When you turn 18, a glowing mark appears on your wrist, this exact mark also appears on the wrist of the one whom you're bound to be with.
But one day, the glow of the mark on Jeonghan's wrist faded into pitch black.
His soulmate died.
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He was curious why his parents had a glowing rose marked on their wrists. His eyes always trailed to it, silently wanting to know what was it and why they had it.
He was seven years old when he found out about soulmates.
"Mama," Jeonghan stared at his mom, wide eyes filled with curiousity as he pointed at her wrist. "What is that?"
"This," She said as she showed him her left wrist. "is the proof of mama and papa's love for each other, hannie."
Jeonghan titled his head and continued to stare at his mom with curiosity and wonder.
Jeonghan's mom chuckled as she cupped his chubby face and lightly squeezed his fluffy cheeks.
"Of course we do, baby." She smiled. "You'll get one too in the future, hannie."
"A different one?"
"Yes, hannie. A glowing mark only for you and your soulmate."
"Only for us?"
"Yes, baby. Only for you and for someone whom you will love and treasure for the rest of your life."
"I don't know, hannie." She chuckled. "You'll see it soon."
"Then why is yours and papa's mark a rose?"
"It's something only soulmates can understand, baby."
"But what if I don't meet mine, mama?"
His mom smiled at the endless questions.
"Forever. He will love and cherish you just as much as you will love and cherish him."
His mom smiled & pressed a kiss on his forehead before standing up & walking away.
Jeonghan was seven years old when he fell in love with the idea of soulmates.
He prayed for his soulmate's health and happiness until they meet in the future.
At Busan, he met a small quiet kid and a cute friendly kid.
Lee Jihoon and Wen Junhui.
The three of them immediately became friends.
"I love it." Jeonghan answered. "It illuminates light in the dark. That's why I ask the moon to watch over my soulmate until fate lets us meet."
Jeonghan smiled and nodded his head. "The one who will love and cherish you for the rest of your life. You'll be together forever. That's what mama said."
"We'll get glowing marks on our wrists when we turn 18, right?" Jun happily asked.
"It's all up to fate!" Jun giggled.
Jeonghan nodded his head and turned to look at the moon. "That's why I ask the moon to look over my soulmate while I still can't."
"Me too!" Jun excitedly said as he lined up with Jeonghan and Jihoon.
"Moon-ssi, please watch over our soulmates!"
Jeonghan was nine years old when he met his best friends.
His day wasn't the best and he decided to take another route home to clear his mind when he heard the sound of the waves and the smell of the sea. He followed it until he found himself standing on a cliff.
Jeonghan sat down and inhaled the smell of the sea as he was left alone to his thoughts until sunset.
It was already night when he looked up and smiled to himself when he saw nothing blocked the view of the moon.
"Please continue watching over my soulmate." He whispered. "To my soulmate, I hope you're happy and well, I promise I will make you a thousand times happier when we meet. My heart is beating for you and you alone."
The three of them were having a sleepover to wait until the clock hits 12am and look at Jihoon's mark, congratulate him and greet him a happy birthday.
And when it did, Jihoon's wrist emitted light.
Like before, they were huddled up on bed as they eagerly waited for the clock to strike midnight.
After a few hours, Jun's right wrist glowed and Jeonghan couldn't help but scream from the excitement.
He was beyond happy.
Jeonghan knew it didn't mean he'll meet his soulmate right away. But getting his glowing mark is one step closer to his soulmate.
He will be one step closer to him.
"Oh my god! Guess what—" Jeonghan excitedly started but the two cut him off.
"We know!" They said in unison.
"It's October 3rd and you'll turn 18 tomorrow." Jun said.
"And you'll get your glowing mark after waiting for all these years." Jihoon continued.
"Oh my god, I know!" Jeonghan exclaimed.
"Oh my god, we know too." Jun smiled as he rolled his eyes.
"I can't help it!" Jeonghan squealed. "I'm finally turning 18!"
"A few more hours." Jun smiled. "Wait a bit more."
"Sleepover tonight! 7pm!" Jeonghan told them.
"I'll just grab my things and head to your house." Jun spoke.
"Me too." Jihoon agreed.
"I'll just pass by somewhere!" Jeonghan spoke and started to run as he looked back.
"Where?" Jun asked in confusion.
"Just, somewhere!" Jeonghan shouted back as he waved his hand. "See you tonight! Don't be late or I won't feed you!"
His own happy place.
He stood ontop of the cliff, panting hard as he tried to catch his breath. He inhaled the smell of the sea and let the warmth of the sun touch his skin. He smiled to himself and sat on the ground.
"I'll turn 18 in a few hours. I'll be one step closer to you, my destiny. Wait for me. I'll wait for you for as long as fate needs. I'll see you soon."
Jihoon stiffled a laugh as he moved closer to Jeonghan and Jun.
"Oh god, we're one minute away from October 4, oh my god i'm ready but not yet ready too bu—"
"Hannie, shut up and relax." Jun laughed.
Jeonghan stared intently at his wrists and swallowed non-stop.
Jun laughed at Jeonghan's contorted expression.
Jihoon hit Jun with a pillow and hushed him.
Jeonghan bit his lip in anticipation.
His heart was gonna burst.
Jeonghan stopped breathing.
He gripped his knuckles so tight it turned white.
Jeonghan's left wrist emmitted bright light and left a familiar mark on him.
When he had bad days, the light emmiting from his wrist never failed to remind him that everything will be okay.
It was their first year at uni and they were running late for the orientation.
"I told you having a sleepover before the 1st day of uni was a bad idea!" Jun groaned as they ran inside the large university.
"Let's just hurry." Jihoon spoke as he pulled the two towards the place they need to be at.
The three of them stood in front of the auditorium, panting hard as they catched their breath.
"Not to mention we have to enter the auditorium filled with people, as if we're telling them we're late and proud." Jun sighed.
"Let's just go inside and get this over with." Jihoon spoke in a nonchalant tone.
The auditorium was dimmed as a group was dancing on stage.
"What are they doing?" Jeonghan whispered.
"They're probably introducing the clubs to the freshmen." Jun whispered back. "Right, Jihoon?"
"Jihoon?" Jun called as he turned his head to look at what Jihoon was staring at.
"Oh my fucking god." Jeonghan shakily whispered in shock.
Suddenly, the boy jumped off the stage and ran at the center aisle in Jihoon's direction.
Everyone else went silent as they watched, knowing what was happening.
Everything else went blurry except for the boy who was running straight towards him. He couldn't hear anything except the deafening thumps of his own heart.
Until his heart, soul and whole being spoke.
He was running towards his destiny.
Jihoon tried to wipe the endless tears away and swallow the huge lump on his throat as he choked on a sob with each step they took closer to each other.
He couldn't help but let out a sob when he was enveloped in a warm hug within these arms that felt like home.
Indeed, he was home.
"Hello, I'm Kwon Soonyoung and I believe I am yours."
Jihoon smiled widely.
"Hello, Kwon Soonyoung. Indeed you are mine."
His heart, mind, and soul was at peace.
"I found you."
Jihoon pulled his face away from embarrassment but held Soonyoung's hand tightly as he flushed red.
Soonyoung just laughed and shouted a "thank you" to the cheering crowd.
"I know." Jun answered, not taking his eyes off of the two.
"I wonder when will we meet." Jeonghan quietly whispered to himself as his eyes trailed down to his own glowing mark.
School was about to resume from winter break when Jun came back from China.
And he wasn't alone.
He came back holding hands with someone who looked like a model and dressed like one.
"Wha—" He breathed out.
"Aren't you gonna introduce him?" Jihoon smiled at Jun knowingly.
"Hannie, Jihoonie, Soonyoung. I'd like you to meet Xu Minghao." Jun smiled widely. "My soulmate."
Jeonghan choked on air.
