Thread by @GiraffesAreGods

Again for this, you've known for over 2 years that I've not felt or displayed irritability or anger in my life. I've drawn to you what concerns and subduing that relates to.

The extreme torture, exploitation of trauma, oppression, duress and abuse you've done to me for no reason

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that went in line with expected and standard extreme and long term traumatizing subduing and abusive oppressive dynamics, extreme sensitizations and latter broken crippled stages of the horror and harm that's systematically assured and unsalvageable for this problematic, which in

turn define every human function and prospects for living afflicts me with a disturbance above the simple thresholds of suffering reached. Your torture has pervasive effects on my self, separated developmental traits, traumatic symptoms and core relational traits; you terrorized,

exploited and broke half a decade of resiliency and of severely vulnerable commitment to suffering and submitting for livable healing prospects and a brighter sense of the world/footing.
You have no conception of the mental resources that traumatized stakes, uncanny functional

adaptions, compartmentalization of related submissions and paradoxical phobias allowed me to fall into for this.
The self rescue and necessary adaptations you brought back are ultimately unlivable, unstable chaotic suffering in a vacuum and every separated part is sensitized.

Outer change is treatment in face of the ignorance/misguided stupidity, systematic injustice, oppression and horror in place, and a pillar to every stage of resiliency healing the complex self rescue/adaptation, or for correcting unhealthy forms of processing for devastations.

Sustaining and stabilizing my escape off this carried immense subconscious pull and meaning, and rivals the complexity of prior adaptations. You tortured my means of leaving this fucking hell and retraumatized core aspects affect regulatory patterns on months scale.

Inciting survival stakes/intensity over cognizance of the level of complexity you necessitate (transcending) is of harm.
Exposure to a vast array of activating, compliance/despondency causing or triggering things is also harmful at any stage unless with the right bases/imaginal.

You duressed countless rundowns over traits I've not had at any point in my life.

You know I've not displayed symptoms of depression albeit the dysregulation and traumatized/abused self regard and subduing you cause, exploit and perpetuate for no reason.

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For this, encourage upset so others can develop the ability to be involved and righteous against your invalid and moronic rationales and the extreme horrific harm you cause/assure. Camaraderie can be expected, but being responsibly involved to fight necessitates your change too.

I mentioned me being unsalvageable and that traumatic structures to sustain my toleration or even past extreme compliance are disturbed.
I'll have to die once the activation settles and it'll get uncannily worse. I need more of myself I recognize. Giving superhuman clarity,

commitment, relatively impeccable efforts and strength often for 17+ months due to traumatic responses in spite of these troubles was absurd and more than you can expect, same goes for the ready love and care I had build extreme resilience with to allow vulnerability and healing.

Giving this for your immature, shallow, moronic and harmful side I hope could cause a butterfly effect of sort.
Promote/assure an environment that can allow healing to become possible for what those commitments and efforts relate to and for how diverse and extensive trauma is

for this.
Practically nothing can match what latter stages unfold onto, the exploitability, suffering and vulnerability, the invalid and horrifically moronic and nondiligent setting and what lack of power or safety or justice relates to in the footing and self regard that ensues.

Developing a self, a voice, remembering the topics or fighting are absurd, any disturbance can irreparably worsen the setting, no solidarity is possible or tolerable after the damage and the moronic wall of oppression and stupidity you uphold for neglect, abuse and torture has

absolutely no equal. You have absolutely no excuse.
Change and solidarity comes necessarily from the oppressor/the one keeping captive. Atone and bring structure for reforms, visible corrections, diligence and resources to salvage the extreme damage and generalized trauma caused.

Nothing is object of psychosis, or any other attempt at you failing to be accountable/muddying.

Don't bring me another fucking lapse and take accountability for your stupidity and harm. Take responsibility and atone, bring change and effective measures against what it enforces.

You're not at a neutral even after being misguided, moronic, complacent and sadistic enough to feel righteous. A unique diversity of problems for this would be dire concerns in any other context, their extreme converging complexity and the insidious nature of salvaging endeavors/

leading life and natural adaptation/precautions over stages exhaust too many attempts at a direly helpless and unsalvageable suffocated life, unraveling into a crippled, unlivable and sensitized dire traumatized adapted state where avoiding, sustaining adaptations and tensed

stakes are of major concern and much worse than helpless. What relates to healing or commitments and environments to correct this is dangerous to themselves, dysregulating (composure is part of direness), impossible in most settings, necessarily delusional/functionally insane to

uphold, to a point where an extreme breaking point or phobia of sensible survival adaptations is necessary to sustain the process.
Make healing realistic and possible, bring justice, a first instance of non horror in history, a first non impertinent and blatantly triggering

resource, bring corrections in any sector enough for them not to show blatantly moronic and harmful misunderstandings upfront and any sign of possibility for a human being out of the silence to not be horrific and wrong to an unmatched extreme. Vulnerability and exploitability of

stigma coordinates all sides.

