usually joonghyuk was casted in a lot of action movies where he played as a soldier, cop, or undercover agent. it suits him a lot and dokja would admit he looked cool on them.

"and guess what?" sangah moved closer. "he's playing as a psychopath and a stalker!" she had always been open with how she loved reading fanfiction of yoo joonghyuk as a psychopath and a stalker.

"that's new," dokja reacted. he let out a hum and imagined joonghyuk as one.

it wasn't really hard to imagine yoo joonghyuk as a psychopath and a stalker, the actor has an intimidating aura after all.

dokja snorted, "i mean, if you find out that your stalker is that handsome wouldn't you be okay with it?"

sangah giggled with him, "i mean..."

dokja laughed softly. "well, it's scary but also, sir..." they both ended up snorting that turned into low laughter. they would have continued their conversation however sangah had to go back to her desk and finish her tasks.

left alone, dokja began to do his work as well.

at lunch, dokja watched the trailer of joonghyuk's new movie and was surprised with how dark his role was.

dokja admittedly got scared but also enamored by his charisma.

"you're watching it!" sangah happily said. "play it again, let's watch together."

giving in to his friend's request, they hunched close and watched the trailer.

"god, that's so hot," sangah muttered as they showed joonghyuk smirking, face stained with splatter of blood.

dokja snorted, "friendly reminder that he's evil here."

"he's still hot though."

dokja doesn't have any rebuttals for that because well... as sangah said yoo joonghyuk was hot.

after talking and gushing more about joonghyuk, sangah turned to dokja, "by the way... uhm, remember my friend?"

"friend?"

"dionysus..."

"ah, the foreigner?"

"yes!"

with furrowed brows dokja replied, "i thought he's already out of the country?"

"he decided to stay for a month more."

"oh, that's nice."

"well," sangah fidgeted. "uh, he's asking if you're free this weekend."

dokja blinked several times. "h-huh?"

"ahh, dokja!" sangah whined

"what?"

"he wanted to go on a date with you, he's asking me to set him up with you!" sangah said, clearly embarrassed.

it took seconds before dokja replied. "but... why?"

"because he likes you!" sangah almost rolled her eyes.

"me? is he going nuts?"

sangah let out a sigh.

an exasperated one, "dokja, as much as i adore your obliviousness but you gotta know that you are handsome and people are attracted to you! even i had a crush on you before!" sangah quickly followed up. "but not anymore okay?"

dokja let out an awkward laugh.

it was always hard to believe whenever someone says they like him. dokja always acted like it was impossible even when he literally has a stalker.

"what do you think?" sangah asked, hoping. "you're single right? one date won't hurt plus you'll never really know..."

if dokja was being honest he's really not looking for a relationship right now but with sangah looking at him like that dokja couldn't help but agree.

"just warn him that my heart belongs to yoo joonghyuk," dokja playfully joked as sangah laughed at his little antic.

when the day was over, dokja went home while researching about joonghyuk's new movie when he stumbled upon the actors latest interview.

host: we saw the new trailer of your movie, congratulations!

yjh: thank you.

host: it's a little intense isn't it.

yjh: it is.

dokja was focused on joonghyuk all through out the interview.

yjh: i kind of understand. that kind of love.

dokja couldn't take his eyes off joonghyuk. it was like every word that came out of his lips had a grip on dokja.

yjh: i guess because that's how i love.

yjh: too much. overwhelming. obsessive.

host, laughing: oh, that's a bit scary.

yjh, smiling: it is. probably that's why i am still single.

dokja somehow could feel butterflies in his stomach. he didn't think he was this invested to yoo joonghyuk.

yjh: my love is too much.

dokja couldn't even remember how he got of the train and walk back to his apartment. his head was empty and just filled with yoo joonghyuk and what he said in the interview.

and he wondered... he deeply wondered how would it feel like to be loved like that.

when he opened the door of his apartment it was filled with white and red roses, his walls were plastered with stolen photos of him. some were even when he was sleeping.

dokja was quick to leave the place, closing the door behind him as his heart was thundering in his chest.

he weakly fell on his knees. leaning weakly against his door.

what a joke, he was wondering how it will feel to be loved like that when in reality, he knew he couldn't handle it.

dokja let out a weak laugh, raking his hair with his fingers. he didn't notice how much he was —

— shaking.

fuck, sooyoung was also currently on a business trip. dokja contemplated if he should go to a hotel or pc room and just sleep there.

after nearly an hour of just sitting outside, he stood up and entered his place while taking a video of everything.

luckily, no one was inside his apartment as he began cleaning everything and dumping everything to the trash.

when he got back he was twice exhausted as he slumped on the sofa.