"Sorry, hannie. I found mine before you found yours." Jun laughed as he put an arm around Minghao.
"W-Why," Jeonghan wailed as he pouted and stared at the two pairs of soulmate.
"That's just fate, Jeonghannie."
"But how did— what even— when did you—," Jeonghan rambled on while pointing to Jun and Minghao. "HOW?"
Minghao chuckled and smiled at Jun.
"I mean, I knew number 8 was a lucky number in China but I didn't think my mark actually meant number 8." Jun lightly laughed.
"Yep." Jun said, popping the 'p'. "You know that cliché airport scene every love story has? It felt exactly like that."
Jun smiled gently as he laced his fingers with Minghao's.
Jun cracked open a fortune cookie as the plane was landing on Seoul.
'It takes one to love the 8.'
"What?" Jun mumbled as he stared at the piece of paper in his hand and ate the cookie.
Jun shoved the paper in his pocket as he felt the plane come to a stop.
Everything else was normal except for the fact that he kept seeing number 8.
On tv screens, baggage number, time, even the announcer announced something on speakers mentioning a number 8.
"Ah so which number 8 should I love?" He whispered, chuckling to himself as he remembered the fortune cookie.
But his laugh stopped the moment he laid his eyes on one boy.
Everything else was irrelevant when your destiny was standing a few meters away from you.
The next thing Jun knew was, he let go of his baggage and dashed forward to him. To his soulmate.
Everything else was in slow motion.
The boy let his own baggage fall to the ground as he began to ran towards Jun to meet him mid-way.
They ran towards their destiny.
"You might be the 8 but you're the one for me." Jun whispered making the boy lightly laugh as he hugged Jun tighter.
Jun closed his eyes and hugged Minghao tighter. Their warmth mixing as their breathing and heartbeat became in synch. He inhaled deeply, smiling to himself.
- end of flashback -
"So you both looked like a married couple who just saw each other after many years?" Jihoon asked, raising his eyebrows. "Reunited at the airport and all."
"Like in the movies?" Jeonghan asked teasingly, siding with Jihoon against Jun.
Jihoon opened his mouth, about to say something back at Jun but Soonyoung beat him to it.
Soonyoung wrapped his arms around Jihoon who tried to push him away.
"Jihoonie is my adorable baby."
"Shut up." Jihoon murmured but his whole face was bright red.
Jun looked at Minghao & softly smiled.
"Someone that was meant only for you."
Jihoon smiled & finally gave in, letting Soonyoung hug him.
'When? When will I see you? When will I meet you? When will I get to hold you? When will I get to tell you I love you? When will you come home to me?'
Jeonghan waved goodbye to Jihoon and Soonyoung, who went to their own destination, as well as to Jun and Minghao.
Jeonghan silently began walking towards his destination. His happy place.
He breathed in and out as he tried to get rid of the pain in his chest and the lump in his throat.
But it was useless though, he could feel the sting in his eyes.
But still, Jeonghan couldn't help but let the tears escape from his eyes as he hugged his knees tighter and bit his lip harder.
Under the moonlight, Jeonghan relaxed. He lifted up his tear-stained face, closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
He lived through each day with the glow mark as his source of strength and prayed to the moon every night for his soulmate's well-being and happiness.
He was doing fine.
Atleast before October 4th.
He smiled to himself as the ocean breeze hit his skin and inhaled the smell of the sea as he listened to the sound of the waves.
He looked up at the bright moon above him and closed his eyes.
Jeonghan expected for him to wake up on his birthday to a beautiful morning as the sunlight touches his skin.
Then at night, he would've went to the cliff and have some peaceful time alone to talk to the moon and his soulmate.
Jeonghan expected that.
Two years since Jeonghan turned 18.
Two years since he got his glowing mark.
Two years since he got one step closer to him.
And twenty years since Jeonghan waited for his soulmate.
On this exact day, fate took Jeonghan's moonlight.
His eyes widened as his mouth parted when his eyes laid on his left wrist where his glowing mark was.
Except it wasn't glowing anymore.
"N-No," Jeonghan whispered as unknown tears endlessly started to fall down his face. "No, no, no, no."
Jeonghan gripped his wrist tight and stared intently at the black mark.
Jeonghan swallowed hard, trying to ignore the huge lump on his throat.
"Please tell me this isn't real." Jeonghan whispered to no one as tears streamed down his face.
"Someone, please. Please wake me up."
"No." Jeonghan choked out as he began to breakdown, tears messily streaming down his blood-shot eyes. "P-Please no no no no."
He bit down on his lip and tried to muffle his sobs but it was no use. He hugged his wrist close to him, tears falling non-stop as he had a hard time breathing.
With vision blurred by tears and shaky hands, he bit his lip, dialed Jun and waited for him to answer.
"Hannie, it's 4am in the morning, I know it's your birthday, we'll see each other later."
"Hannie?" Jun called, sounding more awake. "Jeonghannie, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
Jeonghan took deep breaths and tried to swallow the huge lump on his throat.
"What?" Jun spoke completely shocked.
Jeonghan's sobs only got louder in response, confirming what happened.
"I'm on my way, Hannie." Jun spoke before ending the call, leaving Jeonghan alone.
He had a bad feeling, he needed to get to Jeonghan's side as fast as he can.
"Jeonghannie, I'm here. I'm here." Jun whispered. "Breathe, hannie."
"Hannie, please breathe." Jun whispered as he held a broken Jeonghan tighter, running his hand up and down his back.
"I-It hurts." Jeonghan sobbed.
"Fuck, what hurts?" Jun asked, worry and pain evident in his voice.
"E-Everything hurts." Jeonghan brokenly sobbed as endless tears continued to stream down his face. "I-It hurts, so so bad."
"H-Hurts." Jeonghan sobbed onto Jun's shoulder. "J-Junnie, it hurts."
"M-Make it stop." Jeonghan sobbed hard. "Please m-make it stop, it h-hurts so much."
"Hannie." Jun whispered, his voice breaking.
Jeonghan just sobbed louder and harder but was muffled as he pressed and hid his face on Jun's shoulder, inevitably continuing to helplessly break.
Yoon Jeonghan's birthday.
Also the day when the moon's light diminished into pure darkness.
The day when the moonlight dimmed and lost its light.
The day Jeonghan's one and only light disappeared.
On October 4th, fate betrayed them.
Yoon Jeonghan's soulmate died.
"Shit." Jihoon cussed as he silently prayed for Jeonghan's current state.
"Fuck." He breathed out.
"Jihoonie?" Jun softly called out as he gently sat up, untangled himself from Jeonghan and quietly got out of the bed.
"Let's talk outside. Jeonghan exhausted himself from crying too much, it would be better if he stays asleep so he won't feel the pain." Jun quietly whispered as they both looked at Jeonghan's worn-out state.
The moment the door closed, Jihoon faced Jun, who wasn't looking any better than Jeonghan. He didn't even need to ask why or what happened. He could perfectly tell from what he saw.
But still, he asked.
"No." Jihoon whispered, stepping forward & hugged Jun. "You don't have to answer."
Jihoon broke the hug and looked down, feeling his chest tighten.
"I don't know." He quietly whispered. "I don't fucking know."
"We're here for him." Jihoon reassured. "We're here for Hannie. I know that won't make up for the loss of his soulmate— fuck, but we are here for him."
Jun shakily breathed in and out before nodding his head.
Jun nodded and followed Jihoon out of the house.
"Yeah, I'll also tell Minghao and Soonyoung that the plans are cancelled."
"Please do, we'll just explain when we see each other."
They tried their best to do everything quickly in order to get back to Jeonghan as fast as they could despite the fact that it was snowing and they were freezing.
Jihoon looked back at Jun, who bit his lip and stared at Jeonghan with a pained expression.
Jihoon slowly made his way to the bed and sat in front of Jeonghan.
