Thread by @TeslaTTS

[1/x] Trigger warning: R*pe, sexual assault

I want to tell some of my story. I feel inauthentic as I am often hiding behind things that could destroy my reputation. I have carried a lot of shame. But I'd rather tell it than have other people tell it for me if anything happens.

[2/x] I was sexually abused. I was raped. Multiple times.I was groomed as a teen. I was physically bullied since I was 10. nearly killed when I was 13 when someone tried to asphyxiate me. I could list things but this isn't a competition. I have cPTSD. I also have ASD and ADHD

[3/x] Trauma has made me confused, its eroded my self worth, it has made me feel fear. Waking up 7 times at night from sleep paralysis.I have made bad decisions. I have trusted people I shouldn't have trusted. I have ignored red flags. It seems I am on a path of self destruction

[4/x] And most people don't see that. they see a high achieving student, who writes papers, works as a research assistant, completing two degrees. But that is not the true me. I struggle every single day.

[5/x] I make bad decisions. I have done bad things. Like driving with a suspended license. I am posting this because I feel like I am hiding my struggles, and I want to show people that not everyone is as they appear.

[6/x] And I realised today that the reason I will make a good doctor is not because I am clinically equipped, but because all these experiences, all the mistakes I have made will help me understand vulnerable patients who have been through the same. Thankyou.

[7/7] I keep asking "why is this happening to me and no one else" and she said "there are many people who go through this. But they dont become doctors. Theyre not in medical school." I have come very far, and I am glad that I am still trying. Thank you.

[8/8] Yes there are plenty of other things I have done that would make you think "Oh Anna is a deliquent", but lets not list this on a public platform where there can be repercussions. What Im trying to say is that, I'm not the "bubbly Anna" everyone seems to think I am.

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