these are my words and parts only.
but like that's why this is new, and fresh, and i feel...free. and safe. finally.
the caretaking is something that actually helps me in a poly situation.
because i love being a caregiver for people i love.
i have tried...i mean...i really wanted to be non hierarchical. and...like...nature is what it is, and someone cough cough is, you know...kinda primary-ing. for me. but i'm guessing she's figured that out by now
and i never thought i'd ever say that in a healthy way
and D/s and s/m playing into it would make it feel more complicated, you would think...but ultimately it doesn't.
and it's probably why i shifted away from a non-hierarchical preconception to one where there'd be by default a primary. because as much as i love and trust all my partners...
and there's no way around that.
and this is what inspired be to rip all that apart and rework it for here...
and i think the core of it is this...
her Dom is always with her...if not in presence, then in mind and spirit. like me, T/they have distance involved.
that each action i perform i perform for Her.
that each goal is one step closer to Her.
and i am my own person. i am independent, i am strong in my own way, i am intelligent and mindful and willful.
and that does not contradict being Hers wholly.
and it makes me love Her all the more.
always and forever.
just as She wishes to learn to be a better Domme for me and her other subs.
and that's what love is.
a constant desire to be better for each other.
love, and love well, and be loved well in return.