Jeonghan continued looking down at his left wrist, not moving or uttering a single word.
"Hannie." Jihoon tried again.
Jeonghan murmured something in response but it was too soft and low to hear.
Jihoon felt a pang in his chest. Jeonghan's voice was calm but so fucking fragile. Every word he spoke was filled with pain. Unbearable pain.
Fuck, it was too painful to listen to.
"Jihoonie." Jeonghan softly called as he lifted his face up, revealing his blood-shot eyes, tear-stained cheeks and exhausted expression. "What am I supposed to do now?"
"W-What am I supposed to do with my life now?" Jeonghan choked out as his voice broke and as new tears streamed down his face.
Jihoon didn't know what to answer.
What was Jeonghan supposed to do?
Jihoon didn't know the answer. Nor did Jun. No one did.
So instead, Jihoon wrapped his arms around Jeonghan and held him tight.
But when Jihoon and Jun woke up, Jeonghan wasn't there. Jeonghan wasn't anywhere in the house.
"Fuck, where is he? It's snowing so hard outside and he left his phone." Jun cussed.
Of course they wouldn't because who would've expected Jeonghan was standing on the edge of a cliff.
He wasn't properly dressed and it was fucking cold but Jeonghan couldn't feel that. He could only feel the excruating pain coming from his heart.
His blood-shot eyes stared at the moon as the moonlight shined on his tear-stained face. He opened his mouth and only asked one thing,
"I said I would wait for you. I would wait for you to cross the oceans and travel the land just to reach me." Jeonghan whispered as the loud crashing of the waves answered him.
Jeonghan dropped his hand as a tear fell down on his freezing skin.
He looked up to the bright moon that was shining down on him as warm tears streamed down his ice-cold face.
He couldn't feel anything but the unbearable pain in his heart.
"Tell me, how can I live in a world where you don't exist?"
"Fuck, fuck, FUCK." Jun cussed as he paced back and forth in frustration.
Jihoon could feel his head throb as he swallowed a lump in his throat that formed as his mind thought of various scenarios.
Jihoon and Jun were so close to losing their sanity.
'Where is Jeonghan?'
Jun and Jihoon immediately ran towards Jeonghan, who looked drained.
"JEONGHAN!" Jun shouted as he frantically cupped Jeonghan's face and he almost hissed from the coldness. "Fuck, you're freezing!"
"Jeonghan! What the fuck were you thinking!?" Jun exploded in frustration.
"You went out barely dressed in this fucking weather!? Where have you been— fuck, you could've gotten hypothermia! Jeonghan, do you have any fucking idea how dangerous it was!?"
"Jeonghan!" Jun desperately called out. "Something could've happened to you. You could've gotten into an accident!"
Jun was about to speak again when Jeonghan suddenly answered back. And it wasn't the answer Jun and Jihoon were hoping for.
"That would've been better." Jeonghan softly whispered, not lifting his gaze up to meet his bestfriend's eyes.
"I should've followed my destiny." Jeonghan spoke as he looked up to Jun and Jihoon. "Even if it meant jumping off a fucking cliff."
"Jeonghan, what the fuck are you saying?"
"THEN WHAT DO YOU FUCKING WANT ME TO DO!?" He shouted as he stood up and gritted his teeth in anger. "DO YOU EXPECT ME TO LIVE LIFE AS IF NOTHING HAS CHANGED? AS IF MY SOULMATE DIDN'T DIE? I'VE WAITED FOR 20 FUCKING YEARS AND I COULD'VE WAITED MORE."
"MY SOULMATE FUCKING DIED ON MY BIRTHDAY." Jeonghan bitterly laughed. "HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME."
"WHAT HURTS? MY HEART? MY BODY? MY MIND? MY SOUL? EVEN I CAN'T FUCKING TELL. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH THIS HURTS?EVERYTHING HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH, DYING WOULD BE BETTER."
"Jeonghannie, don't cry." Jun whispered, his own breaking as tears fell down his face. "Please."
Jeonghan didn't even know he was crying until Jihoon walked to them and wiped the tears streaming down his face.
Jeonghan lost his soulmate. His other half, his everything, his destiny. There was no one waiting for him anymore, no one to love & cherish him, to cross the land & the ocean for him, no one to spend his life with.
Jeonghan was 20 years old when his soulmate died.
Jihoon wrapped his arms around the two and squuezed them tight.
"We are so proud of you, Jeonghannie."
Jeonghan could only nod as he sobbed quietly.
"I don't know, he probably just went out to buy something since it is his birthday in a few hours." Jihoon answered as he sat down next to Soonyoung. "Let's just wait for him to come back."
"Fuck, Jihoon we have to look for him." Jun cussed.
"Calm down, Jun." Jihoon stated.
Jihoon said that but he, himself, was worried as fuck for Jeonghan. He said that to Jun but it was more like for himself.
"Jihoon, it's almost 11pm! Fuck, its happening again, we have to–" Jun deeply inhaled. "We need to go. Now."
Jihoon took a deep breath and ran his hand through his hair, emotions piling up.
"Jihoonie, baby." Soonyoung softly whispered. "It's okay. Everything will be okay."
"Calm down, baby." Soonyoung soothed, holding him tight. "I'm here."
Jihoon relaxed under Soonyoung's touch. He pulled away and intertwined their fingers as he nodded his head.
"O-Okay." Jihoon breathed out. "I'll text Jun to keep each other updated."
"That's my Jihoonie." Soonyoung smiled.
They both went outside to look for Jeonghan in the freezing winter night.
"Fuck." Jun breathed out in frustration.
They spent a lot of time outside in that freezing weather but they couldn't find Jeonghan.
"Where is he, this can't be fucking happeneing again." Jun spoke as he covered his face with his hands, emotions building up.
Minghao and Soonyoung remained silent, own minds and hearts clouded with worry and uneasiness.
"I-I'll try to call him again." Jihoon said.
His eyes widened, his mouth parted and he could feel his chest tightening making it hard for him to breathe.
"F-Fuck." Jihoon barely whispered out.
"What?" Jun whipped his head to Jihoon.
"Jihoon, what?" Jun asked as he quickly walked towards him.
Jun took the phone in his hand and looked at what Jihoon was staring at.
"No." Jun whispered. "Fuck, fuck, FUCK– NO."
Jeonghan was where he used to always be at. He was back in the place he didn't go to for a year. He was where the view of the bright big moon was clear, where the waves and the sea comfort him. He was at his happy place. Or what used to be his happy place.
But he couldn't care less.
He looked up to the moon shining brightly above him as snow fell and bathed his skin in moonlight.
Jeonghan averted his gaze and checked the time on his phone. 11:56PM.
"I'll be with you soon." He softly whispered and smiled as he looked at his left wrist. "Four minutes left."
He took a deep breath and inhaled the winter breeze and smell of the ocean.
He bit down on his lip hard as tears streamed down endlessly, quietly sobbing to himself.
He looked down at the dark ocean down below him, waves crashing ferociously.
He did it. He endured and surived for a year. He's proud of himself. But he can't anymore. Jeonghan was tired. In this world, your soulmate is your everything.
"I have no more reason to live."
Happy Birthday Yoon Jeonghan
Jeonghan whipped his head in shock to the voice who suddenly spoke.
There, a boy with pale skin stood, round eyes intently staring at him.
Jeonghan stayed frozen on spot, staring back at the boy in shock and confusion.
"Wha– Why are you crying?" He asked, completely taken aback.
Jeonghan smiled, exhaustion evident on his face.
"It's because the moon is so beautiful."
Jeonghan was completely taken aback when the stranger's hand touched his skin.
It was warm. So warm.
Jeonghan stood dumbfounded as a stranger scolded him in the middle of a winter night on a cliff.
The stranger was so warm.
