let me give you a soundtrack for it, k?
way back when, but later than that, my family got a nes.
shocker: i spent most of my time playing legend of zelda.
one of them was the original final fantasy.
final fantasy upended that with more creativity, more depth, and more variety than i expected.
i was awestruck.
to the point that i considered 'losing' the game cart.
it was a bummer.
but i rented it every time i could.
a few years later, we got an snes.
and i discovered that there was a game for it called final fantasy iii.
i was...i had a holy mission.
so i started searching. calling game stores. an ever widening radius.
no one had it.
no one could get it either.
most people would give up.
i was not most people.
in another state.
one single copy.
which they wouldn't put a hold on for me.
and i had no credit card, nor would they take an order over the phone.
so i made a logical choice.
i got in the car and drove two plus hours for it that day.
i didn't care.
i got my copy.
and all was right with the world.
for one, we had a playstation.
and i was able to keep up on things.
so i soon had ff vii...which was different, but neat. and i played it some.
i played it more on pc...and i have yet to beat it because...
(but i have it on pc now and i will beat it)
ff viii was...not my game. my ex loved it. so i watched a lot. i just never got into it, and i kinda figured...
and maybe ff was not really my cuppa anymore.
then final fantasy ix came out.
and it was everything i loved about the first one and the third one (which turned out to be 6 ofc)...
and the setting.
and the story.
and i was, once again, hooked through the nose.
i played hundreds of hours on it. much like the other two i keep coming back to.
it was just...a wonderful escape.
but x-2? whole nother can of beans.
ofc by this time i was mostly through figuring out and accepting things, but...the whole game was FUN.
wanted to be her so bad.
so yeah, i played it a LOT, which led to a lot of ridicule from someone because 'why do you want to play as a girl all the time?'
i tried to deal, but it was tough, you know.
i never got 12, sadly...at that point things irl were turning into a real mess...
(and even if i could, i know the money i'd have put aside would have been taken for someone to take a 'business trip' out of state. quotes intentional)
so there was a decent...many years in there i was out of touch with the series, tho i read about it all the time.
i have vi again, even if the port sprites are...redone.
and i have vii, and am awaiting the remake as well.
@ConfusedSwitch got me viii
almost all the missing games...missing to me...are on my wishlist...
iv the after years
the xiii series
then this morning i discovered there was an anime made for the game, which went into character back story.
i figured i owed it to myself to at least watch.
an hour later, and 4 bouts of tears...
i added it to the list.
they introduced me to deeper crpgs, ones closer to what i was used to on tabletop.
they broke my heart dozens of times (aerith, the midpoint of vi, vivi just to name a few).
they game me escape into other worlds, where i could forget my hurt for a while and just...be someone else...an avatar of who i wished to be, maybe.
your potted history of julie's life with final fantasy.
thanks for reading.
have some more music.
shantih shantih shantih