"stop it," he spoke loud purposely. "stop whatever the fuck you are doing. it's not funny."

he was talking as if the stalker was with him. he hoped whoever the stalker was can hear him.

"you heard me?! stop it!" it was like his strings snapped. "stop whatever the fuck you are doing?! if you think i'll like it, i will never like it! so fucking stop! i am so tired!"

somehow dokja managed to have shallow sleep. hand under his pillow, ready to pull his knife out whenever.

the next day, when dokja got home and was ready to change the locks of his door even without telling the admin, his house was empty.

there was no sticky note on his fridge

for the coming days, no notes were left on his fridge, nothing was left in his apartment.

when weekends came, he had a nice date with dionysus which ended up with dokja being honest that he wasn't looking for a relationship and the only thing he could offer was friendship.

dionysus took it like a gentleman and dokja was thankful for that until he heard from sangah that the guy was mugged by someone and had to stay in the hospital for almost three weeks.

dokja went to visit him with sangah but dionysus refused to see him not telling his reasons.

dokja tried not to dwell with the whole thing. tried not to let it get into him but when sangah announced she was being transferred to another branch, dokja couldn't help but feel sad.

sangah promised to contact him and even promised to watch joonghyuk's latest movie together.

when sangah left and with sooyoung still on her business trip, dokja didn't notice how lonely he was. his other friends were always so busy with their own life.

he even began missing the sticky notes on his fridge which was crazy.

not having anything to do, dokja —

— spiral down into yoo joonghyuk's fandom. without noticing it he began to watch all his movies, his drama, his interviews. he even created a twitter account just to follow on the lastest news about the actor.

and he started buying merch and magazines that feature him.

all his attention and time went to yoo joonghyuk.

when the premier of joonghyuk's movie was getting close, dokja messaged sangah to ask what their plan was. dokja doesn't really mind going to where sangah was assigned but no matter how much he messaged or call sangah —

— dokja got no response.

none at all. it was as if sangah and him became stranger. when he tried to contact her again the next day, dokja found out that sangah blocked him from everywhere.

dokja tried so hard not to be affected by it but he could only ignore it so much.

without anyone to talk to as sooyoung also became swamped with works and had to stay out of the country for two months, dokja felt alone.

it wasn't supposed to be a new thing but when you tasted how it was to have someone with you, you became aware of loneliness.

dokja looked at his calendar as tonight was the premiere of joonghyuk's new movie. he almost tried to message sangah again but managed to stop himself.

he was about to leave for work when his eyes darted on the silver door of the fridge.

it had been sometime since he saw —

— a sticky note on it.

it was unwelcomed but dokja saw it everyday for almost 4 months.

maybe he was too lonely that he found his body moving on its on as he began searching a sticky note on his working table.

finding one, he grabbed a pen and wrote a note.

[ do you want to watch a movie with me? ]

dokja felt stupid but he peeled the note off from the pad and plastered it on the fridge door before leaving for work.

that day, work was quiet and boring but time seemed slow and sometimes almost like it wasn't moving.

he managed to get home early. he was too tired to deal with anything that he called for a taxi even when he had to pay an arm for the fare.

when he got home, he was on an autopilot, yanking his tie off as he entered his room to change that's when he saw someone there.

dokja took a step backward as he saw yoo joonghyuk staring at his own poster that was hanged on dokja's wall.

"i can sign this if you want," joonghyuk nonchalantly offered.

no words could make it out dokja's lips. he was too stun to speak, to react or move.

millions of questions were running through his mind.

what is yoo joonghyuk doing there?

why is he in dokja's room?

was he really yoo joonghyuk?

was this real?

dokja could only feel a giant lump stuck in his throat and it grew bigger from every question he couldn't say.

joonghyuk moved closer to him, pulling him into a hug, placing his hand at the back of his head. he pressed dokja against his chest.

dokja flinched feeling joonghyuk land a kiss on top of his head. "work must have been exhausting. welcome home, baby."

dread ate all over him, sinking its way deep into his bones. joonghyuk pulled away. acting like this was normal. like him and dokja knew each other all their lives.

pulling something out of his pocket, dokja stared at the sticky note between joonghyuk's fingers.

"shall we go?" joonghyuk asked with a smile. dokja stared at his own handwriting mocking him.

[ do you want to watch a movie with me? ]

"i prepared the perfect suit for you, dokja." joonghyuk added as he pushed dokja's old coat off him and began unbuttoning his shirt.

— end

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this was supposed to be 10 tweets hdnskoabshsn

anyway, i love stalker yoo joonghyuk lol

also, i like writing celebrities stalking their fans lmao