"You're freezing!" He hissed as his palm made contact on Jeonghan's skin.
'You're so warm.'
"W-Who–" Jeonghan stuttered out. "Who are you?"
"Seungcheol. Choi Seungcheol."
Seungcheol nodded his head and opened his mouth to say something but it was cut off with his phone ringing.
"Ah, wait." He said pulling his hands away from Jeonghan's face and answering his phone.
Once the phone call was over, Seungcheol turned to Jeonghan.
"I have to go."
Jeonghan was about to take off the coat but Seungcheol shook his head & smiled.
"Keep it, I have a feeling we'll see each other again."
"Make sure you go home." Seungcheol said as he began to walk.
"Take care, moon boy!" Seungcheol smiled and waved one last time before running off, leaving Jeonghan.
"M-Moon boy?" Jeonghan whispered to himself, still confused at what just happened.
Jeonghan found himself staring at the moon and clutching the coat tighter around him before slowly walking off the cliff. He remained silent but nonetheless made his way back to his house, the warmth still lingering.
"J-JEONGHAN!" Jun ran and basically threw himself to Jeonghan as he hugged him tightly, crying hard as he did.
Jeonghan was taken aback.
Minghao stared at him wide-eyed and mouth parted, tears brimming in his eyes.
Soonyoung immediately had his arms wrapped around his soulmate but he stared at Jeonghan in relief.
"W-Where the fuck have you been?" Jun asked as he pulled away from the hug and wiped his tears away. "We've been searching for you for hours!"
"I-I was just taking a walk outside and thinking."
"Fuck." He whispered in relief. "Don't scare us like that. Please."
"I'm sorry, I just–, what are you doing here?"
"But you were the one who surprised us." Soonyoung lightly joked.
"Oh god, I am so sorry." Jeonghan apologized as he looked at all of them.
"It's okay." He whispered. "As long as you're okay."
Jeonghan could feel his eyes watering and a lump forming in his throat as he hugged Jihoon back.
"I love you, guys." He gave a watery smile. "Now, let's celebrate!"
Jihoon turned the lights off before laying down next to Soonyoung who immediately wrapped his arms around Jihoon, spooning him and holding him close.
Soonyoung laughed but Jihoon shouted, "Hannie!" turning bright red from Jeonghan's comment. Thank god, it was dark.
"Oh my god, just go to sleep!" Jun laughed, pulling Minghao closer.
All of them mumbled their goodnights and drifted off to sleep. Well, all of them except Jeonghan. He listened to his friends peaceful breathings and laid there on bed, wide awake as his mind wandered and stopped on one thing.
Jeonghan was 21 years old when he met Choi Seungcheol.
"Hannie," Jun called as they walked out of uni. "Should we hangout for the rest of the day?"
"Why?" Jun asked. "Do you have different plans?"
Jeonghan slowly shook his head and answered, "No. I'm free until evening. My parents are coming back from their trip today."
Jeonghan smiled and nodded.
"Does that mean you have something to do this evening?" Jihoon asked. "Are you going out or what?"
"Uh," Jeonghan uttered. "Just something."
"Let's go!" Jeonghan shouted as they made their way to his house.
They spent the whole day playing, having fun and lazing around even when Jeonghan's parents returned.
"Yah, Hannie." Jun called out. "I know you're excited for whatever you'll do tonight but can you please stop checking the time literally when a second just passed."
"Why are you even so excited?" Jihoon asked, confused. "What will you do later?"
"I told you!" Jeonghan evaded. "Just something important."
That's why a few hours later, the moment his friends left, he dashed out of the house.
Jeonghan didn't know why he was doing this, he didn't know why he wanted to see Seungcheol.
After a tiring run, Jeonghan finally heard the sound of the waves crashing & the smell of the ocean. He eagerly made his way to the cliff, out of breath while his stomach flipped from excitement & nervousness.
Jeonghan stood there as he tried to catch his breath. His eyes wandered around the surrondings in hopes of sighting a certain boy he met here 20 hours ago but unfortunately, he was all alone on the cliff.
He sighed and slowly made his way to sit down on the edge of the cliff. He swang his legs, hanging hundreds of feet above the ocean & leaned back, bare hands dipping into the thin layer of white snow as he looked at the moon above.
His mind was occupied as he thought of everything that happened in his 21 years of existence. All the good times, the bad times, the hardships, his bestfriends, their soulmates, his moonlight, his destiny.
He believed in fate, he believed in destiny.
"Why?" He silently whispered to the winter breeze, asking fate for an answer as he stared at the moon, deep in his thought.
Suddenly, a voice spoke from behind him.
He quickly looked back.
"I told you that's dangerous!"
"Did you hear me?" He asked, looking at a frozen Jeonghan. "Why do you keep doing that?"
Seungcheol waited for an answer but Jeonghan didn't utter a single word.
But Jeonghan remained still, lost in his thought.
Seungcheol reached out his hand & touched Jeonghan's cheek.
"W-Wha–" Jeonghan breathed out, breaking out of his trance from the warmth of Seungcheol's hand.
"I-I," Jeonghan uttered, completely lost for words.
"What are you doing here in the middle of the night?" Seungcheol asked, softly staring at Jeonghan.
"Huh?" Jeonghan answered.
Seungcheol stared at him & raised his eyebrows.
"Oh." Jeonghan breathed out, making Seungcheol lightly chuckle.
"Are you okay, moon boy?" He smiled, dimples showing.
"What are you even doing here, sitting on the edge of a cliff at 11PM in the middle of winter?" Seungcheol asked, not breaking eye contact.
Jeonghan blinked a few times before answering.
"Touché." Seungcheol lightly laughed.
"So?" Jeonghan stared at Seungcheol waiting for an answer. "What are you doing here on top of a cliff at 11PM in the middle of winter?"
"No fair, I asked you first." Seungcheol argued.
Jeonghan broke the eye contact & looked away.
"Nothing." Jeonghan started. "I just– I'm always here. Well, I was always here, I just went back here last night after some time."
"Why?" Seungcheol stared at him. "Is it because of the moon?"
"Yeah." Jeonghan answered. "Because of the beautiful bright moon, I was drawn back here after a year."
"A year?" Seungcheol asked.
Jeonghan hummed in response.
Seungcheol lightly chuckled as Jeonghan turned to look at him.
"Now tell me, what were you doing here last night?"
Seungcheol just softly smiled at Jeonghan.
"It's because there might be a boy crying alone on his birthday."
"W-What." Jeonghan stuttered out in shock, eyes widening. "What are you–"
Jeonghan stared at Seungcheol wide-eyed, mouth parted. He was completely lost, confused and shocked.
"What– How did you even– What?" Jeonghan stuttered out.
Seungcheol only smiled wider at Jeonghan, his dimples showing.
"Make sure you get home safely." He smiled. "Happy Birthday, moon boy!"
Seungcheol began to walk off but Jeonghan quickly scurried to stand up on his feet.
"Wait!" He shouted making Seungcheol stop.
"Who knows." Seungcheol smiled. "I guess you have to come back here to find out."
Seungcheol waved one last time, "Take care, moon boy!" before walking off, completely leaving Jeonghan alone on the cliff with mised feelings.
"What," Jeonghan exhaled.
"What the fuck just happened?" He breathed out to the winter breeze as he turned around and slowly looked up to the moon.
Today was fucking weird. He was set on following his soulmate but someone just appeared on time to stop him. He was supposed to be alone at his happy place which only he knew about but someone found him.
Choi Seungcheol found him.
Sitting on the edge of a cliff, ready to fall; his warmth pulled him back.
And maybe Jeonghan's animosity towards this place & his birthday started to lessen; maybe it was because of someone named Seungcheol.
'What is he? Who is he? How did he find me? How does he know me? And my birthday? Where did he even come from? When will I see him again? Why?'