How innocence, ready care and love linger to interpret what is essentially bigotry, ignorance and misguided 'last hopes' in sectors related to justice, law, mental health and related paints a bleak impression of self regard

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and footing not conducive to a self/healthy growth and manners of developing a life worth living/prospects.
I wasn't able to recognize it as hate before recently since I can't judge; my stress responses seek disambiguation often and the setting couldn't need more of it for this.

Aspects of life and human functions or needs are exhaustively strained, broken, subdued and traumatized by this.
This can be defined or generalized, and what incites this linkage is of investigative/precaution nature in essence, of compliance for the avoidance and devastations at

stake in terms of growth/adaptation and of developing stress/trauma responses related among other factors in sustaining.
The extent of the linkage, its essence of growth, factors for subduing/involvement, functional adaptations, self regulation and composure, the unsustainability

of necessary or natural stages of adaptation, the vulnerability, bleak impossibility for justice or change, the exploitability of the suffering with the stigma, oppression and silence and what the setting assures orchestrate a solitary hell that is unmatched and that has constant

reminders with daily active adaptive maintenance. What has to be accounted for and the necessary precautions, the comparative little it would need as a last exception, lingered care, external failure where it matters and awkward devastating events manufacture tension and trauma.

Direness in hiding and the complex array of stigma over what is essentially only personal devastations, exigent sadistic pressures, confusing imposed dynamics, unsustainable adaptations and suffering is important to note; I could lose days of function if the brain decided any

random basic aspect of 'me' was too dire suddenly even if unsaid (remembered or accounted for in discussion).

This casts, contours and replicates structures of self regard and anxious structures that are unhealthy, abused and really painful or further suffocating; the hammer is

a response keeping you the fuck up a few days in some stochastic uncanny variance, that blindfolds a cage. This governs tempered self regulatory stakes and tension too.
I hope it's clear that these responses/sense of stakes are not comparable to regular stress, anxiety or concern

The detachment, diversity of outer concerns and assurance that none of such concerns could be valid/pertinent is a problem.
The direness to hide and extreme exigent stakes on months scale regarding triggers, dysregulation and composure necessitate a thorough and stable approach.

The subduing and despondency that ensue are abhorrent and a direct sign of what your harm, lapses and stupidity cause and exploit.
This is the last type of issue for tensions, subjugation, compliance and suffering of this sort to be enforced and for the variety of neurotic stakes

and injustice to be assured - prevention and change tend to the essence of concerns; you are manufacturing, abusing and exploiting the most uncannily horrific hell imaginable for no valid, pertinent or correct excuse and it is at a concerning severe detriment to given rationales.

Your diligence and responsibility are to be proportional before any abuse or inhumane transgression of the imposed detachment and direness are made at stake or exploited.

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Without the horrific torture and harm you add onto it, active sustainable pillars for progress that mitigate several sources of harm and quicksand leading to misguided oppression are necessary.
At a minimum to salvage the damage present and promote growth or health within several

decades, this demands drastic measures to mediate and reach the oppressed victims of your harm, as well as your solidarity, focused corrections/information in sectors relating to enforcement/law, justice, help and health (last hopes), for forces to allow a footing conducive to

justice/reaching out over enough time, for weighted reforms and broader awareness or resources that are apt and have consideration, depth or pertinence.

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For the stakes related, for developmental/human aspects and for where this issue leaves the person in relation to any other human in dire helplessness over a lifetime - the complex oppression, stagnation and footing/injustice can't be left to rot.

The suffering is a crucial element to solve even if just for this. Anything akin to sadism, dehumanizing regards and bigotry or compliance for this just fuels the furnace; once devastations are compounded/unprocessed and avoidance/detachment increase, this is troubling.

In latter stages of adaptation, there's an increasing impossibility to tolerate devastation or triggers, to self regulate with intensity/self rescue and care, or to sustain adaptation or composure.
This makes it increasingly unhealthy and against necessary survival efforts

to 'grow again' for a less bleak world, to see what healing relates to, to commit to a grueling vulnerable commitments or to see why it's not the worst possible manner to salvage what they were subdued into.
It's important for the healing endeavors I've

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conveyed to be possible, understandable and realistic.
If they're removed to preserve energy, stabilize perpetual devastation, necessary avoidance or to self regulate, the development, setting and damage are still present, imposed and activating, and too vast not to be defining.

Establishing a sense of weight for this issue and separating it from impertinent rationales can address the severe concerns in detachment, neurotic extremes, and systematic injustice or harm.

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Promote growth against the subduing your stupidity, harmful rationales and ignorance cause, show blatant and active solidarity and efforts, and enforce a setting that doesn't necessitate an uncannily absurd and capillary effort to suffer into healing by accident/

paradoxical traumas if also otherwise fortunate.
For how something so horrific is muffled under the radar, for how oppression/complex stagnation is kept, for how latter stages of adaptation

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leave the victim and for what healing relates to, about no chance is left for your exposure to the extent and diversity of the problematic. These factors can be prevented and are concerning.