That's why the moment his last class ended, he immediately dashed out of the classroom, eagerly wanting to go to the cliff.
"Hannie!" Jun shouted as all of them chased after him. "Why the hell are you in a hurry?"
Jeonghan stopped in his tracks.
"What?" Jun pouted. "And I wanted to hangout today!"
Jun turned to Jihoon and whined, "Jihoonie! Tell Jeonghannie to hang out with us!"
"Uh," Jihoon uttered, looking guilty. "I have something to do today too."
"Sorry, Junnie! I'll hangout with you tomorrow maybe!" Jeonghan lightly laughed and began to run away, waving. "See you tomorrow!"
"I guess Soonyoung and I will go too." Jihoon guiltily smiled. "Sorry, Junnie."
Jun put his arm around Minghao, who was giggling, and pulled him closer while glaring at Jihoon and Soonyoung.
"We'll hangout when I'm free, I promise!" Jihoon laughed. "Bye, you two!"
Meanwhile, Jeonghan was nearing his destination as he ran at full speed, cheeks flushing pink from the cold. He was excited to see Seungcheol, eager to get answers from him.
He checked the time on his phone. 5:17PM.
Jeonghan sighed and sat down on the snowy ground.
"I guess it's still too early." He whispered to the wind. "Maybe. Probably."
What the fuck?
Jeonghan slowly opened his eyes and was greeted by the sight of Seungcheol and the moon.
"Wha–" Jeonghan mumbled half-awake.
Jeonghan gently sat up, slowly blinking his eyes as he yawned and stretched out his arms.
"You know, I'm glad to see you not sitting on the edge of the cliff." Seungcheol began.
Jeonghan just stared at Seungcheol, not yet fully awake.
"What time is it?" He quietly mumbled.
"Past 10PM." Seungcheol sighed.
"Oh," Jeonghan breathed out. "I've been sleeping for 5 hours."
Jeonghan blinked a few times before realising he had another coat on his lap. And that coat certainly wasn't his.
"Why didn't you wake me up? You could've just woken me up instead of letting me sleep on your lap and giving me your coat."
Jeonghan lightly blushed pink, looking away from Seungcheol.
"I was just," He mumbled but couldn't continue.
'It was because of you.'
"Oh? So that's why you fell asleep on top of a cliff when it's winter?"
"It was your fault." Jeonghan quietly murmured.
Seungcheol looked at Jeonghan, confused.
Jeonghan took the coat on his lap & gently shoved it to Seungcheol, still not looking at him. "Thank you." He shyly spoke. "F-For this and for letting me sleep."
Jeonghan had to bite his lip to stop himself from gasping because of the warmth.
"It's no problem, moon boy." Seungcheol said with a smile on his face.
This made Jeonghan whip his head to look at Seungcheol.
"I have so many questions to ask you!"
Seungcheol lightly chuckled & bopped Jeonghan's nose with his finger before standing up.
"Too bad you have to save those questions for tomorrow."
"You still have uni tomorrow. You have to rest."
"Rest, moon boy." Seungcheol firmly said. "Make sure you sleep tonight."
Seungcheol began to walk off, not giving Jeonghan the time to protest or respond.
Jeonghan stood alone again, dumbfounded at what happened.
'Wait, how does he even know I'm a college student? What the fuck?'
Jeonghan slowly faced the bright moon above.
Jeonghan sighed, disappointed that he didn't get the answers he wanted.
He knew sleeping tonight would be impossible. Not when he had so much to think about thanks to Seungcheol.
But, no matter how much he tried to hide it; he couldn't deny the fact that he was happy.
He was happy he had a reason to see Choi Seungcheol again.
Jeonghan was about to dash out of the classroom once again to head straight to the cliff but before he could, Jun grabbed him by the arm.
"Where do you think you're going?" Jun raised his eyebrows.
"Uh," Jeonghan uttered. "Somewhere important?"
"I said maybe!" Jeonghan shot back.
"Jihoon!" Jun whined and turned to Jihoon who immediately avoided eye contact. "Yah, Lee Jihoon!"
"Yes?" Jihoon answered, still not looking at Jun.
"Don't tell me–"
"And I promise that too!" Jeonghan cut in before yanking his arm from Jun's grip and running off. "I love you, Junnie!"
Jun stared at Jeonghan's back in disbelief.
Jun turned to Minghao and pouted.
Minghao giggled and wrapped his arms around Jun's neck and kissed the tip of his nose.
"You still have me. You'll always have me."
"I know." He whispered, foreheads pressed together & eyes locked to each other. "And you're all that I'll ever need."
"I love you." Minghao smiled before slowly pressing his lips against Jun.
When he got on the cliff, he stretched out his limbs as he stared at the sea.
This time, Jeonghan swore to not fall asleep as he waited.
He checked his phone for the time. 9:21PM.
"Still not here, huh." Jeonghan mumbled to himself as he continued to patiently wait in silence.
After an hour passed, Jeonghan checked his phone again. 10:32PM.
Jeonghan sighed and faced the sea again, deciding to continue waiting.
After a few minutes, Jeonghan checked the time. 10:45PM.
"Who?" A voice spoke from behind.
Jeonghan flinched in surprise, his heartbeat accelerating as he turned around, clutching his chest.
"Oh my god, you scared me!" Jeonghan exclaimed as he looked at a smiling Seungcheol.
"Who else?" Jeonghan shot back, staring at him. "You, of course! I've been waiting here for ages."
"I'm sorry." Seungcheol chuckled. "At least I'm here now, right?"
Jeonghan deeply sighed as the other sat down beside him.
Jeonghan turned to look at Seungcheol, staring for a moment before speaking. "Who are you?"
"Huh?" Seungcheol shot Jeonghan a confused look. "Didn't I tell you already? Choi Seungcheol, moon boy."
Seungcheol just stared back & softly smiled.
"How did you know it was my birthday?" Jeonghan continued, not breaking eye contact.
But Seungcheol just remained silent, softly smiling at Jeonghan.
"I just did." Seungcheol whispered softly, the smile not leaving his face.
"W-What?" Jeonghan stared at Seungcheol, completely confused. "That's– That's not a valid answer."
Seungcheol looked away from Jeonghan and stared at the moon.
"S-Seungcheol." Jeonghan called out. "Won't you tell me?"
Seungcheol continued to look at the moon.
"What do you mean?" Jeonghan gulped, eyes never leaving Seungcheol.
"I said you'll get the answers you're looking for." Seungcheol chuckled, slowly standing up and looking at Jeonghan. "You just have to wait."
Seungcheol chuckled and moved closer to Jeonghan, lightly tapping the tip of his nose. "Wait, moon boy."
"Wait." Jeonghan immediately said. "Are you gonna leave already?"
"I'm afraid I have to." Seungcheol softly smiled.
"Why?" Jeonghan asked. "Why do you always leave at midnight?"
Seungcheol lightly laughed as he stared at a confused Jeonghan.
Jeonghan's eyes widened. "How did you–"
"I told you." Seungcheol cut him off. "I just do."
Seungcheol gently smiled at Jeonghan before turning around and waving his hand.
"Wait!" Jeonghan persistenly shouted.
Seungcheol turned and faced Jeonghan but before he could even answer, Jeonghan spoke again.
"I still have your coat!"
This made Seungcheol smile.
"I'll give it back tomorrow!" Jeonghan continued.
"Well, I guess I have to." Seungcheol chuckled.
And with that, Seungcheol ran off.
Jeonghan stood for a moment, hesitating whether to follow him or not. He kept looking back at the moon then the path Seungcheol went to.
"Where the fuck?" Jeonghan sighed deeply as he ran his hand through his hair, looking around.
Once again, he was the reason for Jeonghan's sleepless night.
But also the reason why Jeonghan was eager for tomorrow.
"Yoon Jeonghan!" Jun shouted as soon as the bell rang. "You're not leaving us again!"
Jeonghan froze & slowly turned around to face Jun.
"Junnie!" He sheepishly smiled. "I, uh."
"Jihoon!" Jun whined.
"Jeo–" Jihoon was cut off by the ring from his phone.
"Hannie!" Jun glared at Jeonghan.
"Junnie, I swear, just one more!" Jeonghan said.
"Where are you even going?" Jun huffed. "I can't believe you keep ditching me."
Jeonghan bit his lip before pulling Jun.
Jun stared at Jeonghan in silence, demanding for an explanation.
Jeonghan bit his lip, hesitating to speak but finally gave in under Jun's heavy gaze.
"Junnie, I–" He started. "I just have somewhere to go."
"S-Somewhere important, okay?" Jeonghan tried but Jun won't have it.
Jeonghan sighed before finally giving in.
"Junnie I just, I have someone to meet."
"What?" Jun asked, surprised. "Who?"
"I–" Jeonghan hesitated.
"What!?" Jun exclaimed. "Who? Where? How?"
"Junnie, calm down." Jeonghan said. "I– He– He's name is Seungcheol."
Jun looked at Jeonghan, confused and lost.
"I just– I have to return the coat to him." Jeonghan stated.
"I– He lent me a coat when I was walking out during my birthday." Jeonghan explained. "I-I forgot to wear one and he was kind enough to lend his."
Jeonghan bit his lip, staring at Jun.
Jeonghan bit his lip harder, hesitating to tell Jun about his happy place; the cliff.
"I– uh," Jeonghan stuttered not knowing what to say.
"Hannie." Jun raised his eyebrows.
Jeonghan gulped in silence.
"I– He just saw me walking around without a coat." Jeonghan lied.
Jun stared at Jeonghan filled with suspicion.
"I'll come with you."
"No!" Jeonghan answered too quickly. "I mean, you don't have to Junnie. I'll be fine."
He smiled at Jun.
"Hannie!" Jun started but before he could continue, Jihoon cut in.
"Hannie, Junnie!" Jihoon called, walking over to them. "What are you doing here?"
"Nothing!" Jeonghan cut off Jun.
Jun and Jihoon stared at Jeonghan, confused.
"Jihoonie." Jun whined.
"Junnie." Jihoon sighed. "Fine, you can come with me."
Jun smiled widely and faced Jeonghan who subtly shook his head.
Jihoon looked unsure but nonetheless nodded his head & walked back to Soonyoung & Minghao.
"Hannie." Jun sighed.
"Junnie." Jeonghan sighed back.
"Fine." Jeonghan sighed as he bit his lip, finally giving in. "What if I let you two meet tomorrow? Would that finally put you at ease?"
Jun stared at Jeonghan intently, unsure of what to answer.
Jun groaned, caving in from Jeonghan's cuteness.
"Hannie, you better not break that promise." He sighed.
"I promise!" Jeonghan giggled, hugging Jun. "I love you! I have to go now!"
"Say goodbye to them for me!" Jeonghan shouted, smiling widely.
Jun smiled and waved back before heading back to Minghao, Jihoon & Soonyoung.
Jeonghan ran, eagerly wanting to see the dimpled boy again.
He looked around in the dark and checked his phone. 10:05PM.
"He should be here by now." Jeonghan whispered as he hugged his knees closer to his chest and stared at the ocean.
"Choi Seungcheol." He whispered to the winter breeze that softly blew on him.
"Yes?" Someone answered.
Jeonghan flinched in suprise. Knowing who it was, he quickly turned around.
"Stop doing what?" Seungcheol chuckled as he sat down next to Jeonghan who exhaled in relief.
"Stop appearing out of nowhere!" Jeonghan answered. "Are you a spirit or something!"
"Shut up." Jeonghan grumbled, breaking eye contact with Seungcheol.
"So? Did you bring my coat?" Seungcheol softly smiled, still staring at Jeonghan.
"I did." Jeonghan mumbled as he took it out of his bag.
"You know, you didn't have to return this." Seungcheol spoke as he placed the coat on his lap.
"I had to!" Jeonghan insisted, earning a confused look from Seungcheol.
'So I could see you again.'
"Thanks? I guess." Seungcheol chuckled.
"No," Jeonghan shook his head. "Thank you. For this, for everything."
Seungcheol just softly smiled at him before gazing up at the moon.
The two of them sat with only the sound of the waves filling in the silence.
"Uh," Jeonghan gulped and softly whispered. "Seungcheol?"
Seungcheol hummed in response and looked at Jeonghan.
"Can you–" Jeonghan started. "Would you meet with me tomorrow afternoon?"
"Hm?" Seungcheol raised his eyebrows.
"I– My friend, he–" Jeonghan stuttered out, unsure. "He wants to meet you."
Seungcheol stared at Jeonghan in silence, not responding.
Seungcheol just blinked a few times in silence.
"So, uh, maybe we can meet when the sun is up and not when it's the middle of the night?" Jeonghan continued, hopefully staring at Seungcheol.
"W-What, why?" Jeonghan looked at Seungcheol, disappointed and a hint of sadness evident on his face. "Are you busy tomorrow afternoon?"
Seungcheol slowly nodded his head as he turned away from Jeonghan and looked up to the moon.
"Then," Jeonghan continued, not wanting to give up & break his promise with Jun. "Tomorrow night, maybe?"
Jeonghan bit his lip, waiting for Seungcheol to answer. He would just convince Jun to stay with him until midnight.
"I'll try, moon boy."
This made Jeonghan smile a little as both of them stood up.
"Wait." Jeonghan said before Seungcheol could turn to leave. "Uh, can we meet a few meters away from here?"
"This place, only I know about it." Jeonghan continued. "Well, at least before you came. Now only you and I know about this. And I– uh, I'd like to keep it that way?"
Jeonghan could feel his cheeks burn as he unknowingly bit his lip.
"Then, I'll wait for you at the main road?" Jeonghan asked, eyes lighting up.
He just nodded his head again, staring at Jeonghan.
"See you, moon boy." He smiled one last time before leaving.
"Haohao my baby." Jun cooed at Minghao. "I have to go somewhere with Hannie today. I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?"
"Junnie, we can still go with Minghao." Jeonghan spoke up. "We'll meet with Seungcheol by the evening."
"Seungcheol?" Minghao asked, confused.
"I– uh," Jeonghan stuttered. "He's a friend."
Minghao was about to say something back but Jun subtly shook his head with eyes talking to Minghao, telling him to not press further. And Minghao understood his soulmate.
"Then, where should we go first?" Minghao smiled as he linked his arms with both Jun and Jeonghan, pulling at them.
The three spent the whole afternoon playing and walking around town.
Jun wrapped his arms around Minghao's waist and pulled him close. "Bye, baby."
"Bye, Junnie." Minghao giggled as he closed the gap between them and kissed him softly.
Minghao laughed as they pulled away.
"I'm dragging Jun away before he has the chance to take this inside." Jeonghan said as he tugged on Jun's arm.
"Too bad." Jun pouted & kissed Minghao's forehead.
"Take care you two!" Minghao smiled as he waved at them.
"I love you!" Jun shouted back one last time before Jeonghan and him disappeared from Minghao's sight.
"So, where are we going?" Jun asked.
Jeonghan stopped under a lamp post and Jun looked at him, confused.
"Hannie, what are we doing here?"
"Waiting for him."
"Hannie, are you sure Seungcheol will come?" Jun asked. "It's past 10pm already."
"If you say so." Jun answered, looking at Jeonghan who was smiling at him.
The two resumed talking to let time pass by as they waited for Seungcheol to arrive. But an hour has passed and the dimpled boy was nowhere in sight.
"What? No!" Jeonghan argued. "He'll be here, I swear."
"Oh!" Jeonghan suddenly stood up. "See! He's here!"