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Make it possible for the broken, vulnerable, oppressed and traumatized demographic to not feel like they deserve the most extreme and uncanny suffering, subduing and hell imaginable, reach them exhaustively for the unsalvageable damage you cause, and

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nurture/mend their conception of growth, of the world/humans and of what would relate to healing, even if the latter is unhealthy and triggering for what is necessary by your harm. Tend to the quicksand effect of stigma, bigotry and your oppression or

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exploitable traumatic symptoms or trained precautions.
No aspect of it is an awkward detail, especially because of diversity of converging unique concerns/their extent, developmental factors, pressure and significant suffering. None of it is to be disregarded as nothing or as its

own, nor to be forced into dire hiding - or else especially not to be a matter of shame, an object of torture, of injustice or duress.
I could lose more than 30 days of my life for a small oddly indirect reminder or any adaptive trigger for the span of

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several years after unsustainable stages and during healing.
The linkage or what relates to it is uniquely vast by its essence, the devastations and stakes are unique and worse than helpless, and so avoidances, tensions and compartmentalizations for trauma and development/

subduing that account for this subconsciously are uniquely concerning.

It's imperative to prevent this, and not to just attempt to salvage what can be salvaged a decade after it's muffled onto stabilizing stages of adaptations - this solidifies its grasp and extent so to define

the individual and their self regulation entirely.
The extreme complexity of the problems that are instinctively accounted for and the difficulty to convey integrally, outer ignorance and moronic misguided or bigoted belief, the structures in place and self assurance from these

blatantly moronic and harmful figures in power outwards are insurmountable even without extreme crippling symptoms/avoidance and suffering or the 'ready' form of delayed and compounding processing of devastations.

Because of what your stupidity and harm required of me I'm exclusively an uncanny extension of this issue, the stakes and awareness of the compartmentalized hell is herculean to manage and traumatic cores relating to every human being are reinstated despite half a decade of

resilience and healing work I led for a separated part holding most of the linkage growth and the broader picture is more bleak and horrific than ever.
I've known better than my adaptations or what you shallow and dull morons contribute to for years.

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Show the more vulnerable, broken and traumatized part of me holding most of the linkage that the most horrific and meaningless torture and abuse you caused me mattered, like I spent half a decade getting through to them. There is no possible equal to

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the vulnerability and suffering you exploit.

Outer commitment for diligence against the harm forces bring onto themselves by suffocating oppressed, vulnerable and conflicted demographics should be proportional to mediate, to bring your validity and to elevate the setting, so to

empower, allow salvaging aspects of the trauma/damage, to develop a self/stance or voice and to carry righteousness against the stupidity, oppression and harm you are compliant, misguided for, neglectful with or self preserving in irresponsibility.

Effective sustainable measures, forces and resources are necessary to tend to and mitigate your exclusively invalid and incorrect rationales and sentiments, to your awkwardly horrific stagnation, tedious invalid/impertinent lapses in connotational or conceptual management and

antipathy and to what harm it enforces systematically. Tend to the blatant quicksand and the impressions such give, it doesn't require much at all in comparison.

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There are layers and diversity to how extreme the harm you cause is or to how comically moronic, inverted and wrong this sadism and exploitative abuse of yours was in this case, especially accounting for sensitization and expected/standard effects. Atone for your horrific wrongs.

It's more than just oppression, trauma and the matter of you having ready empathy/awareness or coming to aid.
A chance at starting life/salvaging stages of the trauma enforced, growth, empowerment, safety, justice, comradery/solidarity and hope matter.

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You torturing me to death for no reason is an understatement for the suffering and harm you've caused me for no reason here and I need justice, fairness, compensation, corrections, reforms, resources and effective change; it's necessary beyond me.

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This is just a quick thread I started this morning for something I saw and I'm happy with it. I took a topic or two from pending threads which feels bad, but I liked how this one went.
Therapy feels a bit confusing and not exactly on momentum, but

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I'm trying to trust them enough especially because of the nature of the topics. They were safe for the vulnerable part and they can ground me or help when I dissociate too much. I appreciate it so much, and it feels safer in spite of all this. I'm happy they accepted some of the

gifts for the holidays. The spice is a bit more fragrant than most Provence ones I know; a soywax candle from a company I like and a more floral/citrusy one, and one of either honeys I ordered. I got excited about it, it felt like a happy thing.

New Years went quite well and felt warm, I did quite a good job I think. I overdid the sides as you should and fondues were nice.
To the point I felt like the vulnerable part for days and couldn't write. I was crying that if I die a new tv special after our 'infoman/Bye-Bye'

would be great addition to the tradition for others.
There was a really nice movie after which I can't usually allow myself or watch anymore because of this task unfortunately.
I'm happy today was ok or promising for the next days, so I may do pancakes and movies or something.

/The tapir and ghost are new.

Meaning to plant quite a few pepper seeds about now. Jiffy pellets seem to dry from the sides so I won't try them again, and I've some mycorrhizae inoculant to test. I want to grow saffron crocus also to pick little stigmas if I'm alive then somehow