Jeonghan ran towards the dimpled boy who was walking towards them.
Jun jogged towards them and stopped beside Jeonghan.
"Junnie!" He looked at Jun. "This is Seungcheol."
"Seungcheol, this is Jun." He introduced the two.
Seungcheol softly smiled at Jeonghan who was eagerly introducing them.
"Jun." Jeonghan whispered. "What are you doing? Greet him properly, don't be rude!"
"Hannie," Jun stared at Jeonghan. "What the fuck are you saying?"
"What?" He said, taken aback.
"Yah," Jun began. "If he couldn't come you could've just told me!"
"Jun, what the fuck are you saying?"
"I'm saying that you could've just told me he couldn't come instead of fucking around and joking with me."
Jun stared at Seungcheol.
"There is no one in front of us!" Jun shot back. "Stop it, Hannie."
"W-What," Jeonghan stuttered out. "S-Seungcheol, talk to him."
"S-Seungcheol." Jeonghan called out, hand reaching out to touch him until Jun grabbed it.
"Jeonghan, stop." Jun sighed. "Let's just go."
"But Jun, he—"
"This isn't funny, Hannie. If you're not going, then I am."
"Go, Jeonghan." Seungcheol softly smiled as he walked closer to him and lightly tapped on his nose. "You'll understand soon enough."
"I promise." Seungcheol whispered, intently staring at Jeonghan. "Now, go."
That night, Jeonghan dragged himself back home in silence.
October 9th, Saturday | 10:30AM
Jeonghan left his house and went to the cafe, deciding to walk in order to calm his thoughts down & put on a perfect facade.
He texted Jihoon, letting him know he was already here.
Jeonghan lifted his head to greet Jihoon and Soonyoung but the moment he did, he forgot how to breathe.
Instead of seeing Soonyoung, he saw a very familiar dimpled boy.
What. The. Actual. Fuck.
But he wasn't the only one who was shocked, surprised & confused. Jihoon was mirroring his expression, absolutely lost on what was happening.
"Hannie, you know Seungcheol?"
Jeonghan's expression didn't change at all. His gaze averted back to Jihoon, who was as lost as he is.
"Jihoonie, how the– what– why are you with him?"
"Hannie, Cheol is my childhood friend. How on earth do you know him?"
"Seungcheol!" A bewildered Jihoon turned to Seungcheol. "How does Hannie know you? What the fuck, someone explain, even I am confused."
"Jeonghan and I already met before." He told Jihoon before averting his gaze to a gaping Jeonghan. "Right, moon boy?"
"I-I–" Jeonghan uttered, lost for words, his mind not processing what was happening.
"Wait, what." Jeonghan snapped his head to Jihoon. "Did you just say Jun and Seungcheol met last Thursday?"
Seungcheol bit down on his lip hard to not smile.
"Remember Jun and Minghao tagged along last Thursday with Soonyoung and I, we met up with Seungcheol since I was helping him with all his stuff. They all know each other, except for you."
"Jihoonie! Cheol!" Jun called as they walked closer, his eyes averted to Jeonghan who looked ready to kill; Jun smiled mischievously. "Hannie!"
"Wen. Fucking. Junhui." Jeonghan called out, gritting his teeth.
"Are you fucking kidding me." Jeonghan growled, fists curling up into a tight ball.
"Why? What did I do?" Jun teased more.
"I almost lost my fucking mind from all the thinking." Jeonghan murmured.
"Wait!" Jun hid behind Jihoon. "It was your fault! You dumped water all over me during winter!"
"Wen Junhui," Jeonghan repeated.
"Jihoonie, help me." Jun gulped.
"I'm gonna fucking kill you." Jeonghan smiled.
"What the fuck is happening?" Jihoon said as he stared at the two running away.
Seungcheol and Minghao just laughed.
"So? Someone explain, Jesus Christ."
"Calm down, Jihoon." Seungcheol said, still lightly laughing. "Jeonghan and I did meet before today."
"Where?" Jihoon asked. "How? When?"
"Uh, we bumped with each other on town during his birthday."
"And why is Jeonghan set on killing Jun?"
This made Seungcheol and Minghao laugh once again.
Seungcheol nodded his head and continued, "When Jun and I met, he was so surprised. He asked me if I knew Jeonghan and I said yes and then we enlightened each other on everything."
Jihoon just deeply sighed, whether if it was because he was relieved or because of his friends. No one knew.
After a few moments later, the two came in, Jeonghan sarisfyingly smiling while Jun was limping.
Jun sat down beside Minghao and buried his face on Minghao's neck, pulling him closer as he whined about how cruel Jeonghan was.
Jeonghan sat between Jihoon and Seungcheol, looking proud at what he did.
Jeonghan glared at Jun and then averted his gaze to Seungcheol, who was already staring at him with a soft smile on his face.
"Wait, Soonyoung is calling."
Jihoon answered his phone and went out of the cafe, leaving the four in complete silence. Not one of them opened their mouth to say a word as they stared at each other.
"I'm sorry, I have to go. Soonyoung needs my help with something." Jihoon stated. "I don't have to worry since you know each other already. Take care, okay."
Jihoon waved goodbye and hurriedly left the cafe.
"What?" Jeonghan whipped his head to Jun.
"I mean, I'm pretty sure you two need to talk." Jun smirked as he stood up and gently pulled on Minghao, intertwining their fingers together.
"Fuck you, Jun." Jeonghan cussed, flipping off Jun.
"You still love me anyway." Jun stuck his tongue out.
"Bye, Hannie! Bye, Seungcheol!" Minghao waved. "Take care, both of you!"
"I can't believe you." Jeonghan lowly mumbled, a pout forming on his lips.
Jeonghan slowly lifted his face up and looked at Seungcheol.
"Don't be so mad." Seungcheol softly smiled as he reached out his hand and lightly tapped Jeonghan's nose.
"Didn't I tell you you'd find your answers soon?" Seungcheol stared back into Jeonghan's eyes, a smile on his lips. "Ask away, moon boy. I promise I'll answer so don't be mad anymore."
"Tell me," Jeonghan began. "Who are you?"
"Choi Seungcheol, 21 years old, I just moved from Daegu to Busan. I'll start uni next sem with you." Seungcheol smiled. "Nice to properly meet you, Yoon Jeonghan."
"One answer." Seungcheol chuckled. "Lee Jihoon."
Jeonghan continued to look at Seungcheol with a puzzled expression.
"So you knew me when you found me?"
Seungcheol smiled at Jeonghan, dimples showing.
"I was surprised to see you, moon boy."
Seungcheol's smile faded as he stared at Jeonghan's eyes with worry and care.
"Why?" Seungcheol softly asked.
"I-I–" Jeonghan stuttered out. "I told you."
Jeonghan swallowed hard and looked up to meet Seungcheol's eyes.
"It was because of the moon's beauty." He smiled.
"But," Jeonghan continued, staring at Seungcheol with eyes full of wonder and curiousity. "How did you find me?"
"I just did."
"Oh." Jeonghan breathed out.
"Y-Yeah." Jeonghan nodded. "No, wait. Why do you only meet with me when it's night?"
Confusion and curiousity was written all over on Jeonghan's face again.
"Jesus christ." Jeonghan sighed. "I fucking thought you were a ghost or something!"
This made Seungcheol laugh brightly.
"I told you I was 'or something'!"
"Already?" Seungcheol asked, still chuckling. "But we just properly met each other, I'm hurt."
Jeonghan rolled his eyes but couldn't stop the smile forming on his lips.
"Shut up." He mumbled, grinning.
He stared at his phone for a while before typing to reply to Seungcheol again, biting his lip as he did.
Two, they never touched anything related to Soulmates. Not one question or statement was spoken about this topic.
And Jeonghan didn't know if he should be happy, thankful or what.
"Is that Seungcheol?" Jeonghan asked as he nudged Jun who was beside him.
"That is Cheol!"
Jeonghan giddily smiled and called Seungcheol.
"Seungche—" He got cut mid-sentence when he saw Seungcheol wasn't alone and another boy came into view.
"W-Who?" Jeonghan whispered as he turned to Jun and Jihoon.
Jeonghan gulped and returned his gaze to Seungcheol who had the boy's arms slung around his shoulder.
"I-Is that his—" Jeonghan swallowed hard. He didn't know why but he didn't want to continue asking if that boy was Cheol's soulmate.
"His soulmate?" Jun continued for Jeonghan, looking at Jihoon.
"I-I'm not sure." Jihoon bit his lip, confused as well. "I've never asked Cheol about that."
"Is Hannie...?" Jun stared at Jihoon.
"I don't know." Jihoon shook his head as he pulled on Jun.
The two followed Jeonghan who was in a hurry to leave.
'Why am I feeling like this?'
Jeonghan wasn't sure why.
He checked his phone all day to see if a certain dimpled boy texted him but he didn't. Seungcheol didn't.
"That stupid idiot didn't even text me." Jeonghan grumbled, eyebrows furrowed. "How much time could single text take? Stupid fucking idiot."
He rolled on his bed and hugged his pillow tightly.
"Why am I even feeling like this? So what if he was busy with someone all day? So what if he was too busy to remember me? I don't care."
Jeonghan mumbled into his pillow. He flipped himself over & stared at the ceiling.
But the lump forming in his throat, the sting in his eyes and the continuous throbbing in his chest said otherwise.
"I really don't care at all."
That's why when Jun and Jihoon were at his house and he suddenly got a text from the dimpled boy, he was ecstatic.
"Hannie, what are you doing?" Jun asked, confused and surprised from Jeonghan's sudden enthusiasm.
"Going out." Jeonghan answered as he put on his coat.
"Where?" Jihoon asked, confused as well.
"Why?" Jihoon continued, sitting up from the bed.
"To study of course." Jeonghan brightly smiled at the two.
This made Jun and Jihoon even more confused until Jun eventually figured it out.
And with that Jeonghan was gone.
"Jihoonie." Jun stared at Jihoon. "Jeonghan is—"
"Junnie." Jihoon cut him off and gulped, looking back at Jun. "I know."
"Moon boy!" Seungcheol called out as he walked to Jeonghan. "What are you doing outside?"
"Really?" Seungcheol sighed as one of his hands reached out to touch Jeonghan's cheeks. "You idiot, you should've waited inside. Why do you always have to freeze yourself?"
Jeonghan almost melted at the touch.
Needless to say, Jeonghan's cold cheeks instantly burned warm as it was painted pink.
"Sit wherever you want, moon boy."
"What the—" Jeonghan breathed out, surprised and amazed. "Are you seriously going to read all of that?"
'Whose fault is that?'
"It's okay." Jeonghan smiled. "I wasn't doing anything at home so. Go ahead and study, I'll just quietly watch you."
Jeonghan stared at Seungcheol in silenece, millions of thoughts running through his head. He wanted to ask who was the boy he saw before, why was Cheol busy and lots more.
"You sure you don't want a picture?" Seungcheol suddenly asked.
"I know you said you would quietly watch me but I might melt at this rate, Hannie." Seungcheol chuckled.
Jeonghan felt his cheeks burn, whether if it was from the comment or the nickname. Jeonghan didn't know.
"As you wish, moon boy." Seungcheol lightly laughed. "Red looks good on you."
Jeonghan flushed deeper and buried his face on his arms which were on top of the table.
"Moon boy." Seungcheol softly whispered. "Moon boy, hey."
Seungcheol softly smiled at Jeonghan who was sleeping so peacefully and reached out his hand to push the hair away from his face.
"Jeonghannie." He tried again, whispering. "Wake up. It's time to go."
"Are you done?" Jeonghan mumbled, half-awake.
"I am." Seungcheol smiled at a sleepy Jeonghan.
"What time is it?" Jeonghan yawned as he looked at Seungcheol.
"Past 7pm." Seungcheol answered. "Let's go, sleepy head."
"Wow." Jeonghan breathed out, mesmerized as he stared up at the sky.
"Shit." Seungcheol cussed.
"It is beautiful. But—" Seungcheol sighed. "My apartment is far from here and I'm not that fond of walking in this weather."
The two remained silent before Seungcheol sighed again in frustration.
Seungcheol turned around to leave but Jeonghan grabbed him by the arm.
"Wait." Jeonghan stated, making Seungcheol look at him in confusion.
"Oh?" Seungcheol cut Jeonghan's rambling and raised his eyebrows.
"Why? I haven't even said anything yet!" Seungcheol laughed as Jeonghan turned away from him to hide his bright red face.
"No, go away." Jeonghan lowly grumbled. "Walk home and freeze yourself, I don't care."
"I was just kidding!" Seungcheol chuckled as he put his hands on Jeonghan's shoulders and turned him around.
Jeonghan flushed deeper as he felt his heart skip a beat. He immediately turned around & started walking.
"As you wish, moon boy." Seungcheol laughed harder as he followed a flustered Jeonghan to his house.
When they got there, the two went up to Jeonghan's room to find warmth after walking through the freezing weather.
"I think this might fit."
Seungcheol smiled before grabbing the sweater and took off the current one he was wearing.
And Jeonghan couldn't help but stare.
"Like what you see?"
The frozen Jeonghan blushed deep red, his whole face turning into the colour of a tomato.
"Sorry, Hannie. I promise I'll stop messing with you."
The two became silent with only the sound of Seungcheol changing his clothes filled the room. Jeonghan bit his lip, debating with himself.
"H-Hey, Cheol." Jeonghan softly called out, still not turning around to face Seungcheol.
"Hm?" Seungcheol hummed in response, still getting dressed.
"W-Who were you with last weekend?"
"Y-Yeah." Jeonghan swallowed hard. "I– We saw you last Saturday with uh, with someone in town."
Jeonghan bit his lip as Seungcheol remained silent for a moment. God, his heart was about to jump out of his chest.
This made Jeonghan turn around from the great news he heard.
"Really?" He asked too enthusiastically.
"Yeah, his soulmate and him visited me last weekend." Seungcheol smiled. "Why?"
"I– uh, nothing."
He bit his lip as he debated with himself once again, knowing that this was the perfect opportunity to ask Seungcheol about his soulmate. He wasn't sure why but hearing Seungcheol's answer scared him. A lot.
"H-How about you?" Jeonghan shakily asked, looking at Cheol. "Where's your soulmate?"
The moment the word "soulmate" slipped out of Jeonghan's mouth, Seungcheol's expression changed. His smile was wiped off of his lips as his expression hardened.
Jeonghan bit his lip harder as he tried again, "Seu–"
"Jeonghan." Seungcheol lowly spoke, not looking at Jeonghan in the eye. "Drop it."
Jeonghan shivered at the tone Seungcheol used. He couldn't talk back.
Seungcheol immediately pulled his hand away but Jeonghan saw it. He saw a black mark.
"S-Seungcheol–" Jeonghan shakily breathed out.
"Cheol." Jeonghan called out, mixed emotions overflowing.
Seungcheol sighed before sitting down on Jeonghan's bed. He looked at Jeonghan and patted the space next to him.
"Come here." He softly spoke.
Seungcheol remained silent for a few moments before rolling his right sleeve up, revealing a pitch black sun mark.
"Where's my soulmate?" Seungcheol lowly spoke. "She's dead."
Jeonghan could feel his own heart throb.
Seungcheol's voice broke as endless tears fell down.
Jeonghan tried to swallow down the lump in his throat, tears glassing over his eyes as he wrapped his arms around Seungcheol and held him tight.